SAAD'S POV :

"What I become?" I asked to myself

I never thought that I have to face all these things

I Never thought that Rimsha, whom I love more than everything else.. The girl who made me crazy with her first impressions.. This girl will destroy me and peace of my life

"Why I loved you Rimsha?" I asked to her in my thoughts

I never glanced at any girl with love other than Rimsha, but she never understand my love. How unlucky I'm, I never got her love. Even after marriage, I didn't got the love from my wife. But she was right.

We can't make one fall for us forcefully. She don't love me, than what's the matter of wasting my time on her.

Mummy was right, I took a wrong decision, but what was my fault? I just love her, other than that I never made any mistake. If I would love some other girl to this extent I'm sure we both would be happy with each other, but after my all efforts I am fail in mending her heart.

Maybe I don't deserve love in my life. I'm getting pain from the one whom I love..

'Don't marry the one whom you love but the one who loves you'

This line.. I heard this somewhere and at that time I thought who the mad said this? But now understand that is true.

A person who love you will do everything to make you happy, as I was doing for Rimsha but...

"Excuse me" I listened a voice which dragged me out from my scenario. That was a feminine voice and lift my head to saw the owner of voice.

"Excuse me" She again said while holding her waist with her right hand..

She was standing just a step away from me, and glaring me. I saw her from head to toe, she was wearing navy blue joggers with yellow T-shirt and black Hoodie. Her black orbs were fixed on me.

"Ooo hello Mister... What ever you are? Can't you see?" She asked after snapping her fingers in front of my eyes and I looked here there.

"What?" I asked when didn't found anything and puffed on my cigarette

"What what?? Thought you are not looking like but are you an unlettered?" she yelled on me and I glared her, who was she to talk to me in that way?

"Excuse me" I said after raising my brows

"No... You can't be excused for what you are doing" She said after glaring me and I glared her back.

"Who are you to give me forgiveness? I'm not asking by for any type of forgiveness, so you may leave" I said while gesturing towards my right side to leave but that ill mannered girl... she glared me again with her black orbs and huffed

"Who am I? Oh good question.., I'll introduce myself but first tell me Where are you right now??! No worries, don't pay stress on our little brain and listen to me.. You are in an open place which is full of greenry and different type of flowers and this place is called Park. You know the spelling of park?....You are silent... It means you don't know It's okay its PARK.. P. A. R.K... And for your kind information this park" After all the speech which she dilevered in a single breath she stopped in between to take a long breath and I was confused about her acts, If it was any boy on her place I'm sure he won't go back on his two tiny foot because I wouldn't leave him without breaking his bones, but the girl was lucky enough to be a girl.

"Hmm soo where I was..??! OH yeahh.. For your kind information its a park which is a public place and you... Mister.. Whatever you are.. You are smoking here that too in the front to of sigh board of 'No smoking' can't you see? And you were asking that who I'm so Mr... Whatever you are.. I'm a responsible citizen of Delhi so I should stop you to do anything wrong in a public place" that girl delivered a while speech and I was captured by thousands of thoughts about her, I was feeling angry on her speech.

"If your speech is free of cost then good because I don't have change for you, so leave" I said while glaring her and throw the remaining piece of cigarette, and open the box to out drew out another one from it but that was empty. I finished that in a single night.

"I don't need your even a single penny. I am not dilevering any payable speech or..." this time I didn't let her complete.

"What the hell with you? Can't you leave me alone? It's a very big park, go to some other corner and try to find out another one to spread this knowledge. And don't you know the meaning if Leave? For your kind information to leave means go from here if you don't know the spelling of leave then .... L. E. A. V. E.... this is spelling and now get lost" I bust on her and she glared me.

"Stop your yelling drama... I'm not afraid of you at all... But you will be... I think... Though you are not looking like but you are sounding like a hoodlum" She said after glaring me with her black orbs.

"Yes I'm a hoodlum, a famous hoodlum, before I can add your name in my murder list... Disappear from here" I said while pointing out the way to leave and she again glare me.

"It means my guess was correct, you are really a criminal minded person" She said and luckily left from there.

"Hell with her, mental girl." mumbling the same I held my head which was paining badly. I never thought to get this type of love and life.

I wish I never lived Rimsha, at least we both would be happy in our life.

I was busy in thoughts and I decided to went back to Home.

"Wait..hey you wait" a manly voice fell in my ears but I continued my walk towards the exit of part...

"Stop, wait" This time I stopped because I felt the call was for me, I turned back and saw a police constable coming towards me.

"Now what the fu*k this is" I mumbled and that police constable came near me.

"Who are you?" He asked me while holding his official knobstick on his one hand and pointing towards me with the index finger of his other hand.

"Why?" I question in return of his question

"Answer what I'm asking. What is your name? Where do you live and what is your profession?" He asked strictly.

"Excuse me! If you have to enquire about me you take an appointment and come to meet my secretary. She will tell you everything. You can't enquire about me in this manner without any of my fault. So please will you tell me why are you asking?" I asked in professional way.

"You are seems to be a gentleman so please cooperate with me, its my duty" He said and I nodded

"What help? Which type of cooperation you need from me?"

"What's your name?"

"Saad"

"Where do you live and what's your profession?" He asked me and I was confused about the enquiry section, but suddenly my gaze went to a tree actually not on the tree but the one who was peeping out behind the tree. That was the same girl she was watching me from a distant point and she was hiding herself behind the tree.

"I live in Aurangzeb Road, and I'm a business man" I replied about the asked questions and the police man nodded.

