✶Dont worry ... you can trust me✶

✶fluff / angst ✶

✶part 1✶

3 months ago

Genya and Muichiro were dating for almost 3 years now, Muichiro thought their relationship was going great but Genya didn't think the same. One time Muichiro was at butterfly mansion and he overheard conversation between Shinobu and Genya. Genya was telling Shinobu how clingy and needy he is, that made Muichiro feel sad and he tried to change. Some time later Muichiro went to mission and Genya stayed. When he came back from a mission he wanted to surprise Genya so he told everyone not to tell him that he's back. The next day Muichiro went to Genya's estate but he saw something he didn't expect. When he walked into the estate he saw Genya with another boy while they were kissing. When Genya noticed Muichiro, he pulled away from the kiss and crossed his arms. " you know... when I first met you, you were different. You weren't that needy, Clingy, Jealous or other things. But then when we started dating you changed and I hate that. I know you can't control your amnesia but everyday hearing "sorry I forgot" or "what are you talking about" I just can't take it anymore. I dont have feelings for you anymore sorry. Now please get out" He said and walked to other room with other guy. Muichiro walked out from Genya estate and started crying. Genya was the only person who Muichiro really trusted and showed emotions around him not like in front of other Hashira's. In front of other Hashira's he didn't show ANY emotions, he always had that blank face. "I know you can't control your amnesia but everyday hearing "sorry I forgot" or "what are you talking about '' I just can't take it anymore." ... "Maybe that's the main reason he cheated on me... I tried to change myself but my amnesia stopped me everytime.." He thought to himself and went to his estate. On the way there he heard Tengen and Rengoku calling for him but he ignored them. He wasn't in the mood to talk with anyone right now. When he got to his estate he went to his room and dropped on the bed and cried, he thought "maybe I'll forget about it tomorrow" but he didnt it's been a 3 months now and he still remembers it like it was yesterday. After that Muichiro gave up on love.

Tanjiro's pov

December 3

I was at the butterfly mansion talking with Shinobu. It's been 1-2 weeks since I first met other harshiras ,they're all really nice and fun to talk to. Even with Sanemi, if you get to know him better he's really nice but there is one hashira I never talked to, Muichiro Tokito. I tried to talk to him and introduce myself but he ignored me or just walked away. I thought that was a bit rude but I don't know, maybe he just doesn't have the best experience with new people. While me and Shinobu were talking I asked her about Muichiro, she told me

Shinobu : ah Muichiro... he does have some trust issues and he can be really mean and rude but if you get to know him and be kind to him, he will show the same to you

Tanjiro : oh I tried talking to him but he ignored me everytime

Shinobu : haha yeah, it was like this with everyone here except for Genya. Muichiro really liked him but then something happened between them, we still don't know what. Just keep trying. I am sure you'll get along.

Tanjiro : okay thank you

After that we talked for more time until Oyakata-sama called me. He told me that I will go on another mission and that I can pick who I can go with. "maybe I can pick Muichiro at least I can get to know him better" I thought to myself and said that I would like to go with Muichiro. Then Oyakata-sama told me the mission will be in 2 days and if I could inform Muichiro about it. I agreed and walked away. I asked Mitsuri where I can find him, she told me that she last saw him at training field, I thanked her and walked away. I got to the training round and I saw Muichiro there. I walked up to him and said

Tanjiro : Hey Muichiro! Just wanted to tell you we will go on a mission together

Muichiro :.... when?

Tanjiro : in two days

Muichiro : Okay and .... who are you again?

Tanjiro : I-.... I Literally talked with you yesterday how could you not remember me

Muichiro : ...

Tanjiro : anyways I'll go now bye

I then headed to Kanao's estate because I was bored and I had nothing to do. After I got there, me and Kanao sat down and talked for some time, then Kanao asked me

Kanao : I heard you're going on a mission. Who did you pick to come with you?

Tanjiro : oh Muichiro I want to get to know him better. Also I tried to talk to him yesterday and today he was like "Who are you again?"

Kanao : Oh Shinobu didn't tell you? He has amnesia. When he first got here it took like 3 whole weeks to make him remember our names.

Tanjiro : W-WAIT REALLY?! I told him "I literally talked with you yesterday, how could you not remember me?!" god now I feel horrible

Kanao : hey its okay he'll probably forget about it

Tanjiro : what if no?

