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(Tw: Mentions of ✨the child✨ offing himself)

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"Calm down Ranboo, it's all gonna be okay in the end, I promise!" Niki's soothing voice tried to calm her friend down but he was having none of that.

Ranboo, Niki, Fundy and Quackity were making their way towards Techno's cabin to tell the rest of his family about what had happened to Tommy but to say that the enderman hybrid wasn't fond of that idea was an understatement.

"How can you be so sure?! It's Philza and Techno we're talking about and literally all the things I've heard about them describe them as a somewhat 'friendly' pair that can become extremely cold and ruthless if someone angers them!"

"I've known them for a long time and trust me, they won't just blindly attack you without a valid reason." Niki was probably the one who knew them best on the server, having been Wilbur's childhood friend, which was one of the reason she was chosen to be one of the two messengers, but Ranboo just didn't understand why he had to be chosen as well.

"You do realize that we're literally going to tell them that their family member killed himself right? It's incredibly easy to trace this whole thing back to us!" Fundy and Quackity quickly exchanged glances, Ranboo was pretty much right after all, but before they could voice their concerns they were immediately shut up by Niki

"Ranboo, you were the only one who visited Tommy in exile and that helped him out; out of everyone you're the most innocent of the bunch. You've got nothing to worry about." She reassured him.

"Yeah but they probably don't know that! As far as they know I'm probably the guy who set George's house on fire with Tommy and then shifted all the blame on him without taking any!"

"Look dude, even if they do attack you and Niki, Fundy and I will be waiting nearby and will immediately swoop in to save the two of you, we've got your back!" Quackity chimed in.

"Speaking of that, why do you guys have to hide instead of just walking up to the door with us? Isn't that your family as well Fundy?"

"Yeah... let's just say our relationship is... complicated...?"

Very reassuring.

"Niki can we please go back and make someone else handle this?" Ranboo begged.

"Nope, we've already walked all the way here so now we're going to do this. Besides Tommy was your friend, I'm sure he'd be happy for you out of all people to deliver the news."

"I'm still not sure..."

"Well I am!"

With that said, Niki pushed her old friend all the way up the staircase as he desperately looked behind him, quietly asking Quackity and Fundy to save him, but all he got in response was Big Q mouthing a 'good luck' to him as the two of them hid behind some trees.

Without any fear and what looked like a glimpse of hostility in her eyes, Niki knocked loudly on the door.

Ranboo might've sounded like a scaredy cat, but when all the things he heard about Tommy's family was about how Technoblade had helped Wilbur blow up L'Manburg and how Philza was considered the angel of death itself, he could say he was somewhat justified to feel that way.

Niki showed no mark of wanting to back down anytime soon though, so all he could do was shuffle his feet uncomfortably as he waited for someone to answer the door.

After a few more seconds the door opened slowly and Philza's head peaked out. "Ranboo and Niki...? What brings you here?"

"Well we...we have some news that you might want to hear." The girl started saying, trying not to stumble over her words. It was clear that she still hasn't fully processed the fact that Tommy was dead.

"Is it good or bad news?"

"Bad news"

Philza took a deep breath and just when the enderman hybrid thought he was going to turn them away, he fully opened the door. "Alright, get in while I go get Techno."

"Will do." Niki nodded as she grabbed Ranboo's sleeve and basically dragged him inside and had little to no reaction when the younger boy let out a quiet whimper when the door closed behind them, blocking off his best bet at escaping if things were to escalate.

As Philza made his way down a ladder which led to some lower part of the house, Niki made Ranboo sit down and tried to not only comfort him, but to also make him appear more confident in front of the two players.

"Ranboo, they aren't going to attack you okay?" She whispered as she kept on sending subtle glances towards the ladder.

"How can you be so sure? Besides I don't even know how to tell them Tommy died! I haven't even fully processed it myself!" Ranboo whisper-yelled.

"I don't plan on only telling them that Tommy died, I am also going to fully show them how much they suck as a brother and a father."

Ranboo could swear he was going to have a stroke soon.

"You want to do WHAT-"

"Shhh, they're coming up here! Just keep the confident facade up and I'll make sure they'll regret the day they turned their backs on Tommy!"

"Niki, no, you're going to-"

"This better be important, I was trying out new potion recipes and there is a chance they might explode if I'm not looking after them." Technoblade's annoyed sounding emotionless voice interrupted him as he made his way out of the hole on the floor with Philza right behind him.

"Trust me Techno, it is important." Ranboo really wanted to sink into the floor.

"Does this have to do with the letter you have? Couldn't you just give it to Phil and leave?" The pinkette pointed tiredly to the letter Ranboo was clutching with his trembling claws.

"Yeah I could've done that, but I also plan on asking you a few questions over this." Niki replied, confident as ever.

"Uh, alright then mate, shoot." Philza simply shrugged.

"It's about Tommy."

The curiosity in Techno and Philza's eyes immediately disappeared as their youngest family member was brought up.

"What did he do now?" The father rolled his eyes unimpressed.

Niki opened her mouth to reply but she was immediately cut off by Techno's entertained voice.

"Wait let me try to guess! Did he blow something else up? Maybe he tried to sneak back into L'Manburg and got caught immediately?"

