For when we meet again is unknown,
But this feeling I have is known to only me.
I long and ache to see you,
But I know I shouldn't interfere.
For you are happy with a love
Who is actually able be to seen in person.
Love cannot be expressed
Behind this screen
In your very kind eyes.
A birthday as an excuse to see you
Is hopeless when I know I am not needed.
I know of how I am an outsider,
But please don't forget me.
I pray for all that I am remembered
For my kindness at most of possible to do so.
Please remember me in memory
So that this regret does not harvest.
So that this heart won't cry
In remembering the aching feeling
Of being chosen over.
Please stay you and only you
And never give up.
Remember that I am still here in the rain.
Remember those times we've spent.
Remember the times we smiled.
Remember the times I was there for you.
Remember me when I smile
And not in tears.
I know I am selfish for secretly wishing this,
But this aching heart is beating slower
In remembering that all is lost.
That we will only drift part further.
Drifting apart was my fear and my jinx.
I'm sorry,
My friend...
I have to give you this gift if you can make it
With hidden feelings of memory
And heartache.
May the letter of the card hold a hint,
Showing that I care for you a lot
Even when we speak less with a screen.
Please don't forget to smile
When you are happy.
Cherish your memories
Like how I cherished ours.
I hope that you will stay happy
With her.
Smile and laugh.
I will eventually get rid of this feeling
In the meantime with a war.
I will try to erase these emotions of you
And start anew at square one.
To reset myself.
To reset these emotions.
To reset to a new beginning.
Maybe and hopefully...
I hope that I don't fall for you again.
Like how we would always say...
"I love you, but as a friend."