Chris had to go somewhere with Ryan and he wouldn't let me go with him, so I was just laying around in Chris's room.

It's been about a week since he told me that I was his boyfriend and everything's been different since. He's been like, spoiling me. He literally gives me everything I want.

We walked past a store yesterday and I said the boots in the window were pretty. He went in and bought them for me. It was two hundred dollar pair of boots. They're beautiful, but that's a lot of money. I feel bad. He didn't have to buy them for me. I just said I liked them. He also said that when he gets back from this thing, he's taking me clothing shopping.

He's all healed now, but I'm still in a cast. The burns are healing, but my arm won't be healed for a few more weeks.

I want to take a bath but doing it with a cast is weird. I headed into the bathroom and turned the jacuzzi thing on. I'm not really sure how to use it, but it can't be that hard. It had a faucet like a normal bathtub.

I let it fill up before I shed my clothes and got in. I was carful not to let my cast hit the water as I relaxed.

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I must have fallen asleep at some point because I woke up to the sound of a door slamming. I jumped up and looked around.

A few moments later, Chris entered the bathroom.

"Oh- I thought you were downstairs."

I shook my head.

I looked at him. He was wearing a suit jacket this morning, but now it was off. He just had on his white dress shirt. The top two buttons were undone and it was all wrinkled and messed up. There were what looked like small blood splatters across the white fabric. His sleeves were rolled up and it looked like there was blood on his hands as well. His hair also wasn't as neat as it was earlier. It was sticking out in spots. He just looked more disheveled than usual.

He saw me staring and quickly took his shirt off and dropped it on the floor. He came over and sat on the edge.

"I was gonna take a shower, but since you're here, I may as well join you. If that's okay with you."

I nodded. I pointed to the blood on his hands. "What did you do?"

He sighed. "Promise you won't get upset?"

I nodded again.

"The man I was supposed to go find in Philadelphia went into hiding because he heard I was coming. I had to find a friend of his and get his location from this friend." He told me. "And I had to use any means necessary to do so."

"Oh."

He leaned down and kissed me. I watched as he kicked his pants off and got in the water beside me.

"Was I supposed to be downstairs?" I asked.

"Huh?"

"You said before that you thought I was downstairs. Was I supposed to be downstairs?"

"No. I just didn't see you when I first came in so I figured you weren't in here. I was gonna shower and then go find you."

"Oh. Okay."

He kissed my cheek. "You okay? You're being a little quiet."

"Yeah. I'm fine. I'm just thinking."

"What are you thinking about?"

I shrugged.

"You can tell me..."

I sighed. "I guess I just feel bad."

"For what, babe?"

"I just- I don't deserve any of this. I feel out of place." I muttered.

He turned to me and cupped my cheek. "You deserve a lot more than I can give you. But I can assure you that you are not out of place at all. You belong right here with me."

"I've never had anything like this. Even when I lived with my parents, we didn't have much money." I told him. "I've always had to work for what I want and I'm not used to people buying things for me. I used have to fuck some random guy to get somewhere to sleep. Hell, I slept in a fucking closet for 2 years."

"I understand. I felt a similar way when I went through it. It's a strange feeling. It feels superficial; like none of its real. It'll take some getting used to, but I assure you, you deserve this."

I didn't answer him.

"Come on. You should get some sleep." He said, lifting me out of the water.

Do I really want this?

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It's been a few weeks. Chris has calmed down with everything and has been giving me more space.

He's leaving for Philly today. I still wanna go with him, but I'm not sure he'd let me. I've never been there. I wanna see it.

I was gonna ask him before he left. I'm just waiting for him to return from an errand he had to run.

I hope he says yes. I don't wanna sit here alone for days again. It's boring.

I got dressed and sat on the bed and waited.

It took a little while but he eventually entered the room.

"Hey."

I waved at him.

"I gotta leave in a few."

I nodded. "I know."

"I'll see you in a week."

"Wait-"

"Yeah?"

"C-can I come?" I asked.

He took a deep breath. "I don't think that's a good idea."

"I've never been there before. I wanna see what it's like."

"Alright. I suppose you can come."

I smiled and clapped.

"Pack your things. Whatever you need with you. We gotta go."

I grabbed my phone and stood up.

"That's all you want?" He asked. "We're leaving for a week, and you only want to bring your phone?"

"Should I bring more stuff?"

"Some clothes?"

"I'm wearing clothes."

He laughed. "Alright come on. Suit yourself."

I helped him carry his bags down to the car before he got in the back seat. He pulled me in next to him, holding me close.

Ryan got in the front seat. "He's coming?"

Chris nodded.

Ryan didn't say anything else.

He's been awfully silent lately. He hasn't been making his usual comments and whatnot.

I wonder why.

After Chris yelled at him for being mean to me, he left me alone completely. He didn't even look at me. He avoided me at all costs. Chris was very short with him too. He ordered Ryan around like he was a slave. And Ryan obeyed like one.

It's weird. I guess I have to really take the time to understand Chris's business and stuff.

I pulled out my phone and played some game.

I leaned on Chris's shoulder and got comfortable. This is gonna be a long ass drive.

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lmao i feel like this is moving too fast and I wanna slow it down but there's this huge like plot twist coming and i'm kinda excited

comment what you think it is

~xxLux