"Show me your I'd card" I listened his voice and drew out my wallet from pocket.

"You are wasting your time, I know that girl send you to me" I was angry at that time, first she gave a long lecture and then she sended a police man to enquired about me.

"This is my visiting card, now I think you can understand that I'm not a criminal, that girl was doubting on me and she was a mad girl" I said to him while showing my visiting card and he nodded.

"Sorry to disturb you but its our duty"

"I understand" Saying that I scoot towards the tree where the girl was hiding and after witnessing me approaching her she started running and I also started running to catch her I wanted to ask what was her problem, but she was at very far distance and she disappeared from my sight. I looked everywhere but there were no one beside some people who were busy in jogging and morning exercise.

"Damned" cursing the girl in my mind I steeped towards the exit to approach to my car.

I drove to home and when I entered the home there was a different scene.

Mummy and Samra were crying sitting on the sofa of living room and Simra who was also crying was giving water to mummy and Zuhaib was standing while holding Zain in his arm and he was patting Samra's head.

Before I could ask something...

"Saad Mama...." Zain shouted and everyone looked at me. Samra ran towards me and hugged me.

"Saad Bhaiii..." She was crying and all the others were still looking at me with shocked faces.

"Samra.. Babu what happened?" I wrapped an arm around her shoulder and asked but she was crying with hiccups

"Bhai where were you whole night? And why your mobile is off?" that was Simra was still crying but she was scolding me like an elder one as she always did since childhood, she was five years younger than me but ten time wiser than me.

"Why you all are crying?" I asked and caressed head of Samra who was still crying resting her head on my chest. Simra took steps towards me and she also hugged me.

"Bhai you made all of us scared" She said and wrapped my other arm around her shoulder. My both younger sisters were crying hugging me and I was standing silently, caressing her heads.

"Stop crying you both" I said and Samra looked at me after removing her head from my chest.

"Bhai.. You don't love us." and after this sentence she placed her head on my chest. It seems like both of them were become kids again when they use to cry in front of me when someone breaks their dolls.

"Zuhaib at least you tell me why all of them are crying!" I asked to my brother in law and mummy glared me then turned her face to other side but she had tears in her eyes.

"Saad you went out of home without informing where are you going and your mobile was off, you know I was searching for you everywhere" Zuhaib said, and disappointment was clearly visible in his tone.

"Samra, Simra your bhai is not that weak that he would commit suicide if not get success in his life" I said and pecked the heads of both.

"Bhai you made us frightened" I listened the shivering voice of my youngest sister Samra and I realised that I was enough blind by Rimsha's love that I forgot all the other loves which were in my life.

Selfless Love of my mother and sisters

"I'm sorry, I didn't had idea that you would be so much scared because of me" I said while breaking the hug and wipe the tears of both my sisters.

"Mummy" I stepped towards her and kneeled down in front of her.

"I'm sorry" I whispered after holding her hand

"Saad don't do this to us or with yourself." Mummy said with teary eyes and I nodded silently.

"You both, stop crying and don't cry again, your bhai is still alive" I said to both of them and they nodded with a small smile.

"Aapi Zain is watching you" Samra said to Simra and she wiped her tears.

"Stop it three of you, its enough of your crying for today. Zain come here" I ordered three ladies then summoned my little Tiger, and he jumped out of his father's arm and ran towards me.

"Champ you are a grown up man" I said after kneeling down to get to his level, and he nodded proudly

"Your mumma, nani and Chamma Aani are crying and you are watching them!!" I said and he made a cute pout with innocent face.

"Mama I asked but mumma didn't tell me why she was crying. And Chamma Aani also didn't" I listened his cut complaint and nodded.

"Now make everyone smile and got a big chocolate from Mama" I said and he smiled then kissed my cheek witnessing that scene everyone laughed.

"Now no more rona rulana (crying)" I said and everyone nodded.

"Simra should we go now?" Zuhaiv asked and Simra nodded in reply.

"No, Simra and Zuhaib you are not going anywhere before lunch, and Samra you go and instruct the maids for today's meal. And said them to make chocolate mousse for my tiger" I said and everyone give a joyous nod and I smiled after kissing the cheeks of my tiger.

I took steps towards the room holding a big smile on my face. Everyone was satisfied that I wasn't that much broken and I made them satisfied with my smile. But when I stepped in the room and closed the door behind me the smile left my lips. And the broken pieces of my heart again got spread around me.

The window seat was empty. Whenever I entered in the room she was mostly sitting on window seat but that time not only window seat but my life and heart were also empty without her.

'Saad why are you not stop thinking about her?' I scolded myself and took steps towards the washroom.

"Rimsha now I don't have any space for you in my heart and my life." I mumbled while closing my eyes and let a cold sigh out before stepping in the washroom.

I decided to go to office because staying in the home would made me more weak.

THIRD PERSON'S POV:

SOME TIME DESTINY GAMES ARE AMAZING, IT TAKE AWAY A THING FROM YOU. THE THING WHICH YOU LOVE MORE THAN YOUR OWNSELF BUT PROVIDE YOU A SUBSTITUTE FOR THAT.

SAME THING WAS GOING ON WITH RIMSHA. SHE LOVED MAAZ BUT DESTINY TOOK HIM AWAY FROM HER AND PROVIDE HER SAAD BUT....
SHE WAS BLIND BY HER FALSE EGO AND NOW....

SHE WAS IN THE WAY OF LOOSING A PRECIOUS GEM AND TRUE LOVER...

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