She didn't knew what those warm fuzzy feelings were, she didn't understood why his warmth calmed her demons down. She couldn't understand why his care soothed her scars and felt safe in his embrace.

An unknown feeling settled in her heart, a part wanting to receive that attention and a part of her mind demanding her to stay away from him.

What a tragedy life made her, it's not that she doesn't wants to let him in but it is all dark there and when she would let him in. It will be too dark and he might leave, She can't bear it all again.

This time she might not able to survive.....

~♥~

Have you ever felt a sting in your heart just because your loved ones are hurt? That is what I am exactly feeling from yesterday, seeing her all broken and emotionally exhausted.

She had a side of hers which she tried to hide from everyone of us with her coldness but in reality, she was all miserable from inside. She is still scared which makes me scared.

Scared, what if I hurt her? What if I do something that will remind her of her past and she again might have panic attacks.

And what if I lose her?

No.

I shuddered at the mere though, that is the last thought I would ever like to imagine.

She entered my life without any warning but had my heart even before I could say no. I lost myself in her embrace and right now having her in my arms, I understood one thing.

Before, I thought I just wanted her in my life, by my side. But right now I realised I just don't want her but I needed her in my life.

She became my sanity.

But lying in my arms with dried tear strains on her face, it hurts me to see her in pain. She should be bossing me around, glaring at me for becoming a fool, should make me forget that I am her boss.

Maybe I was never able to notice the tears she holds back everyday, I wish someday she would trust me enough to tell me her past. Even if she doesn't wills to still, I will try, I will try to become her friend first. Who would guide her out of the darkness. 

I just wanted to keep staring at her, the peace on her face she has while sleeping. How her lips slightly parts, or the messy locks of hair that falls upon her forehead.

Her even breathing fell upon my chest and her hands were tightly wrapped around my torso as if I will leave her any moment.

How much I wanted to scream that I would never leave her but all I could do right now was stay quiet and peer at her.

A soft sigh escaped from my lips as she tightened her hold around me. Her lips slightly touched my skin, making me shiver at the contact. I breathed out slowly and kept by palm on her back.

She slightly stirred in her sleep and shifted sideways, opening her eyes slowly. Her hazel orbs locked with my pale green ones, she looked at me dazed, as if not believing that I am actually here.

Her hands slowly made their way towards my cheeks and she touched it slightly.

" Ashton! " she whispered, hastily.

I nodded with a smile and she frantically got up, startling me. But instantly regretted her decision when she held her head, it might be paining I guess.

" Alaia, wait I am getting water for you" I said and quickly walked to the kitchen to fetch water for her.

When I returned, she was rubbing her temples slightly. I made her drink water and she looked a bit better.

" What the hell are you doing here! " She asked, her eyes blazing fire.

Her question startled me, wasn't she the one who held my hands to stop me from going, Didn't she remembered anything?

" I- I me.... Actually, you fainted yesterday so I brought you home and Macey gave you medicine so you dozed off holding my hand

"So I wasn't able to leave your side and also Macey told me to take care of you as she had to urgently leave for Paris "

Half lie and half truth.

I did not wanted to mention how scared and miserable she seemed yesterday, and I don't think she would even want to hear that.

" Get out of here " she ordered, glaring at me.

And yes people, the bossy Alaia I was missing is now back! A smile creeped on my lips seeing her again back to normal.

" You freshen up and I will make breakfast for you " I told her and was moving ahead to do so but her voice stopped me.

" You don't need to, I can manage myself " she grumbled and walked past me. I signed, looking at her retreating figure.

It is going to be a long day.

Thankfully today is Saturday so I can take a holiday, one day off isn't bad, right! And since Alaia is again back to herself, so It will take a lot of persuasion from my side so that I can take care of her.

Because this Alaia won't accept anyone's help, she's like this only! But however she is, I love her.

Now breakfast for her, Hmm... let's see what's stored in the kitchen. I rummaged through the fridge and scrunched my nose looking at the ingredients in front of me. I found eggs, toast, bacon, pancake mix but what do I make?

Now it's super duper confusing, I scratched back of my neck and looked at the ingredients confused. After thinking for two minutes I decided to make pancakes, I hope she likes it.

Well.....fingers crossed.

While I was making pancakes, I saw her coming out wearing black sweats and a white crop top, I was literally gawking at her.

I was so lost in her that I didn't even realised that she started walking near me.

" Sir, I told you that I will manage " she said, standing in front of me.

