Alright, so I normally don't write about this part of my life because it's very private for me, but I'm making an exception this time.

Five days ago, I had written an update about my thoughts and a plan. Well, the next day all of it didn't matter anymore.

Back in July, I had unprotected sex and normally I would get my period within the week after.

That didn't happen this time.

Then by week seven, I was experiencing symptoms. For two weeks I was starting to think I was pregnant.

That's why I wrote what I did five days ago.

However, the next morning after I posted it, I got my period.

Since then I've been really upset. I don't know the exact reason why. It could be because I do want children (I'm just not in a good position at this time to have kids yet) or it's because I was so ready to talk to my mom about some things that I've been keeping to myself. I mean I could still tell her, but I haven't been able to before.

On top of that, my uterus is angry at me and making this period one of my worst.

I think we both were kinda hoping for a child. Although, for different reasons.

I'm glad I'm not pregnant because as I said, I'm not in a good position to have a child at the moment.

I'm just also really upset. And I haven't told anyone about all this. I did write about it in a personal journal of mine, but I needed something more than that.

That's why I write in this journal because it really lifts the weight of whatever is on my mind off my shoulders.

I could talk to someone, but I haven't been able to work up the courage to.

Of course, I'm not going into all of the details because I'm still working up the courage to talk about everything.

I just really needed to get this off of my chest.

So thanks for reading.

Until next time,

Later!

~MsPenguingirl1234.

Published: September 14, 2021.