Late-night anxiety/panic attacks are the worse.

The sentence above was written last Monday (8/10) because I had experienced high anxiety late Sunday night.

Since then, a lot of things have happened. School and personal things that made me step back from Wattpad as a whole to work through.

I felt very overwhelmed when the online portions of my classes started to open up and I was not ready for school to start so soon.

It took a few days, but I was able to calm myself and get prepared as much as I possibly can before classes start.

Here's a recap of what happened since I've last updated this book;

-8/5: I turned in my math units 1 & 2 homework, compared my answers, and got them all correct! I finished Sailor Moon, started Sailor Moon Crystal (because why not?), did dishes (the first time anyone had done dishes since before my sister's grad party), and cleaned the house up a little. I had some stomach issues that day and wasn't feel the best.

-8/6: I woke up early, did the dishes, completed the homework comments for units 1 & 2 (math course), vacuumed the living room, completed unit 1 quiz (I got 100%!), finally fixed my bookstore order for school, got gas (that was a fun time as I struggled to put the gas cap back on...), and got an oil change for my car. I found out that my front brake pads need to be replaced and my radiator needs to be flushed.

I did the unit 2 quiz and got 82% (9 questions right out of 11). My older sister was over and she layered my hair and shaved the back of my head a little (I am so obsessed with it). I also wrote a little of TUAoC!

-8/7: I took a nice relaxing shower, did my weekly chores (litter box, Rio's cage, laundry, dog poop), I cleaned the house, and cleaned the downstairs bathroom (that was a spontaneous thing). That evening I went to my brother's girlfriend's younger sister's graduation party. That was fun. Unfortunately, Grey had to be home alone from 5:30 ish - 9:15. My parents came home from my dad's business trip an hour later. I finished Sailor Moon Crystal and started season two of The Umbrella Academy. Then I stayed up past 3 am.

-8/8: I finished up The Umbrella Academy, went to a friend's grad party in between watching, did a load of my dad's work clothes, started watching my favorite anime again, and wrote a little more of TUAoC.

-8/9: My dad left early in the morning for another business trip, did unit 3 reading, started on the homework, and fell asleep anxious as two of my classes appeared on the online platform for my school, and it hit me that this is real and it's happening.

-8/10: I slept in still tired from the high anxiety from the night before, I took a shower (I don't know why but taking a shower helps me whenever my anxiety gets bad and/or my depression comes back full force), I worked on unit 4 homework, didn't understand a single problem (the wording for the problems we're different than what I was shown in the book), my older sister took my car for a few days, and I received an email about a zoom meeting is happening for school on Monday (8/17).

-8/11: I finished unit 4 homework (finally figured out the problems), submitted both units 3 & 4 homework, my mom sewed my program patch on my lab coat, reorganized my bookshelf (and decluttered a few other areas in my room as well) to prepare for classes. I also watched the 2018 version of White Fang. It was a fantastic movie.

-8/12: Woke up not feeling so well, completed units 3 & 4 homework comments, took units 3 & 4 quizzes (9 out of 10 for quiz 3 and 4 out of 5 for quiz 4), and I finished the class but found I could retake the quizzes. 

-8/13: Couldn't sleep and couldn't wake up, Grey kept howling to get me up, it took him two and a half hours for me to get out of bed, the power went out at 11:30 pm, didn't come back on until 5:04 am, I was going to finish chapter five of TUAoC but wasn't able to as the power went out.

-8/14: I went grocery shopping with my mom, helped her cleaned out the car as she was going to take it to go up north for the weekend, I stepped on a thorn (it got stuck in my foot and wouldn't come out), my mom left, I finished and posted chapter five of TUAoC, and had sharp stomach pains while I was trying to sleep.

-8/15: Clawdia's second birthday! I took a shower, did my weekly chores, vacuumed my room (including my windows which needed to be cleaned), decluttered/reorganized all of my clothes, and retook quiz 2 and got 100% (11 out of 11)!

-8/16: Did last minute things for the zoom meeting tomorrow morning (printed note packets, finished reading assignments, and figured out how I want to have my desk set up for school), and took quiz 4 again. I got the same score (4 out of 5), I have no idea where I went wrong (I can't see the questions and what I got wrong). So, I gave up trying to get 100% in the class. I have a 96% which gives me the highest letter grade possible for the class. Besides, 54 points out of 56 isn't a bad thing.

I also got the thorn out of my foot today!

That was mostly school-related and for the personal thing that I've been struggling with it's kinda TMI (girl problems). My period was 9 days late, I mentioned before the I had period symptoms a week before I started bleeding, and currently, I am on day 13 of bleeding.

The times I wasn't feeling well or I had stomach problems/pains, that was due to my period. I am so over it right now.

It's from stress. I'm not bleeding heavily (from day 5 to day 9, I had a medium flow), but the symptoms are still hitting me hard.

I'm a little better now and that's why I'm writing this. I actually completed everything on my to-do list today, except I didn't finish writing chapter six of TUAoC, but that's okay!

I will work on it tomorrow after my zoom meeting unless I have my classes over zoom afterward? I don't know when classes are going to start and that's why we have the meeting tomorrow morning.

Anyway, it's getting late and I need to wake up early.

Thanks for reading! Later!

~MsPenguingirl1234.

Published: August 16th, 2020.