Well let's start this with please people be good with your parents and family you'll never know when you'll lose them then you will really regret it let start off with years ago when my mother beat my sister and I. So me being stupid it picked up on my sister fighting back with my mom to defend her and other people.. I stared to learn. And after my sister left I had nothing so my mother would yell more at me because I had more responsibility. So I yelled back only when she would go to far like when she would call me bad words or insult me calling me all sorts of names mentally beating me. I would stand my ground and so should she I would lose but I knew I fell with a fight but now that I think about it...might not have been the best thing somtimes I don't relize but she dose alot for me. Yes I have to work on somethings and do dose she but think if it like this when you fight it will never leave your life you can not forget it. No matter how hard and it scares them so why you fight with your mother think when she is dead she will remember all the things you said to her word after word I know my crew what you are thinking "this is spouse to be about your crappy life!" This is just a note becuse today I got into a fight and I was about to cut and I did but she doesn't know but don't cut please.. becuse leaves scares that will never leave good but bad. Maybe things you would want to forget but lets go back to my crap of a life. Well along time ago well not to long I was really mad and depressed because I thought of my dogs ghost trying to jump and bark to get my attention yet I couldn't see her that was the depressed part but the mad part was my little brother annoying me! So I was going to run away thinking about all of the bad names my mother gave me and how it felt to be alone again. So I packed my bag and things. I grabbed my Razer and cut myself I was still so pissed off I went out into the living room and what I regret is my sister asked if I was ok and I said I was going to run away amd I cut. I trusted my sister so I got that off my chest and she said to me she was feeling mom and that made my heart jump and then felt like it was throbbing and was punched in the heart and hard!. I ran inside to grab my bag but mom got home and I yelled under my breath shit and went into the bathroom like nothing happend.  I came out after 10 and my mom yelled almost shaking the fucking house "PAIG" I slowly walk into the living room after pools of tears and a lecture about cutting my sister keep on saying g I love you and I was SO mad at her. I yelled "I HATE YOU" over and over until she stoped talking.. the next day she left.. I guess it was my fault that she ran away.. no special thing tho I am a mess up that only makes things shit that's ok tho I know it no one can say otherwise. I was so so very depressed after she left me I missed her and then we sent her away..well now lets go way more back to when Alexis was still in school I was in a fight with her alot of girls got involved. Alexis called me retarded and I am.. well I got in a big fight I yelled and she tried to talk bit I was to mad to see that she was trying to..I yelled the same simple word I did my sister that hurt do much I HATE YOU and she still remembers that fight  these words scare like a fresh deep cut and it will never be looked down unless you understand each other and forgive. Me being me I can't forgive people I know I suck ass for not but it it true.. well that is all for this chapter thank you for the 100 reads I LOVE YOU ALL MY CRANKY CREW STAY CRANKY!

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