A/N: hope you enjoy if you do please comment or vote for this chapter it means a lot if you do. Also this chapter is back to Jessie's PoV but I don't mention it cause this story was in her PoV anyway, the only one I'll do that in is if it is someone else's PoV in the chapters.  Ps. Sorry about the lots of once upon a time references if you don't understand them. I've really got to stop with it, I mean I wanted this character to be similar to me and in that she loves this tv show. Haha oops... See you at the end of the chapter.

I looked down at his hand in mine and smiled at him. "So you and Sarah found me huh?" I asked, he chuckled and nodded.

"We were worried it had been about half an hour since you went to the bathroom and we had no idea where you were. Sarah was frightened, and I was worried." He admitted, "I know you say that this isn't my fault but I believe it is. I mean, if it wasn't for me you wouldn't have gone down that dark path again..." He trailed off as I raised an eyebrow.

"Trystan if this is anyone's fault it's as much mine as it is yours. I'm the one who ran away from it instead of talking to someone. You might have made me horrible, but I'm not blaming you." I said, "Alright? Just relax." I pulled my hand out of his and gently put my hand over his and stroked it.

"So what does this mean for us?" He asked and I shrugged.

"I don't know what it means. I guess I'm giving you another chance, when I probably shouldn't because you betrayed my trust, but I just have a feeling that there's more to you than meets the eye." I admitted. "I might be wrong but I'm gonna take that chance that I'm wrong about you and how you come across. Something one of my favourite characters didn't do until later, with her current boyfriend." I said. He looked at me, and furrows his eyebrows.

"You're talking about that show again aren't you?" He asked.

"Kinda." I nodded, "how did you know?" He chuckled.

"You love that show, it's clear you do even though you haven't mentioned you love it. I mean you talk about it a lot."

I bit my lip, "I guess it's cause it's about the one thing I've always wanted, well at least something I've always believed in." I said.

"What's that?" He asked. I looked him straight in the eyes and said,

"Hope."

"Any other reason you watch the show?" He asked.

"Well yeah but I'm gonna stop talking about it, plus I wouldn't tell you anyway." I said.

"Hot actors?" He guessed. I started blushing and he knew the answer. "Thought so."

"Okay maybe it's true, but seriously, it's for believers, the show is about hope." I said, the blush on my face now dying down, but I started grinning like an idiot.

"Your smile is so beautiful." He whispered. I looked down; he was making me blush even more. He lifted my chin up so he could see my face properly again. "Why are you blushing?" He asked.

"Because..." I said, "Because a guy like you never goes for a girl like me, you said it yourself, I'm not your kind of beautiful." I shook my head.

He moved his hand from my chin to my cheek, "do you really think I meant that?" He asked. I just shrugged. "Of course I didn't, at least at first I thought I meant it because I didn't think I'd ever like you. The truth is I didn't want to like you, because I thought you were like every other girl. I thought you were clingy and never going to let me move a muscle from you being so needy. Then I realised you were different and I was only rude and mean to you because I didn't want to admit to myself that you were someone that could break down walls that not even the closest people to me could do." He said, "the thing is I'm a guy that's done what I've done for ages. Not because I want to but because I have to. It sounds cliché I know, but it's the truth, I didn't want anyone to know the real me and then I met you."

I smiled. "It's a good thing I don't mind cheesy things. I mean that was cheesy but also super sweet." I giggled. "Who knew the boy I called a jerk could be so sweet?" I wondered.

"You know what they say. You learn something new everyday." He said, smiling at me. "So when do think you'll get out of the hospital?" He asked.

"What this hell hole?" I asked, "no idea, the only nurses I've seen, is when they come to check my blood pressure and to see if I'm okay, things like that. No one has told me whether or not I'm allowed to go anytime soon." I shrugged.

"Has your mum visited you?" I nodded.

"Yeah you should have seen her face she shouted at me for about ten minutes, before she burst out into tears." I said, "truth is I know why I blacked out, I was on medication for anxiety and I didn't take it, so it's why the whole thing happened to be honest. At least that's what they think it is."

"You're on medication?" I nodded. He frowned, and sighed, "I'm sorry, I didn't realise if I knew then I wouldn't have treated you like I did."

