CHAPTER 9

 It's now January and I have been working along side the boys of One Direction for about four months. I don't want to go into too much detail about it because Harry and Alisha were being completely rude and I just can't think about it too much. I think I am developing a minor case of depression. Does that happen that way? Anyways I talked to Liam about it and he promised to keep it a secret and he talks to me privately once a day. He and I have gotten pretty close you can say. Louis always knows how to make me laugh when I wanna cry so Liam and I usually hang out around him.

I have come to the conclusion my brain is either ill or I might have a small crush on Harry. Liam thinks I have a crush on him though but, to be completely honest I think he might have been crazy on skittle or something. After the day Harry gave Alisha what looked like a legit loving kiss though. I realised, I am falling for him. The loving part of the kiss lasted about 30 seconds before Alisha made it into a pleasuring kiss. I watched for the 30 seconds he was showing her love. I watched and felt my heart break into millions of pieces. Liam ended up taking me away as Alisha was making him pleasure her.

Anyway my 4 months haven't been the best. I still walk out and hang out in public with a smile though. I always make sure to never lose the true me. No matter how much Harry and Alisha's words hurt me, I will never change. I like my clothes, I like not wearing a lot of make up and I like being me!

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*Present Night*

I walk into the tour bus and put my suit case under my bunk. I was the first to arrive and Paul - One Direction's bodyguard - let me in. I choose the bunk close to the ground. I put my suitcase underneath and quickly make my bed. I fluff the pillow and put my doll Isabelle beside it and all hidden. I don't care who knows about Isabelle but, I just don't want Harry doing anything to her. She's been with me since I was, like, 2 years old.

"Hey Lan, ready for tour?" Louis asks coming on the bus.

"Yea, I can't wait to see all your fans." I smile.

"Hey Lanny!!" Niall and Liam shout coming on the bus.

"Hey boys!" I smile.

"I will take the one across from you Lan." Liam says and I smile nodding.

"Hey pals!" Harry comes on and claims the bunk above mine. SHIT!

I look over at Liam and he looks at me apologetically. I sigh and go into my bunk. i close the curtain and look towards the wall.

"Hey guys! Where's Landa?" Zayn asks.

"In here!" I mumble loudly.

"Oh?" Zayn says confused.

I trace the designs on the wall and decide to shake out of it. Harry doesn't control me! I am Landa and I won't take his shit anymore!

I get out of the bunk smiling and walk back into the TV room. I take and grab the remote. I turn on the TV and change the channel to watch a new episode of 'Top Gear'.

"Someone come watch Top Gear with me!" I yell and turn up the volume relaxing in the sofa.

"We aren't watching Top Gear." Harry says coming in with a movie.

"W-What?" I ask.

"You heard me." He snaps.

"But-" I am cut off by him.

"You know I could easily make it so Alisha tours with us and not you so shut the hell up." I stop talking and walk out of the room back to the bunks.

"Wanna talk?" Liam asks getting up.

"No.. It's fine." I mumble.

"C'mon Harry get your head out of your arse! This isn't Harry's world and we work as a team. Your going to accept Landa and not be an arse because this attitude is getting old." I hear Louis scold Harry.

I walk into my bunk and decide I will go to bed instead of-

"I'm coming for you!" Says a creepy animated like voice. Crap! They are watching a scary movie on the TV. Honestly why me?

I walk out and into the living room.

"Please don't watch a scary movie before bed." I say looking down.

"Landa we are watching this." Harry says stubbornly.

"O-Okay." I say going back to the bunks and crawling in mine. I put my head phones on and turn the music up. I grab Isabelle and cuddle her then pull the curtain. All I can here and feel though is the movie. HOW LOUD DO THEY NEED THIS MOVIE! I don't know how but, I managed to fall asleep with their creepy movie on loud.