Ranboo couldn't help but find Techno's comments a bit rude. He didn't know Tommy was dead and he was indeed a very chaotic person, but from his tone it almost sounded like he considered Tommy more of an attraction to laugh at rather than his little brother.

"Oh wait, did he drive Dream insane with all of his attitude?" Philza chimed in snickering. The more the two went on, the more Ranboo and Niki's annoyance grew.

"I would've paid to see that happening! Or maybe he-"

"He killed himself." Ranboo finally said, quite surprised of how he had managed to find enough confidence to just cut the mighty Blood God and the Angel of Death off.

Understandably enough, Techno and Philza's expressions dropped.

"...what?" Although the pinkette's tone still sounded emotionless as usual, Ranboo could still pick up some shock and maybe even some horror in his eyes.

"I'm sorry, is- is this some kind of sick joke?" The winged man asked, sounding way more serious than he was less than a minute ago.

"We wouldn't joke about this stuff." Niki bluntly replied. "Tommyinnit died by jumping inside of a pool of a lava pool, voluntarily."

"This...must be a mistake, there's- there's absolutely no way."

"Read this, and I'm sure you will see a way."

"This is obviously all set up, I'm sure there wasn't any major death message on the main chat and those are very hard to miss."

"That's- that's because he took his communicator off before jumping. I found it next to the letter." Ranboo added, slightly fumbling his words. His stuttering though was because he was still hurt from the recent events, his respect and fear for the two older men had actually withered the moment they started joking about Tommy.

Silence.

"This...this just can't be true..." Phiza mumbled as he nervously passed a hand through his hair, reading over and over Tommy's last words, hoping that he had just interpreted them incorrectly "...no... Tommy- Tommy would just never do something like this..."

"I mean, if he did intend on doing something like this for a while, how would you have known?" Niki said. "And this isn't me saying you shouldn't feel bad for what happened, on the contrary, this is me telling you you very much should."

"What...?" Techno's head immediately snapped towards the girl. "You better watch your tongue Nihachu. You might be a family friend because of how close you were to Wilbur, but that doesn't mean you can just make comments like those."

"Tommy was my son and I loved him."

"And when did you tell him that exactly?" "Actions speak louder than words do Philza, you should know it better than anyone."

"Leave us alone. We did what we could to be near him."

"Did you though?!" Ranboo felt anger suddenly bursting into his chest as the image of Tommy, clinging to him desperately begging him to not leave him alone I'm Logsterdshire: it didn't exactly look like he had a supportive family by his side.

"Stay out of this Ranboo, you might've been Tommy's friend but you don't know what our family is like." Techno responded in the most emotionless passive aggressive tone he could pull off. It wasn't like the hostility in his voice was hard to see.

"Well if there's one thing I know is how lonely Tommy felt! How he would cling to me the moment I visited him and he would beg me to stay whenever I left!"

"Maybe it would've been easier to stay by his side if he didn't push me and Phil away. It's hard to help someone when they betray you constantly!" The pinkette didn't seem to back down from his statement, not noticing how Ranboo was trying his best to hold back from straight up growling at him like Enderman did. Niki was on the same page as him.

"I am sick of all this bullshit you keep on throwing around whenever you say that Tommy has betrayed you! You might've made your ideals clear, but so did Tommy. He told everyone what he wanted from the start just like you did and you know you could've walked away whenever you wanted!" She exclaimed.

To that, surprisingly enough, Technoblade remained silent. It was almost as if he was looking for an argument to reply but wasn't able to find any.

"There's going to a vigil for him in a few days." Ranboo broke the heavy silence that had surrounded them.

"You can either keep thinking about yourselves and stay here, minding your own business, or, for once in your stupid life, you can be there for him." Niki continued. "That's all we had to say."

Philza moved his shaking arm to give the letter back to the girl but she immediately declined, pushing it away. "Oh, you can keep that. Perhaps finally listening to Tommy's feelings will make you realize how much you truly hurt him."

Ranboo breathed heavily, trying to let his anger burn out.

Philza was looking at him with a rather emotionless face, Techno was pretty much the same as Philza although maybe more hostile and Niki's eyes shone with determination.

They were waiting for someone to start another argument, but nobody opened their mouth.

There wasn't anything else to say.

Niki's hand hovered all the way to Ranboo's claw-like one and their fingers intertwined. The enderman hybrid raised his gaze to look his old friend in the eyes and his sorrowful expression told her all she needed to know: it was time to go back home.

Without another word the two walked towards the wooden door. They hesitated for a few seconds and sent a sideways glance towards the other two players, but before they could even realize it the two L'manburgians had already turned around and the door closed itself with a loud bang.

Whether Ranboo broke down crying the moment the two had reached Quackity and Fundy, clinging to Niki desperately as those hot steaming tears made burn marks all across his cheeks was his business alone.

If he had been braver Tommy wouldn't have been exiled and he would've still been alive, and Ranboo despised himself for that.

He couldn't change the past, but he could certainly influence the future, and that was what he was going to do.

He wasn't going to let anyone else step all over him ever again, whether it was Technoblade or even Dream, he was going to show them what a mistake it was to mess with his friend Tommy.

He had to be more confident.

Both for Tommy and for himself.

He owed it to him.

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