I sighed, I hope I will have enough patience today to deal with it now. I know convincing her is a big deal, even harder than scoring a perfect hundred in maths.

" Alaia, Macey told me to take care of you so please let me. And I very well know that you can manage and before you talk about office then we both are on one day holiday. "

I declared leaving no room for her to argue back and focused back on flipping the pancakes.

With a huff she sat on the dining table, grumbling something with a pout, making me smile slightly.

" What are you making, sir? " she asked, leaning against the table.

" Alaia we are not in office, you can call me Ashton here and I am not taking it as a no " She grumbled something like 'bossy' and my smile etched wider.

" Fine..... So 'Ashton' tell me what are you making? " Now my girl is talking!

" Pancakes " I said and keenly observed her face.

I could have bet on thousand dollars if I say, I saw her smile slightly. I could take it as a sign that she loved pancakes. Thanks to my stars, I chose perfect breakfast.

I flipped the pancake and served it on the plate for both of us. Walking near the refrigerator, I took out maple syrup and kept both the things on the table along with curtliries.

I motioned her to eat, she was quite nervous at first. I chuckled, well understandable. You can never trust a guy's cooking. But hey, not everyone is a bad cook, I have been making my own breakfast from last few years so I am habituated with cooking.

" You can have it, Alaia. I am not that bad of a cook " I chuckled and she shook her head.

" I didn't mean that.... It's just, I never thought that you could cook. " she said, with a amused expression. I can do several other things, honey, you just aren't aware.

" I cook my breakfast everyday, I am habituated. " She looked surprised with this information I guess, but took a bite anyway.

Seeing her face I could tell that she liked it. She definitely must be surprised by my cooking skills, and why shouldn't she?

After all I am the great Ashton Johnson.

" It's actually good. I never thought you could cook this good! " she said, taking bites of her pancake.

I grinned, flashing my charming smile to her.

"Ah! I know, I am a great cook! Thank you " I bowed my head dramatically and she rolled her eyes.

With an amused smile she shook her head. A smile spread across my face too and I sighed softly, I hope she keeps smiling always.

" Uh... So any plans after breakfast or wait this is afternoon, brunch! Yes, so any plans as we are on leave so..." I trailed off.

I actually wanted to spend some time with her, but not locked in the house. I wanted to freely roam around with her. She stopped eating and looked at me. I gulped at her intense gaze, what's going on in her pretty mind ?

" Want to visit my special place? " she asked and I leaned on the table, my curiosity kicked in. Of course I want to. If she will ask like this then obviously I will want to. I nodded and she resumed eating.

" but where is it? I mean your speacial place" I asked and she gulped whatever element was left on her plate.

" Just wait for few hours " Trust this woman when you want to die out of curiosity.

" You can get back home and freshen up. "

She said after few minutes and I looked at her trying to read her eyes. But she again became that cold Alaia, her eyes were no longer expressed any emotion.

Will it be OK if I leave her alone here? I hope she wouldn't do anything now, what if she gets her panic attacks?

" I won't do anything silly and I will be fine. Don't need to think too much " she said making me gasp.

I am telling you, this woman has some super powers. She can read minds!

" Are you sure? " I asked again.

She glared at me and that was enough for me to shut up and obey her order. Well even the lion is scared of lioness and I don't even know if I am a lion or not.

♥

So here I was in my house, after taking a shower I wore some casuals which I solely missed due to my office work. These babies barely get a chance to see me!

I don't know where or what her special place is, but I am kind of excited. I think the last time I enjoyed was when I visited amusement park with them last week.

I am hoping for a good day.

Well fingers crossed.

.....

So here I am again standing in front of her apartment waiting for her to come out as she mentioned. Finally she came out, my breath hitched for a moment.

She was literally looking like an angel in white, her eyes seemed so innocent yet fierce at the same time.

" Let's go. " she said and held my hand.

Her this act gave me goosebumps and a wave of happiness and excitement ran through me. I squealed from inside, breathing out slowly, I tried to control my emotions so that I do end up making fun of myself.

Were her feelings changing towards me?

She was literally dragging me but my eyes were fixed on our entangled hands. With a smile I grasped her hand tighter, making her gasp softly.

Let's see where is her speacial place.

♥

When she held his hands tightly, many unspoken feelings were conveyed, many unsaid promises were made.

Their stars looked at them and smiled, this indeed ignited new feelings in them.

~♥~

Hi people, I know I am dragging their part a bit but I want them to spend some time together and I also wanna thank-you for 103+ k readers on my os book and also 5k votes.

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