A/N: hey guys just so you know this chapter is a bit angsty in a way cause of the stuff that happens and how Trystan acts around Jessie the next day and he's quite mean and stuff so you've been warned! Hope you enjoy and if you do please comment on and/or vote for this chapter, thank you so much guys I love all  you guys! I'll see you at the end of the chapter! And the stuff I use is explained at the end.

I was dreading going into college the next day. I had to face him, and I really didn't want to. He left me to face my mother to explain what had happened, and how we were actually working on a school project and no making out the whole time. I also managed to go to hating him once again after thinking he changed because of what he did the next day.

I met Sarah at the gate of the college.

"Have you started the project yet?" Sarah asked, "how is it with Trystan?"

"He came over last night and we got about half of it done. But, something happened." I said, now looking at her for the first time that day. Her eyes widened.

"What the hell happened?!" She exclaimed as we walked into our first class. I swallowed.

"He kissed me." I whispered. "And I kissed him back."

"You what?! Seriously? What happened that made you end up kissing one another?" I shrugged,

"It really doesn't matter I'll tell you later okay? I promise. I just can't think about what happened right now." She nodded as we sat down in our seats.

As our first class finished and it was time for break we decided to get a snack from the cafeteria. I got curly fries.

As we sat down at a table, Sarah tapped my hand.

"So tell me what happened!!" She practically squealed.

"Okay fine, I'll tell you!" I said, and I started to tell her what happened the previous night...

... After I finished telling her, she was grinning like an idiot.

"He totally likes you, you have to see him, why were you dreading seeing him?" She asked

"Did you not here the end?" I asked, "he left me standing there to explain everything to my mum!" I exclaimed, "he's a really big jerk, what kind of guy does that? Most guys would help you explain, but he just left me not knowing what to say to my own mother!" I said. "I hate him, I hate him so much, that's why I was dreading seeing him today. I hate him, but he drives me crazy!" I shook my head, "but I'm scared of what he's doing to me, he's changing me. I don't trust that easily, apart from you, and just when I was beginning to trust him, he does that!"

Sarah sighed and went over so she was sat next to me. She touched my hand, "it's okay, Jessie. Why do you not trust a lot?"

"I- I had a bad time at my last school, I went through a bad stage in my life." I said. "It's nothing, honestly."

"No it's not nothing, you can tell me you know." She said gently. I sighed and sniffed,

"I went through a bad time, so bad that I didn't want to be alive." I said, "But-but I pushed through because I needed to. I had to, for my family, if it wasn't for my family, then I don't think I could've coped." I said, "kind of like you, it was my family that helped me through it." Sarah smiled and hugged me just as the bell for next class rang.

"And now you have me. Now come on let's get to class, and forget about him, I know you started to trust him and he betrayed you but don't let it get to you. Now come on we don't wanna be late for creative writing." She smiled as I nodded before finishing my curly fries. I got up and went with Sarah to creative writing where I would see Trystan again, but this time I would try and not let him get to me.

I sat down next to Sarah in creative writing. I sighed as I waited for the class to start. As class finally started Trystan hadn't showed up, I wouldn't have cared, but something about it seemed strange. He arrived about 30 minutes after class started.

"Trystan, you decided to join us today have you?" The teacher asked, in a very patronising tone. He cleared his throat, looking down. He was wearing blacked out glasses. Like sunglasses, only it was sunny, it was raining.

"Sorry miss, I missed my train and couldn't get an earlier one than this." He said, though I was sure he was lying. She sighed and nodded.

"Take a seat and we'll talk after class." He nodded and walked over to his seat and next to me. He said nothing. Absolutely nothing. I frowned.

"Uh... Are you okay?" I whispered, but he ignored me as if I didn't say anything. "Okay then..." I mumbled. Jerk I thought to myself. I then went back to doing what the teacher told us to do before Trystan so rudely interrupted the class.

About 10-15 minutes later, the teacher told us to go into our pairs, so we could keep working on our projects or at least talk about them. But that isn't what I wanted to talk about with Trystan. I wanted to talk about the night before and why he just left me.

"So what else do you wanna plan for our story?" He asked.

"Why did you just leave last night? Why didn't you help me explain to my mum that I was actually working instead of making her think that I just invited you over to make out with you? She thinks that now, and it's all because of you!" I said to him when the teacher wasn't listening to us.

He rolled his eyes, "why would she think that Geek, hmm? Fancy me or something?" And he's back! I thought. I shook my head.

"Just answer the question." I snapped at him, he wasn't getting to me, not right now.

"Fine, I did it because I didn't want people to know that I managed to kiss an average looking geek like you." He said bluntly. I held my breath suddenly. "And if I helped you tell your mum she would've told people that her daughter was kissed by-"

"A jerk like you." I laughed, "you'd think my own mother would stoop that low?" I asked, scoffing, "you're ridiculous, just when I decided I thought I would trust you, you first do that and then you do this? I cannot believe you. You're heartless!! A complete heartless jerk!" I exclaimed.

I suddenly put up my hand, "Miss, may I go to the toilet?" I asked.  I had to leave I was about to breakdown; I didn't want anyone to see. She frowned.

"Yes Jessie you may. But can I talk to you outside for a second." I nodded and got up from my seat and walked outside with the teacher.

"Jessie, are you okay?" She asked, "I heard you and Trystan fighting. Is he being rude to you? Is he bullying you?" She questioned. I shook my head.

"Of course he isn't he just said something that made me think about stuff." I said, "Made me think of myself and what I'm like in myself." I shrugged, as it was nothing. But it wasn't. It was more than that. She frowned, but nodded.

"If you need someone to talk to Jessie I am always here for you." She said. I put on a smile and I thanked her before walking to the bathroom. As soon as I got there I looked at myself in the mirror and all I saw was an ugly person looking back at me. I closed my eyes and tried to forget everything and everyone.

Then all of a sudden I couldn't breathe. Words were going around in my head never good enough, stupid, fake, ugly, over dramatic, idiot! I couldn't stop it.
I was hyperventilating unable to control my breathing and then everything went black.

A/N: I hope you enjoyed and if you did give this chapter a vote or a comment and tell me what you think will happen in the next chapter! I'll see you in the next chapter guys! Byes!! P.s. Also everything about the character some of it is based on me but again I didn't go through what I wrote and what she said she went through etc. I've never really experienced depression I'm mostly basing this on what I've seen on what other people feel or have experienced probably most of it will be maybe based on things like Demi Lovato's story or something I remember from a TV show I used to watch. A lot of things I have made up and actually part of what happened at the end I remember someone playing a game on what it is like when having panic/anxiety attacks so yeah. See you in the next chapter guys! Bye!