People socialized all through Tony's new Malibu mansion for his New Year's Eve party. Loki walked around with his hands behind his back observing these people he had purposefully brought together. He thought about how Thanos used to torture him and how petty he was about the throne. He just wanted to be Thor's equal back then. Now he thought about how all this got him here, and he realized he was worth something. He valued himself not to much on pride, but he knew he wasn't just a shadow. Through all this he knew, he just wanted a fresh start.

He knew not of these earth traditions or culture so he was reliant on Thor, who was glad to have his brother back. It's not that the other Avengers didn't like him, in fact they forgave him. He just would prefer Thor's help, or maybe y/n, but he couldn't find her. He wouldn't be surprised if she was rather in the corner, asleep on one of the couches, reading a book, or she simply didn't come at all and was watching a movie on her own.

Then Loki kept hearing about one thing. A midnight kiss. He didn't understand. Well he knew about kissing, however was it required? If it was, he didn't necessarily want his first kiss to be like this. He decided to talk about it with Thor.

"Thor... "

"Oh hello brother. Is something wrong?"

"Well I just don't understand... What's this midnight kiss?"

"Oh well you basically kiss someone at midnight. It's like to kickoff the new year. You-" before Thor could finish Loki was on his way. He didn't want his first kiss to be like this, but he supposed it's what he should do.

He would walk around and approach women to ask. Some said they already had someone to kiss, others politely declined, and others declined to him rather rudely. He figured that's what would happen so he went back to Thor.

"Thor... I've been asking women all night and everytime they reject me. I know I've done some bad things, but I'm not that man anymore. What am I doing wrong?" Loki whispered.

"Loki, you didn't let me finish before you left. It might be a tradition here, but you don't have to kiss someone if you don't want to. Also you don't just ask some random maiden. Well you can, but most the time people will kiss someone who means a lot to them. Someone they like or even moreso, love." Thor patted Loki's shoulder. "Loki you should do what you want. You don't have to kiss anyone, but if you do make it worthwhile. It would be your first kiss if I'm not mistaken."
Loki nodded. "I know you'll make the right choice, whatever you do."

Thor moved on and Loki was overwhelmed he wasn't quite sure what he wanted to do. He began to roam again when he bumped into Wanda.

"Oh I'm sorry." He looked down.

She smirked looking at him. "It's okay... You know I don't do well with the cold anymore ironically, but Tony says the balcony on the furthest hallway to the left is one of the best places to get a view of the fireworks."

Before he could say anything she was gone. Why did she tell him that? He watched as she walked to Vision hugging him and Loki immediately had a longing to have something like that. Almost all the Avengers were dating or married. Here he was never participating in any of that the whole of his life. The only love he knew for a long time, was a mother's love. Frigga. He missed her dearly, but he knew she wouldn't want him to grieve. He still had so many things to work through and figure out himself. He decided to stop thinking about these things.

All was quite he looked up to see he had gotten away from the party. It was rather comforting the odd silence a break from the mass of people here mostly didn't know. However he heard music that was different than the party's music. It was something he was familiar with. It seemed to be a collection of some of y/n's favorite music. He followed the music that ultimately... Led to the balcony. The closer he got the more he could hear a voice singing to the song. It was beautiful to him even more than the actual singer. As he approached he noticed someone was in the huge white cotton hammock.

"Party to loud for you too?" It was definitely her.

"I suppose. You have this balcony to yourself?"

"Suppose so. The only time anyone else has come was Wanda and Vision... They left when they realized I was here."

Well now he knew why Wanda told him about the balcony. He assumed she read his mind and saw y/n filling his thoughts obviously leading him to her after.

"You okay Loki? You blanked out there for a while." He looked at her and apologized.

"There's no need to apologise Loki, now come here." She said patting the hammock. He didn't want to just stand there so he slowly made his way to her.

"Come on Loki. I'm not gonna bite you. And the hammock isn't gonna bite you... Though it could flip us both over eheh. Which it won't as long as we stay balanced. Treat it like a chair. Sit in it first, then stretch your legs out, just like me." He began to do as she told him.

"There you go. That wasn't too bad was it?" He was basically touching her side now and their faces were very close. "No." He whispered.

She smiled at him before looking back up at the sky while also shocking him by interlocking her fingers with his. He looked at her still this time confused. He looked up at the stars. They were beautiful, but the stars seen on Asgard were even more beautiful. Yet they still did not come close to the beauty that laid beside him. He looked back at her and saw just how absorbed she was in the stars, and she still hadn't let go of his hand. He thought about what Thor said and realized he cared deeply for y/n. He felt like himself when he was around her, and she was always there for him. Y/n helped him fall asleep at night when he just lay awake. She calmed him down when he had nightmares or got frustrated. She came to help him when he was sick even though she could've been at a theme park. She hugged him everytime she saw him, especially when he came back from a mission telling him how proud she was of him. She helped him learn new things about Earth and he told her things of Asgard. She'd read to him. She made him food that made him think of his mother. She didn't throw herself at Thor. She held his hand when he was getting anxiety. He realized just how much she meant to him. Loki hoped that he did just as much as she did for him in return. He realized most of all that he loved her.

Loki smiled and looked back up.

"It's so nice out here, and the stars are very beautiful." Y/n whispered. "It is a place to escape from all the crazy stuff going on. Now it's even better that you're here with me." He saw her smile.

"I... I'm glad I'm out here as well, and that you let me stay."

She giggled squeezing his hand. Then they were silent. All of a sudden they could hear people countdown.

Ten

Loki let go of her hand. Y/n looked at him and saw something she'd never seen before.

Nine

Love. Loki held a look of love in his eyes for her. She turned herself to look at him.

Eight

He turned to face her. She looked up at him and he looked down at her.

Seven

She placed her hands on his chest resting them there looking from his eyes to his lips and back to his lips.

Six

Loki started to wonder if this was the best idea. He looked back at her and realized there was nothing to wonder about. He knew he wanted to kiss her. He knew he wanted to be with her forever.

Five

She sightly smiled.

Four

He returned the smile with his own.

Three

She scooted as close as she could to him.

Two

Loki slowly brought his hand to her cheek moving his thumb back and forth.

One

They didn't even say a word. Slowly they connected their lips. Loki could feel her smile in the kiss her lips soft and gentle. He moved his hands to her waist and she moved her hands to tangle in his hair. Fireworks lit up in the sky and for a split second they looked up only to look at each other again.

Y/n and Loki interlocked hands again and he kissed the tops of hers. He laughed his sweet laugh when he saw her blush.

"Happy New years Loki."

"Happy New years to us darling." He laid on his back again and y/n laid her head on his chest. He began to play with her hair and he could feel her lips go up into a smile.

"Loki."

"Yes love?"

"Can we stay out here a little while longer."

"Anything for you princess."

Later he looked down to see her asleep after she hasn't been talking. He laughed kissing her forehead before he to fell asleep knowing that his heart now and forever more would always belong to his y/n, his princess.

Okay... I know that was a little late, but it's better than never right? I hope it was okay. I know it is probably similar to others and I'm sorry. I haven't been writing as much either sorry about that as well. Regardless I'm trying. Also as many times as I've been reading about the proper ways to say lay for like people and objects, I still can't manage to remember them... Also staying in one format is hard. For me anyways since I haven't been writing like I should. I almost out you instead of she several times and had to change it because I was trying to go for an actual third person book point of view or narration... I really don't know. Okay I'll stop. Hope it was good.
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