How funny is it that life hits hard?
The life I live in is hard and it hurts like hell.
But suddenly,
I feel funny and weird.
I always had depression left and right,
For they would never go away.
I had them every single day of my life,
But strangely...
I haven't been feeling those hurtful feeling as much.
Although I still feel the depression,
I don't feel it as much.
Ever time I've left which would also go wrong,
This time it was okay.
Things may have still been hurtful,
But I feel more free and happy.
It's strange.
I've always been hurt,
Lost,
Betrayed,
Depressed,
And so much more...
But now I can breathe more easily.
I'm no longer suffocating every minute of an hour,
But rather being cut and drowned every little then and now.
I feel happy to feel better,
But I feel like I'm still hurting others.
I still can't bring my knees to plead for questions
Or feelings,
But I lie a rocky road that's not sweet like sugar.
I feel strange without the constant lost feelings,
For I am now lost.
I cannot decipher my own feelings either.
At least not with a short amount of time.
I still struggle and question life and my own throughout time,
But I do know that I am strange.
All I can say right now at the exact moment is that,
Feelings from my soul are crazy and chaotic.
Even I can't put it to words.