Falling for someone is an accident,                                                                                                   expecting them to catch you can be an accident waiting to happen.                                          Your first love will always stand out more than the rest because of just that, it's your first.

                                       I fell in love with you the way people did way back when.

When R&B was what love songs were made of. When men wanted women for whom they were and not what they looked like. When women were devoted to their man out of love and not money. When holding the door open or walking near the street was something most gentlemen just did. Not something rare like in our society. When social media did not determine your self-worth.

                                                  I loved you as if we existed within a simpler time.

                                          The differences that made you odd to others made you loved by me.

                                       They were what made you attractive and that was when I began to fall.

                                                                            Little by little, then all at once.

                                                         Like a roller coaster about to reach its peak.                                                                         I knew it was happening, but I could never quite see when the drop would come.                         I was just along for the ride, sitting there with sweaty palms attached to the coaster bars.

                                            Hoping that not if, but when I fell, you would catch me.

               I fell for your flaws because without them and our issues, our story wouldn't be our story.

                                           I fell for your smile, because it was so much more rare

                            and held more value than any diamond the world could ever produce.

       It was something hidden from people, never seen before in pictures, and a luxury just for me.

                        I fell for your laugh. Because I get lost in it so much I can decipher which type it is.

                                  Is it the kind you give briefly because your happy? Quick and light.

                Is it the giggle you make when you're not aware you're going to laugh? Honest and pure.

                      Or is it my favorite, the one that puts a smile on my face because in that moment,

                             your laughter is so genuine it makes it seem everything in the world is ok.

                                                                       I fell for the way you listen to me.

                                                           Not with just your ears, but with your whole being.

 Because in those moments it's as if I'm not the center of the conversation, but your entire world.

                                                                   I fell for the way you said my name.

                         How you could make something so simple and overused sound so beautiful.

                                                                I fell for the way you would sleep.

                               Always reminding me of my importance to every night before you slept,

                                                                   and every morning when you woke.

             I fell for your eyes and how they seemed to express that which you were so fearful to say.

                                                         I fell in for the way you told me everything.

           The excitement you had in sharing with me something as simple as what you ate for lunch.

                                  I fell for the way you made me crave more, from myself and my life.

                     Always pushing my to do my best and giving me the confidence I lacked in myself.

                                             I fell in for your annoying ability to fall asleep at a moment's notice,

                                                                just to wake up and remind me that you love me.

                                                            I fell for your strength in being the bigger person.

                                          Sticking with me when I'm ignorant and trying to tell you that your wrong,

                                                                           when we both know your totally right.

                I fell for the little moments that you would take throughout the day to make time for me.

                                                 In between classes, before practice, on the way home, before bed.

                                                                          I fell for the weird noises you make

                                         and how I respond back, and we can have a conversation simply like that.

                                                                     I fell for your curiosity and your lack of filter

                                                            when it came to the wonders you found within the world.

                                                I fell for your kindness, in always asking me if I was ok when

                                                                   I, myself, am worried about everyone else.

                  I fell for your bravery in saying those three words first without expecting them in return.

                                            I fell for you the way you fell for me, unknowingly yet wholeheartedly.

So, when people as why him, why you?

I can't simply explain how all the positives outweigh the negatives, so I instead respond

                                                                         "because."

                            Because when I think about it I windup falling all over again.

                               And it's also why I've become so cautious of roller coasters,

            because even with a harness, a belt, straps, and the knowledge that a drop is coming.

                                                                       Accidents do happen.