Here's another story for the amazing GirlOfTheApes

this story mentions past abuse, so be aware of that.

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Kurt was probably one of the most beautiful people Logan had ever seen in his life. Kurt was tall, and thin, and he had beautiful curly hair, a gorgeous smile, and enchanting eyes. It wasn't just his appearance though, Kurt looked delicate, and fragile, but he was actually extremely strong, and was an absolute power house. Kurt could probably kill Logan easily if he tried, not that he ever would, and Logan kind of loved the idea of it. Kurt was not just pretty, but he was a good person too, and Kurt's capacity for kindness would never cease to amaze Logan. Logan loved Kurt with all his heart, but he had no clue why Kurt loved him back. 

Logan knew that he did ok when it came to finding someone to spend the night with if he needed to. He knew he was handsome enough that people are willing to come home with him, but he's not so handsome that anyone is willing to finally come to him until their options are dwindling more and more as the night goes on. 

Logan knows that he's short, and he's chubby, and his hair is an unruly mess. He also knows that if he maybe just smiled more, he would look less scary and ridiculous, be he usually didn't ever feel like smiling, and his fake smile was embarrassing. He knew that if he even just acted nicer, or was less threatening, he might seem more approachable. Logan could count about a million things wrong with him, and almost nothing wrong with Kurt. So Logan was insecure. 

He did everything he could to make sure that Kurt was happy with him. He made Kurt meals, and blow dried his fur every night, even though it took forever, and he made sure that he complimented Kurt as much as possible, and not a day went by without Logan telling Kurt that he loves him. Logan knew that Kurt could have anyone in the mansion he wanted, he could probably even break Jean and Scott up, or date both of them, if he really wanted to, but Kurt would never do that. Logan knew that Kurt had all the options in the world, so Logan did what he could to make sure that Kurt would be happy with him. But of course Kurt noticed. 

Kurt noticed the sad, and embarrassed, look Logan got on his face when he broke a scale that he had stepped onto in his and Kurt's bathroom. Kurt noticed Logan turning from side to side in the bathroom mirror, looking at his body, and frowning in disappointment. Kurt noticed how anytime Logan struggled to reach something that was too high for him, he would get so angry and upset that he would storm off and disappear for a long time, and if there was someone around to witness his struggle, he would get so angry that his claws would just shoot out. But most of all, Kurt noticed how nervous Logan looked when he did nice things for him, or gave him complements. 

It made Kurt worry. Kurt wondered if he had been somehow making Logan self conscious and nervous. Kurt didn't think he had ever said, or done anything to make Logan feel bad, and he certainly never meant to. But the fact still remained that Kurt once caught Logan struggling to hold back tears, his bottom lip quivering, as he pinched his belly. And no matter what Kurt did to try and make Logan feel better, the man still practically refused to be shirtless in front of Kurt, and he still shied away from hugs, and Kurt was conflicted as to what to do. 

On one hand, Kurt wanted to tell Logan, as many times as Logan needed to hear it, that he loved everything about him. Kurt wanted to tell Logan that he didn't have to feel embarrassed, or insecure around Kurt, because Kurt didn't have a single bad thought about him, and definitely not about his appearance. Kurt thought Logan was very attractive, and he wanted to make sure that Logan knew that. On the other hand, Kurt wanted to respect Logan's comforts and boundaries, and he was worried that he would only make Logan feel even more embarrassed if Kurt told him that he had seen the man looking at himself in the mirror, and had seen him break the scale. But in the end Kurt figured it was best to just be honest with Logan. 

"Hey Logan, I wanted to talk to you about something." Kurt said gently, reaching out to Logan with a hand. Kurt's comforting smile faltered when he saw a look of fear pass over Logan's face, and Kurt noticed how Logan's hand shook as he took Kurt's, and sat down on the bed with him. 

"What about?" Logan asked nervously, worried Kurt was going to leave him. 

"Logan, I've noticed that you seem really insecure about your appearance. I've seen you looking at yourself in the mirror, and I've noticed how you don't like hugging me, or letting me see you without your shirt, and I saw you break the scale." Kurt said honestly, and Logan looked almost mortified, his blush reached down to his neck, and Logan began to tear up. "I want to know if there's something that I've been doing that makes you feel so afraid of me, because the last thing I want is to make you feel like you can't be comfortable around me."

"No! You've been nothing but perfect to me! I didn't realise you had seen any of that." Logan said, looking off to the side, a tear slipping down his face. 

"I'm sorry honey, I wasn't trying to upset you. I just want to talk to you about what it is I can do to help you feel more comfortable." Kurt wiped the tear off of Logan's face, and kissed his cheek lovingly.

"It's not your fault. You've never done anything wrong. You're a better boyfriend than I could have ever asked for. Other people in my past have just been less than nice about my size and weight."

"Logan you know that the only reason the scale broke when you stood on it is because your skeleton is made of metal right? You're not fat, or heavy, and you're definitely not ugly. You just have a metal skeleton."

"Either way, I'm not tall, or skinny, or beautiful like you. You could be with anyone you want, and I feel so lucky that you want to be with me, and I just don't ever want you to regret being with me."

"I love being with you. You don't have to treat me like royalty, or hide yourself, and how you feel from me to make me love you. And I don't care if you don't look just like me, I don't want to date someone who looks just like me. I want to be with you, and I love you exactly as you are."

"I love you too, and I'm sorry I'm making this difficult for you."

"You're not doing anything wrong Logan. It's ok to not like 100% of yourself, and you're allowed to want to change some things about yourself. And if at any point you want to go on a diet or something to lose weight, you'll have my full support, but just know that you don't have to change anything about yourself because I love how you look. I just want you to be happy."

"You like how I look?" Logan seemed so surprised that it nearly broke Kurt's heart.

"Of course I do. You're so strong, you're so warm, I love running my fingers through your hair, and whenever you do let me hug you, you're just so soft, and comforting that I always feel like I can just fall asleep right then. I love everything about you Logan, and I want to be able to help you love yourself too. So what can I do to help you?"

"I don't know. Just be patient with me I guess. Show me that you're here for me, and that you love me."

"That sounds great. How can I do that?"

"Just take things step by step with me I guess. Help slowly bring me out of my comfort zone."

"I can do that. Would you like to start with a hug?" Kurt held his arms open, and Logan was quick to fall right into them, making Kurt chuckle as he purred loudly, and kissed Logan's head. 

"I love you." Kurt said softly, rubbing Logan's back. 

"I love you too." Logan replied, feeling comfortable in Kurt's arms.