So last week I was sent an email from one of the Veterinary Technician instructors and was given a list of things to do before orientation.

I had to sign onto this communication board for the class of 2022, I needed to print out the student handbook, a list of fall classes, I needed to fill out a review sheet of questions that covered the handbook, and I had to send in a picture for my Vet Tech (VETT) program ID. That all had to be done by July 6th.

Well, I can safely say that I completed it within a week. I can also say that I need to stop procrastinating before I start school full-time in a few months. I should have finished everything by Tuesday at the latest.

Because honestly, yeah, I was trying to relax on Friday because I have a very busy few weeks as living going back to being the fast-paced summer it's always been. Yeah, I was busy Saturday trying to do chores and was working on some work before I had a Zoom meeting to go to.

Sunday was Father's Day and I was in a bit of a slump. I slept in longer than I have in a long time. I did work on my review questions throughout the weekend. I even it over to my grandparents when I visited them on Sunday. It was a great time.

On Monday, I don't remember. Truthfully, this week has been a blur between schoolwork, volunteer (mostly administrative) work, chores, and trying to get out of bed earlier than I have been.

And the fact that I was trying to finish my review questions and my computer wasn't working properly. At that point, I have it a few days. First the printer (I don't want to talk about it because nothing was wrong with it, but it wasn't working for me), then my computer.

I tried taking some pictures yesterday for my ID picture and I hated it. The pictures turned out horrible, I wasn't in a good mood either.

I tried again today (with someone else manning the camera) and I've come to the conclusion that if it looks better than my driver's license's picture, I'll be happy.

Then another thought hit me; I look dead on the inside. Mostly because I hate when I have to pose for a camera. Plus, the thought of this picture being used every day for the next two years is frightening. At least with my driver's license not very many people see that and isn't displayed on my chest as this one will be.

Anyway, I finally sat down, typed up my answers (I had written the answers and figured it would be easier to upload if my answers were done electronically opposed to handwritten), then quickly turned it in. It took me almost three hours as I wanted to reread the whole handbook (for the third time), recheck my answers, finally answered the questions that were confusing to me at first, and I wanted to make sure that I was ready.

I'm thinking maybe a part of me isn't ready for a program that's this demanding. But ready or not, I'm going to try to do my best and I'm going to strive for excellence.

This has been my dream for years and every time I feel this way, I end up overcoming it and feeling better than before.

So, yeah, I finished all of the assignments today that I had to turn in.

I was hoping to get them done before this weekend because it's going to be busy, and I did!

Tomorrow, I have my chore day since I'll be driving a couple of hours away on Saturday (my usual chore day) for a wedding. Sunday will be a day for family time.

Then I have some stuff I need to do on Monday, Tuesday I have a dentist appointment, and then a few chores throughout the rest of the week.

I'm hoping to write as much as I can before the fall semester, but you never know! I could very well get nothing done in terms of writing! XD

But, seriously, I am more disappointed than my readers when it comes to me not writing because I'm the first reader of my stories. When I wrote the ending of Different War, I didn't know what it would be until it suddenly came out on paper. I want to read the stories that are locked up inside of me.

That's why I write.

I want to read the stories that are deep inside of me that verbal words can't quite crash the full meaning.

If that makes sense. I don't know what I was writing there, I guess that would be a prime example of what I'm trying to type.

Writing jokes, you got to love them.

Speaking of my dentist appointment, apparently, my dentist had COVID-19. He's fine now, but I just wanted to put that in here since I do go back and read some of these sometimes, and I remember what I was feeling and how my thoughts were towards certain things.

Anyway, I've bored you all enough as this has started to become something different than anxiety-related anything. Plus, when I wrote the title, I was totally thinking of the scene when Sofie read her mom's old diary in Mamma Mia.

Well, good night! I should go before this gets any longer and more off-topic. I just snorted at the unintentional joke I made. It wasn't really a joke, but I found it funny.

Wow, I need to stop and go to bed! Or at least, lay down and start the process of falling asleep.

This totally reminds me of my high school years.

That's it! I'm done now and I'm just going to stop typing as my fingers are hitting the wrong letters now and it's increasing getting more difficult to end this.

Later!

~MsPenguingirl1234.

Published: June 25, 2020.