Sometimes my family doesn't understand the struggle I go through.

I HATE the fact that my family and so many others try to say SO many things to us, who have anxiety.

Some members of my family always says these things to me. It hurts.

The amount of times I have thought of running away. Running away and making a new life, where there can be somebody who understands.

With each passing day, I grow up. And, it sucks. The more older I get, the more stress I feel.

Yes, stress is normal to everyone. But, to me I worry so much about so many things.

It's hard for people to see or understand, because I learned I needed to build a wall.

That's what I did.

Many don't know that I'm slowly dying on the inside, because if they cared enough they would pay attention.

I'm a middle child, and it's always about my older siblings or my younger sister.

When it is about me, I hate it. I don't seek attention, I want care. Someone to notice that I'm dying on the inside and need help.

It's sad to think the only ones who do that is my boyfriend and my group of (3) best friends.

I'm sorry for this rant, but so many feel the same way. I want to show how bad anxiety can get.

It may not seem like anxiety, but it is.

I was texting earlier and I said, 'Honestly? At this point, I have no idea what okay means...'

I'm at a point where I don't care that I seem negative and whiny. The reason I'm doing this book is to spread awareness of how bad this can get.

Anxiety shows symptoms like depression. I learned that the hard way. My mom kept saying I was depressed, I'm not.

It's called retreating to my comfort zone.

I hate keeping my light on in my room and I don't want the outside world to see me, so I keep my blinds closed.

Now, sorry this was long, I got a little of topic. Really, I may not be an expert, but I'm here. Ever need to talk I will do the best I can. And, sometimes, someone showing they care enough to be there, helps.

~Mspenguingirl1234.

Published: May 2, 2016.

P.S. I don't own the pictures.