These past few days have been crazy. Between not doing anything on Saturday and trying to do everything on Sunday, I was experiencing some whiplash.

All through that time, I understand now what I want.

I was dreamt of falling in love and getting married, but I know now that I haven't been with the right guys for me.

On Friday, the lead teacher that I work under was talking about the guy that she likes and...I want that.

I want to be able to light up in a way that I know that I haven't.

I want to experience love, but I haven't. Not truly.

Yes, you have to work on in a relationship and you don't meet the perfect guy.

I haven't met the right guy for me.

I'm done being with someone who doesn't get it. Get me. Because if he knew as much as he thinks he does, then he wouldn't be doing this.

School starts next week and today I found out I will be working Monday-Friday for the next two weeks.

I don't have time for someone. I don't have time for a relationship that I know won't last.

He says that I love him and that's one of the reasons why he pursues me, but every single time, he gets me to the point where I have no choice but to chose him.

I won't destroy myself anymore. I'm done. I didn't ask for this.

I thought I was in love, only now can I see that since the beginning it was in a friendship way.

I have no romantic feelings. Towards anyone.

I know you read these and you must hate yourself, but don't. I am not the one for you.

We aren't meant for each other. If only you knew. What we have isn't love. It never was.

I'm sorry.

Please don't come by or call/text me. I need my space right now.

I'm about to start my life for real. All the schooling and everything is coming to end only for me to start the biggest school challenge of my life next year.

I'm sorry. I can't talk to you to express myself because you always shut me down or push my arguments away.

I won't lie and says it's me and not you when clearly it's the both of us together.

I'm done.

I wish you the best, but it's over.

Don't talk to me for a while, I'm focusing on me. Because that is my responsibility to myself.

I don't owe you anything when I've been tearing myself apart.

As I said, I wish you the best...

MsPenguingirl1234.

Published: August 12, 2019.