I sit here. Empty, my mind blank as I stare at my mothers lifeless eyes. Her eyes stare at mine, along with my fathers.

His hand still holding a sliver gun. His blood still pooling out of his head. The cops circle around me but I can't hear them.

I stopped listening awhile ago. I pull out my cigarette from my mouth and analyze it, it's at it's bud. It's gone. It's done. I do it a favor and put it out on the skin of my wrist.

I stare at my mother and drop to my knees. I pulled her head on my lap and kissed her. Yet I didn't shed a tear.

"We are sorry for your loss sir." The cops tell me and I just stare at them. And they give me pitiful looks.

"Do you have somewhere to go?" They asked as if I'm a ten year old kid. Then my mind flips over, and my heart hammers in my chest. And all I could think of is I need to take what I've been wanting. Needing.

"Oh yes, yes I do. Thank you." I give them a smile and they give me a sad one back. As they pay my shoulder and give it a squeeze I'm off.

The news casters try to grab at me and ask questions but I pull away from them. I get in my car and drive to her house.

My father was pathetic. After he had brutally killed my mother he shot hummed in the head, but of course he left me a very loving note.

I stumble out of the car, dragging my body to the front door. I bring my fist to the door and knock.

"Oh, Ellis my dear!" I yell as I slam my fist against the door. The door opens and there is my perfect trophy wife. I smile and grab her by the back of the head. She had tears in her eyes. "I-I saw the news, Kai. A-are you-"I roll my eyes and shove her away.

She falls back. And I'm getting a rush. "Where's your sister." I growl out, I needed her. Right now. I needed her now!

Ellis glared at me. She stood up and rushed to me, slamming her fist on my chest. "I am your girlfriend! Me! Not a fucking 14 year old! You ducking pedophile!" I brought back my hand and slapped her across the face.

"You've been such a bitch, Ellis. I never wanted you." She screams at me, just plain screams. I wince and put my hand over her mouth. "Such a loud mouth, why don't you ask one of those football players to do something about that?" She slaps me and I freeze.

I chuckle, and she starts taking steps back. I was gone, I wasn't there. "Why her? S-she's-shes not me. She's n-not perfect."

"You're very lucky she's in this house." I grab her and drag her sobbing body into the pantry. I lock it as she slams her fist against the door. "She's ugly! She underdeveloped! She not me!"

The two elder sisters ran down the stairs and I gave them a smile. "Well, hello." They held hands. "Now, please be kind and tell me where my Baby girl is." The one that's almost always forgotten speaks. Mirren I think is her name. "Fuck off! Ellis might not stick up to you but we will!" My eyes flicker to Honey who cowers behind Mirren.

"Mmm. I see." I grab them and throw them into the bathroom. Locking them in there. Then all of the sisters are screaming while I jog up the stairs happily.

I push open her door. And there she is. Asleep, I laugh. I move over to her bed. I cup her warm cheek with my hand, she wakes up. Her eyes fluttering open. I smile, tears in my eyes.

"Kai?" She whispered, I cupped her cheek as I cried. "What's wrong?" I hugged her and put my head in the crook of her neck. "I'm sorry, my Baby girl." Then something snapped. I was alone, no mother. No father, no sister. No anyone.

She pulled away just slightly. "Sorry for what, Kai? You didn't do anything." She whispered. I shook my head as I caressed her cheek. Then I pulled away, standing up. I pulled the same silver gun out, Baby girl gasped her big eyes going round.

"I couldn't save anyone. H-he hurt them all. It's all my fault, my fault. No one cares for me, no one loves me." As I cocked and loaded the gun Baby jumped up. Her chest rising and falling as she pulled her hair out of her face.

"W-what about Ellis?! S-she loves you!" I scoffed shaking my head. "She loves the idea of me." I stare at her one more time. Her long brown hair, her big green eyes. Those tiny little freckles, her. As I press my finger to the trigger she flung her body on me.

She wrapped my arms around me. "I-I c-care about y-you, Kai. I swear, I do. Y-you're my best friend. I care about you. Don't do it, please?"

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Hi my love bugs! How are you? I'm suffering if you wanted to know. Sorry if I have any misspelling, I didn't look through it.

Anyways! This is how it started, how Kai 'snapped'.

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-Ana