Kanao : I bet he will ,its okay dont worry about it

Tanjiro : okay thank you Kanao

Kanao : no problem!

2 days later

It was around 12am, I waited for Muichiro so we could go to our mission. I sat down and kept waiting, after some time Muichiro came and we headed to our mission. I tried to talk to him but he ignored me again. "is he mad at me for what I said? or he forgot who I am again?" I thought. Our mission was in Azabu so we had to walk for quite long and the snow didn't make it any better. We walked for some time and we just stayed silent. I wanted to talk to him, I wanted to be friends with him or at least get to know him better but I am not going to force him or anythi-. *achoo*. I heard Muichiro sneeze, when I looked at him his face was all red and his hands were wrapped around himself. I took off my haori and put it on Muichiro. He looked at me and said,

Muichiro :... t-thank you... but what about you? you're not cold?

Tanjiro : no problem and nope I am fine I am used to cold weathers

Muichiro : o-okay

Oh my god finally he said something-. Maybe this is my chance, maybe he'll start talking to me.

Tanjiro : soo when we are already on mission with each other why not get to know each other?

Muichiro : ....You start

Tanjiro : okay soo .. (after he introduced himself)... so what about you?

Muichiro : ehm.. I am 14-

Tanjiro : WAIT YOU ARE 14!?

Muichiro : yeah?

Tanjiro : You are 14 and you are a hashira? Wow that's impressive, how long did it take you to become hashira anyways?

Muichiro : 2 months

Tanjiro : I-... That's amazing you are really talented you know that?

Muichiro :.. Thank you

Tanjiro : Did you just decide that you want to be hashira?

Muichiro : I guess. I don't really remember...

Tanjiro : oh right sorry

Muichiro : it's fine

Then we stayed silent for some time until we got to train station. After Rengoku's death I hated trains and I am always worried something like that will happen again and Akaza is still alive and before Rengoku died I promised him I will kill Akaza no matter what. We got to the train and sat down at our seats. Muichiro gave me back my haori and thanked me again.

Muichiro : Are you okay? you look a bit worried about something.

Tanjiro : Oh yeah, it's about the last mission I was on. After Rengoku's death I just hate driving trains....

Muichiro :.. Rengoku?.... is he the-

Tanjiro : The flame hashira.

Muichiro : o-oh right...

Tanjiro : ...... also Shinobu told me that you are really mean sometimes b-

Muichiro : yeah yeah I know.. its just I don't trust them so I don't see why I should be kind to them

Tanjiro : You don't trust them? And why is that?

Muichiro : Just... Imagine trusting someone for so long but end up being betrayed by them... I just need more time to know more about them so I know I really can trust them... but with my amnesia... it's pretty hard, I may talk to them and have a good time with them but at the end of the day.... I just forget everything.....

Tanjiro : oh...if I may ask. Is there a reason why are you worrying about being betrayed or-

Muichiro : Lets just not talk about it, okay?

Tanjiro : okay, sorry

18:30

When we got off the train, we saw a woman waiting for us. She told us that miss Shinobu contacted her about our mission and that she will show us where we will spend this night before we go on mission. She showed us estate where we will stay, she told us where everything is and then walked away. Muichiro and I went inside and I asked Muichiro if he's hungry because I was so when I prepare food for myself I can do it for Muichiro too. "yeah kinda" Muichiro answered and then I said "I'll make us both food you can take your stuff to our room". After I finished making our food, we sat down and ate together. I wanted to talk with him about something but I was worried I mind make him mad.

Tanjiro :... oh I wanted to ask when I first came here ....like four months ago? I saw you so many times with Genya but after some time you guys stopped talking. I wanted to ask you or Genya because you guys seemed so happy together a-

I looked at Muichiro, he was looking at his lap so I couldn't see his face but I could sense sadness from him.

Tanjiro : I-I am sorry I didn't mean to make you sad!

God I messed up again. Muichiro didn't say anything, he just walked away. "maybe there was really something that happened between them"

Muichiro's pov

I closed the door behind me and sat down on floor. Tears ran down my cheeks. "How f-cking pathetic. Crying again. Just get over it Muichiro god damn it" I thought to myself as I wiped tears from my face but tears kept coming. It's been three months since Genya and I broke up and it's still bothering me... I then heard a knock on the door. I woke up wiped my tears again and opened the door. I saw Tanjiro standing there with a worried look.

Muichiro : What do you want?

