Three weeks since I've been off of work. Three weeks since I woke up early and had a routine. Three weeks where I felt like I've traveled back in time.

Thinking back on it. I was on Wattpad a lot during my senior year of high school. I remember when I was navigating through my anxiety, school, what career to choose, and writing.

A lot has changed since then. I'm working full-time, I'm working on my second paperback book, and have three kids (pets, but they are definitely my children).

On Tuesday I had a work meeting over the phone and a thought came to me; this is how my life used to be before I started working and going back to school.

I'm staying up late and waking up late, not being as productive as I normally am because I have more time on my hands than I know what to do with.

But, it's not all bad. I've been cleaning and organizing my room and life. Plus, I've worked on myself.

I really noticed during my therapy appointment last night. I was talking and my therapist said that even though a pandemic is happening I'm handling it very well. I understand that things are crazy, but I'm not freaking out or anything. "I'm only focusing on the things that I can control..." Is what I said to her.

I've made a lot of progress in the last four years.

Although, I was panicking four weeks ago when my parents were still in Germany. It was mostly from stress though. I was stressed out by taking care of the household and with the inspection at work.

Add the fact that both my parents were never outside the country together without us since I was born was extremely nerve-wracking.

I'm good now though. I'm having a great time enjoying the nice weather and spending time with kids.

Well, that's my little update while I'm at home. 

~MsPenguingirl1234.

Published: April 3, 2020.