Ok so lets just say I am not me anymore alot of stuff happens at this stupid ass book realease thing and I messed things up I am thinking to myself would life be better if I was dead? or would my friends be better off without me.... and so I shall change I might not but Monday I will say sorry and be alone again like I was in Longfellow... it makes there life easier for them then so be it! and a BIG surprise if I change... sadly I love you all bye..