"You weren't to know." I said, "Sarah doesn't actually know she only knows that I've had anxiety and stuff like that. I mean it would explain why I was acting differently, I hadn't been taking them in a while and everything was just overwhelming and I couldn't cope with all of it. I told you my fault." I said.

"Yeah but it was also partly my fault for treating you like that-" I rolled my eyes and cut him off,

"Just shut up please! Before I have to do something that actually will shut you up and I won't know if I'll regret it or not."

"What you were you thinking about doing to shut me up?" He wondered.

"Pretty sure you know what I could do to shut me up. Exactly what you did to me. Well not exactly but it was in a way to shut me up, or to explain what you wanted to do." I shrugged. He smirked.

"In that case, I know exactly what you would do to shut me up then."

"And there's that jerk I thought I got rid of and just when I thought you were about to-" and that's when he cut me off with a kiss. I gasped and kissed him back, deepening the kiss slightly, and sighing as the kiss deepened. I smiled widely as I pulled away from him.

"7 billion smiles in the world, and yours is my favourite." I laughed.

"So cheesy, and so hot at the same time." I mumbled.

"Jessica, did you really just call me hot?" He asked, I giggled even more.

"What can I say I'm attracted to a hot jerky guy who has a soft side." I said, "what else did you expect from me?"

"Very true. Sarah will want to see you I'll go send her in and we can talk more later." I raised an eyebrow.

"Talk or 'talk'?" I teased, smirking at him. He just rolled my eyes,

"I think this flirting is wearing off on you Gerrick."

"Oh no you did not just do the last name thing." I said in disbelief.

He smirked once again. "Oh but I did, and I know exactly who you were thinking of when I said it." He said, "you were thinking of that couple now what are they called?" He asked, rhetorically, putting his hand on his chin pretending to think.

"Captain Swan." I mumbled, "I think this TV show is starting to rub off on you Devlin. You sure you haven't watched more than one episode? I haven't mentioned them that much."

"Maybe I watched an episode where two certain people got together. Besides you did mention them earlier." He said. I shook my head.

"I didn't say their name I just mentioned something that was to do with them that's all."

"Exactly!" He said, in a matter-of-fact tone. "I'll let Sarah in. I'll see you later?" I smiled and nodded.

"See ya Devlin."

"Gerrick." I nodded my head in return. He winked before he left the room completely.

Sarah walked into the room, Emi and Rachael following behind. "They came as soon as they could, they just arrived. Wanted to know if you were okay."

"I'm fine Sarah. They said I had the anxiety attack because I wasn't taking the medication that helps me with it." I said.

"Why didn't you tell me you were on medication?!" She exclaimed.

"I just explained this to Trystan. I have a serious case of Deja Vu here seriously. I didn't want to worry you okay? And honestly... I was scared."

"Scared of what?" She asked.

"Scared that if I told you, you wouldn't want to be friends with me anymore." Sarah frowned.

"Of course we'd be friends with you, why wouldn't we?" Rachael asked.

"Sarah told us about the anxiety and things and it's okay to be scared once in a while you know." Emi said, "but seriously you're our friend. What kind of friends would we be if we just decided to leave you?" Emi asked.

"A friend that left me like all the others did." I admitted.

Sarah sighed, "okay, let's change the subject, you and Trystan were in here for a while, wanna explain that?" Sarah said, "and before you say, they know about the kiss you and Trystan shared."

"We just talked about... Stuff." I said, I didn't want to tell them about our other kiss at least not yet.

"Anything else happen?" Emi asked, "is he really not that big of a jerk after all?"

I laughed. "He's a jerk, but he's different. At least he is around me, I don't know when you were talking to him Sarah before you found me, but he acts like a jerk, when he is one and also isn't." I said. "I won't kiss and tell about anything else alright?"

That's when they're eyes widened and I realised what I just might have admitted.

I had kissed Trystan. Again.

"You kissed him, again?" Sarah exclaimed. I swallowed, sighed and nodded.

"Uh...Yeah?" I said more as a question. She looked at me but I couldn't tell if she was happy for me or disappointed with me.

That was when she screamed in frustration and left the room, leaving me speechless and not knowing what to do or say to her about what I had just admitted.

A/N: hope you enjoyed if you did please give this chapter a vote/comment to tell me what you think of it and if you like it. Also this is like my longest chapter and I'm really happy right now. Sorry if it's crap and you'll understand why Sarah did what she did in the next chapter.