I'm going to start this off with what happened on Thursday night (July 3rd). I was in a weird place, and it affected my ability to close my eyes and fell asleep. I ended up scrolling through my phone's many apps.

I was going to write about what I was feeling in the moment, but I was in an "action not words" kind of mood. So I was looking through the different story parts of this book and started rereading a handful. I don't do it often ( I do need to make a habit of reading my past writings), I'm realizing that sometimes those past words can still help me a lot. I know some of my readers can relate to what I write this book and forgot the first reader (me) can relate to them as well as can help whatever I go through (past, present, and future).

My words are my truths.

I need to learn from the past, not bury it.

Anyway, fast forward to yesterday (because I had a rest day from writing and a chore day on Friday; nothing exciting), July 4th.

It was Grey's first Fourth of July! He was exposed to gunfire up north so I wasn't too concerned with him as the neighbors were shooting off fireworks all around my house.

The day turned out great.

My older sister and her dog came over, we had dinner, watched Detective Pikachu, and then my brother and his girlfriend came over.

We spent some time outside before dark. I went on a walk and then a solo bike ride and it was so nice. I forgot how much I loved riding a bike around.

And the fact that I'm trying to work out and lose some weight because I was the same weight for years (and I have always been a little bit on the heavier side; not that anyone could tell with how I look) until last year when I gained ten pounds and then I weighed myself to see how much Grey weighed (I stepped on the scale, then picked Grey up and stepped on the scale again, and after we would subtract my weight from the weight of both us to get his weight) to see that I, in fact, gained another ten pounds!

It works out since I've been meaning to start working out again (mostly strengthening my arms and I want to build up an endurance to start running again), especially now that I'm not working with kids, I'm not doing much physical activity.

Besides, I'm glad I'm not working because when I get stressed out, things get bad. I'm pretty sure I gained weight in the last year due to being stressed.

Back to yesterday, the dogs were doing good (and they were okay as we threw pop it's at each other) with us until my sister's dog started to whine way before the fireworks starting to go off. We took both dogs in the house (Grey didn't want to leave his sister like the loyal brother he is) and got them situated.

Me being the anxious mother I am, I started suffering from some separation anxiety when the booms went off.

I quickly went to see my dog (because hello! Separation anxiety is a real thing for both me and Grey) and was surprised to see him so calm.

I brought both dogs to the backyard (everyone was in the front yard) and was even more surprised when Sally (my sister's dog) was not liking the sound at all.

We went back inside and I was getting them situated to keep them calm. I've done it many times over the years as I don't care for fireworks. I found out yesterday that fireworks don't bother me that much anymore which is crazy since last year I would have anxiety/panic attacks every year.

I put on All Dogs Go To Heaven and noticed Grey looking out the window, so I opened the front door and the three of us sat in front of the door watching the fireworks. It was amazing.

Grey was so calm. If a few went off at once, he would turn around to walk away in fright, then stop, and came back to me acting normal. It was funny.

Soon after Grey and Sally grew too tired to stand. It's no wonder as they were playing for almost twelve hours at that point.

So, all in all, Grey had a great Fourth of July and I had fun having a pop it's war.

That's going to be it for this update. Mainly, I've cleaned up from yesterday, vacuumed, did dishes, went on a bike ride, went on a walk, and read some today.

Thanks for reading!

~MsPenguingirl1234.

Published: July 5, 2020.