Ever since the greater fall of my heart,
I've fallen for you more.
This feeling is gravely dangerous,
Yet lovely.
I have the hopes to meet again
And to dream again.
To dream of  beautiful fantasies,
Happiness,
Action,
And a wonderful melody to a hurting soul.
It's hard to say
Whether to say hello or bye to people in life,
But I want to say hello to you.
I don't want the connections to end.
I may be selfish for wanting more than this,
But I just want to see your smile.
I want to see your true smile
Instead of a hurting and broken heart.
Since the day I talked to you
Of my broken feelings,
I felt more connected to you than ever.
You had even said so yourself,
That you felt more connected to me.
I feel blissful just thinking of the melodies,
but...
I'm still afraid...
I'm still afraid
Of losing you,
New friends,
Broken relationships of the past,
My broken emotions,
My heart,
And myself.
I feel like I'm only hurting myself
In this dream
Of blissful happiness
And sorrow.
I don't know what is going to happen
And what will happen to everyone.
I know things don't last long,
But I'm hoping for the good things in my life
To last a little bit longer than this
broken heart and sorrow.
I want to still feel connected
To those who I care and love for.
I don't want to forget these
Wonderful,
Beautiful,
Happy,
Blissful,
Joyful,
And lovely
Feelings anymore.
I want to at least remember the feelings
Before I lose myself.
Before I completely disappear
And perish to the dark
And cruel world of reality.
Oh please god...
Let me dream just for a little bit more.
Please let me live in this fantasy
Just a bit longer...
I still want to love and care...
I want to love...
I hate being perfect
And I hate the word perfect or perfection
But please...
Please give them a perfect and happy life
That's better than my own happiness...
To a perfect ending of fate for them...
I doubt it all for I am hatred itself,
But please give an ending for them
to look forward to.
I want to still feel connections
Before the destruction takes its entire toll.
Connections are a powerful thing
For my helpless soul,
So please hear my sorrowful pleads
And give me one last chance to love at least.
Please...
...Please save the connections I hold...