Tanjiro :its about what I said I am sorry I didn't know that something happened between you and Genya. I was just trying to talk to you and maybe build up some friendship with you but I mest up, I am sorry

Muichiro :....it's fine I guess, you didn't know

Tanjiro's pov

It was almost 9pm and we were getting ready to go. I dressed up to my uniform and took my katana and went outside to wait for Muichiro. After like 5 minutes Muichiro came out and we walked to a nearby forest. When we got there we walked around the forest, it was really quiet. I don't like when it's this quiet but I guess I need to get used to it if I want to hangout with Muichiro. Again I wanted to start talking to him, I don't want to give up but what if I mess up agai- I stopped thinking about that because I sensed a demon around us, I stopped and looked around.

Muichiro : are you okay?

Tanjiro : I sense a demon

I told as Muichiro put his hand on his katana and looked around. I looked behind me and then back on Muichiro "BEHIND YOU!" I screamed because the demon was right behind Muichiro's back. Muichiro dodged but demon managed to scratch him. I looked at his arm, it was bleeding.

Tanjiro : your arm is bleeding

Muichiro : its fine, lets kill this thing

His neck was so big I didn't know if I could cut off his neck. I was thinking about how to kill it but then I sensed another demon. Muichiro told me that he will get demons attention and I will try to kill him, I agreed. Some time later the demon was paying attention to Muichiro only. I ran behind him and wanted to use my breathing until I saw another demon running right behind Muichiro before I could warn him the demon grabbed him and threw him away. He hit the tree and fall to the ground without moving ."MUICHIRO!" I screamed and wanted to ran to him but I couldnt I needed to kill the demons first. There was now two demon so it was even harder.

(I know he killed an upper moon I know. It's just a fanfic, okay)

20 minutes later I was sitting on the ground panting, those demons were finally dead... but then I remembered "Muichiro!" I screamed again and ran to him. I picked him up and looked at him. He was bleeding from his head and chest. I needed something to wrap around Muichiro's head and chest but I had nothing so I put him on my back and ran back to estate. When I got to our estate I put Muichiro on couch and went to bathroom to grab a medkit. Then I went to livingroom and cleaned the blood from Muichiro's face and chest and wrapped it with bandages.

Next day

When I woke up I looked at Muichiro, who was still laying there. I woke up to make myself a breakfast and for Muichiro too if he wakes up. When I was in the kitchen I heard a loud noise coming from the living room. I ran there and I saw Muichiro finally awake laying on the ground. I ran up to him and hugged him.

Muichiro : oh- I am sorry I tried to wake up and I-....

He said and hugged me back

Tanjiro : God, I am so glad you are okay. I was so worried about you.

Muichiro :.... I-I don't really know what happened, can you explain ?

Tanjiro : oh yeah sorry so

After I explained he remembered what happened.

Muichiro : oh I remember now..... were you really this worried about me?

Tanjiro : of course!

Muichiro :...why..there's nothing special about me...it would be nothing if I-

Tanjiro : Oh shut up, don't say that! There is something special about you

Muichiro : what then

Tanjiro : (Just think about some super nice things Tanjiro would say because I cant think of anything. Its not like I cant find anything on Muichiro that suits him or something else- I am just not good at giving complimets. Every time I wrote some complimets I cringed so hard)

Muichiro : oh.... t-thank you

Tanjiro : You don't need to thank me, I am just telling the truth.... I can't name a single person who's not thinking the same.

Muichiro then looked at his lap and I could sense the sadness again

Tanjiro : d-did I say anything I am sorry.

Muichiro :.....n-no it's fine it just made me think of someone

Tanjiro : ....Genya?....If you don't mind me asking, what happened between you and Genya? you don't need to answer

Muichiro :.... yeah it's about Genya and I guess I can tell you, I haven't told anyone else but for some reason I feel like I can trust you ........me and Genya used to date, we were happy together.. well maybe I just thought that because after 3 years of dating I found him cheating on me. He told me its because that I was acting clingy and too needy and also about my amnesia. I-It happened 3 months ago a-and I just can't stop thinking about him. H-He was the only person I actually t-trusted and he did this. That's why I don't trust anyone now, I don't want the s-same thing to happen to me again.

After Muichiro finished, tears were running down his cheeks. I hugged him and rubbed his back as he cried into my shoulder.

Tanjiro : ....Don't worry....you can trust me

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