I am shortening every single breath of mines
Just for this single moment.
I want to cherish that moment as much as I can...
Even if it's just in my dreams.
If dreaming is my escape,
And someone destroyed my fantasy world,
I'll be crushed by the weight of how cruel reality is.
Oh how I wish to dream longer
And to stop facing reality.
How much longer shall I face reality to fake smiles.
Encouraging and making people better is what I do,
But what shall I do truly if my world is gone?
Everyone needs their own world,
But sometimes their worlds are withering away
Because of people who are also known as monsters.
But then again,
Aren't we all just monsters?
It's funny how I wish upon a star for hope.
I think it's childish and weird,
But I want to believe in the bonds.
The bonds that broke and are preparing to shatter.
From pain.
I want to prevent the hyperventilation of lost souls.
Shall I continue protecting
To only leave a door open for arrows to shoot me?
To shoot my back?
What are promises?
What is love?
What is jealousy?
What is the meaning of each soul's life story?
Am I meant to live to protect and to get hurt?
To hold a facade?
Is this even a facade?
Is this just an emotionless doll
Who has the wits to guess reactions and feelings?
How can people fix yet break you?
How do understand the smallest connection?
Why do these questions hurt a soul so dear?
Why do you continue to wreck my dreams?!
I just wish to dream longer!
My wishes can only come true in dreams,
So please!
I beg of you to not kill the only hope I have!
Don't make me an even more disgusting monster
Than what I'm already am!
Please let me dream longer for the sake of my...
Heart