This chapter is pretty much just smut, so if that makes you uncomfortable, then don't read this chapter. 

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Kurt and Logan had talked about having sex before they actually decided to do it. They talked about their comforts and preferences, and they talked about things that they were not comfortable with. They had made a plan of when to have sex for the first time, but they ended up actually doing it as a spur of the moment. 

Kurt and Logan were on Logan's bed in his room in the X Mansion making out, and things quickly got heated. Logan was on his back with Kurt on top of him, and they were both quickly losing clothing until they were both down to their boxers. Kurt was kissing Logan's neck, and sucking gently at the man's sweet spot when Logan gently lifted Kurt's head to look him in the eyes. 

"Do you want to do it now?" Logan asked Kurt softly. 

"Do you want to?" Kurt asked in response, sitting up a little to look down at Logan. 

"I mean, I would like to have sex right now if you want to."

"Yeah. We talked about it before so I think we're both on the same page."

"Not to mention we both very hard right now." Logan and Kurt both chuckled. It was true though, Kurt could feel Logan's dick pressing against his rear insistently, and Kurt's own hard on was tenting his boxers obscenely and resting on Logan's stomach. "I would like to do it. Is that something you want too?"

"Yes it is. My only request is that you let me take control. I know that you're different than my past boyfriends, and I trust and love you very much, and I want to have sex with you tonight. But I'm still nervous, and I think I would feel more comfortable if you let me take the lead. Is that ok?"

"Of course that's ok Elf." Logan smiled lovingly at Kurt, and pulled the man down gently for a kiss. 

Kurt took the lead, and Logan let him go at his own speed, wanting nothing more than to make sure that he and Kurt were both comfortable. Kurt returned to kissing Logan's neck, rather proud of the decent hickey he was making, even if he knew that it wouldn't last long. Kurt began kissing his way down Logan's chest, enjoying the feeling of Logan gently tangling his hands in Kurt's curly hair. Kurt hooked his fingers in the waistband of Logan's boxers and waited for logan to nod at him before pulling them off. 

Kurt then kissed his way down Logan's stomach, and to his thighs, his kissed getting increasingly more gentle, and driving Logan increasingly more crazy as they got closer and closer to Logan's dick. Kurt held eye contact with Logan as he placed a loving kiss at the base of Logan's shaft, and then another deliberate one on the tip. Kurt pulled himself up to give Logan a chaste kiss on his lips, and then he crawled out of bed all together to pull off his own boxers, and dig through Logan's nightstand for a bottle of lube, something he was glad they purchased early. 

"would you help me?" Kurt asked after crawling back on the bed to straddle Logan, and press the bottle of lube into one of Logan's hands. 

"Of course I'll help you." Logan replied, squeezing some lube into his hand to cover his fingers. 

Kurt leaned down, resting his head against Logan's shoulder and laying against the man's chest. Logan used his clean hand to gently rub Kurt's back, and he kissed Kurt's temple while he gently slipped a lubed up finger into Kurt's ass. Kurt gasped, and bit his lip, not really used to having anything pushed into his ass. 

"Are you ok?" Logan asked as he moved his finger back and forth slowly. 

"Yeah, I'm ok. It's just been a while since I've had sex. I can't even remember the last time someone bothered to prep me first." Kurt closed his eyes and relaxed a bit, liking the feeling of Logan fingering him. 

"Well you never have to worry about not being prepped anymore. I'll be here to take care of you form now on." Logan slipped another finger into Kurt, and curled his fingers to gently rub Kurt's prostate, making the man gasp and whimper a bit. Logan slipped a third finger into Kurt, and it wasn't long before Kurts was stretched enough to take Logan's dick safely. 

"Are you ready?" Logan asked gently, kissing Kurt's cheek, and beginning to pull his fingers out of Kurt's body.

"Wait! Wait, stop!" Kurt exclaimed, hiding his face in the crook of Logan's neck, and making Logan freeze in his actions immediately. 

"Hey, it's ok. You're safe." Logan soothed, gently rubbing Kurt's back to help him calm down. "Tell me what you want me to do to help you feel safe."

"I'm sorry Logan. I know we said we would do it tonight, but I don't think I can. I'm sorry."  

"It's ok Kurt, you don't need to apologise, you didn't do anything wrong. Tell me what you want me to do."

"Can we just keep doing this? I'm fine with your fingers, but I don't think I can take your dick tonight."

"Of course we can keep doing this. It's ok." Logan kissed one of Kurt's closed eyes, and continued to rub his back soothingly while beginning to move his fingers in and out of Kurt again gently. 

Kurt wiggled a hand in between him and Logan, closer to where both of their dicks were rubbing together, and closed his hand around both of their dicks to jack them off together. Logan gasped at the feeling, moving his fingers a little faster in and out of Kurt, which made Kurt jack them off together. Kurt and Logan kissed passionately for a moment, before Kurt pulled away to kiss Logan's neck. Then Kurt bit down on Logan's neck roughly when he came unexpectedly, which triggered Logan's own orgasm. 

Both men took a moment to just breathe deeply before Kurt let go of him and Logan's dicks, and Logan pulled his fingers gently out of Kurt. Logan rubbed Kurt's back gently, and kissed Kurt's temple repeatedly. Logan was feeling pretty happy, and satisfied, until he realised that Kurt was crying into his shoulder. Logan sat up, bringing Kurt with him, and he let Kurt continue to cry into his shoulder, but internally he was freaking out. 

"Kurt? Are you ok?" Logan asked eventually, feeling a bit stupid for it, because it was obvious that Kurt wasn't ok. Logan was spiraling. He was worried that maybe he had hurt Kurt somehow, or that maybe Kurt was upset that they had been sexually active at all, or that Kurt had felt pressured into doing it. Logan was worried that he was just another person in a long string of partners who was leaving Kurt wounded and scared.

"Yeah." Kurt sniffled out before pulling back from Logan's shoulder to look the man in the eyes. "It's just been a really long time since anyone cared about me, and my needs. I can't even remember the last time I had an orgasm before tonight." 

"It's ok baby, I care about you. I'll take care of you. Anything you could possibly need, even if it's just a simple orgasm, I'm here for you." Logan assured, wiping Kurt's tears away with his hand, and very, very relieved that he hadn't hurt Kurt in any way. 

"I know you are Logan. And I'm here for you too. You're an amazing person, and I love you so much." Kurt kissed Logan on the cheek. 

"Come on, we both need to go get cleaned up." Logan climbed out of his bed, and took Kurt with him to the bathroom where he made Kurt pee, to help prevent any infections, and then he peed too, then Logan helped wipe the lube from Kurt's ass and thighs, and then both men wiped their hands thoroughly. 

Kurt and Logan both slept soundly that night, laying snuggling in each other's arms. Kurt felt safe, and loved as he rested his head on Logan's chest. Logan felt happy, and comfortable with Kurt purring softly against him. They would have sex eventually, even if it wasn't when they had decided to, but it would definitely be when they were both ready.