It pains
And breaks my heart
When the attachment of bonds doesn't last long.
I hate the bonds I make or have
When they all just fall apart
And crumble to pieces.
I scream and cry
When I want to leave it all behind,
But the attachment of bonds
Prevents me from not caring about the lives.
I'm heartless when I want,
But I'm fragile like porcelain from the bottom of my heart.
I'm hyperventilating in pain,
My screams echo,
My tears run down like a rapid river,
My head aches like freezing water,
I cannot hear words or the volume of my cries,
My legs are about to snap,
And my heart is shattering to small parts.
Even more from the lost of the previous year has hurt me.
Life had gotten me good
With shadows and demons wanting to kill me
For flesh and sorrow.
For I want to die
For those who tells me to commit
The final words.
No one can see the lies
And agony from paper and facades.
I cannot describe pain or chaos,
For they define myself.
I want to separate from life
Yet I still have only two
Who I know for sure to trust and love.
I cannot tell those of lies
The truth for I cannot believe the eyes that deceive
My heart.
I feel like rambling on stories that are fantasies,
But all I can do is dream
For lives that I can never achieve in reality.
Reality is cruel and heartbreaking.
My lungs are fading to dust.
My mask breaks everyday and every hour
Along with this irreplaceable,
Dirty,
Bloody,
Bandaged,
And broken heart.
I hope that you wished for all to be done with me.
My heartstrings and heart are broken and snapped.
I hope your dreams and wishes of me are true
For me to disappear.
I love yet get hurt,
But some I love care for
Unlike the tragedy of me you created.