This last month has been hard for me. From finals week, my grandpa going to the hospital, loosing Patches, and then loosing Rio out of the blue has hit me really hard.

It's one thing after another and it all happen around the holidays.

Fantastic.

It's one of the reasons why I don't care to celebrate holidays anymore as bad things tend to gravitate towards me during those times.

Right now I'm trying to compartmentalize everything as best as I can.

The worst is yet to come in the next few days as another death in the family is on the horizon.

That would be three in a month.

Flashback to the early 2010s when I lost a lot of family members and friends to death.

Anyway, I needed to get this off of my chest.

And to make things worse I have a dentist appointment tomorrow. It doesn't sound bad, but my anxiety is messing with me as there was a change in my insurance and I don't want to deal with that while having to deal with COVID procedures.

Anyway, thanks for reading.

~MsPenguingirl1234.

Published: January 4, 2021.

P.S. I almost wrote 2020 which is the first time I've messed up so far this year.