I've been meaning to update this for the pass week, but I did some private journaling instead. Because what I was journaling about was something that I felt could not be shared with anyone except myself as I was working through something. That was actually the first time I had journaled physically in a few years. 

I spent Monday (the 12th) to Thursday (the 15th) journaling about my thoughts on certain subjects. 

While that was happening I started working out. From Monday to now, I have only had two rest days as Thursday was a long day for me and last night I was resting from a crazy few days. 

So working out has been going good. Another reason why I took a rest day on Thursday was due to me mowing the back yard and it was an uphill battle. First, I couldn't start the lawn mower on Wednesday evening. Then, on Thursday morning, I found out that the lawn mower had no gas and I wasn't the last one to use. I didn't think to check on the gas as I didn't realize my dad was the last one to use it. I ended up going with my mom to get more gas. I filled the mower up and it only took me half an hour to cut the almost foot tall grass. 

That was physically draining. I also had to pick up my sister's dog and that was draining as well. 

That all was about the getting fit part of the title. As for the closure part, I finally closed a book of my life. I say book because chapter is an understatement. 

(Excuse me as I take a break writing this for about 24 hours)

It ended up being a soft closing of the book. I felt so much lighter afterward. 

And then, for all of last week, I had worked on a job resume (the first time in years as I didn't use an resume for my last job).  That took some time while I was also watching my sister's dog on Thursday, Friday, and Saturday. 

I was able to finish my resume (it also took some time to get all the information that I needed for it) on Saturday. I ended applying for a job the same day, but I haven't heard anything back yet. 

Today is Tuesday, I'm going to wait until tomorrow before I apply somewhere else if I don't hear back (which is sad because the job sounded really exciting for me).

I also took another work out rest day yesterday as I was tired (physically, emotionally, and mentally). This waiting game for the whole job process is tiring. I didn't realize/truly understand how much until now. 

I once was on the other side of the table in the job/interview process. I understand the background work, but I was hoping with everything going on that this wouldn't be taking so long. 

Well, anyway, that's the last of the update that I wanted to write. 

It's short but I don't know what else to write and if I don't publish this now, I might never. 

Until next time, 

Later!

~MsPenguingirl1234.

Published: July 20, 2021.