I am sorry im writing this on my shitty phone but i wanted to update so lets go
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WHAT IS UP MY CRANKY CREW HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!! anyways i wanted to talk about Halloween night and how i think i am crazy now and my father and TIEN... Well Halloween was great i dressed up as eyeless jack and had fun got a lot of candy and i was SUPER happy nothing could ruin it for me or what i thought so at the end of the night with my dad (mom and dad are deforced) and he is only aloud to have us in tell 8 pm and drop us off at a park two blocks away from my mothers house and my dad can be stupid some times and hurtful but i still love him and always will he loves and cares about me so much and he holds half of my heart.. We where going to the park but dad offers to drive us strate to my moms house only one block away and i said yes but after he left i came into my moms house and TIEN yelled at me "HE IS NOT TO BE HERE AGAIN OR I WILL CALL THE COPS ON HIM! JoJo my brother cried and i wanted to yell back but.. I cant or he will yell back way louder and then my mother would join in.  I HATE HATE HATE myself i can do anything... Hehe... I am do weak and scared of him i cant even eat unless my mom is here if i try to eat when he is here i get yelled at and it hurts so much on the inside... Well i cry and sometimes i cant eat for 2 days.... It hurts me so bad.... I want to die sometimes but i try to find the happiness is every bad thing but with TIEN i can find one fucking thing... And when i think of how bg is not here i think of hanging myself i am so close i want to but i c-can't my mom is going to come in and yell at me one sec.... Well i guess she will later...  I hate life i do i miss my puppy i miss my sister i want her home again.. I want myles home i miss then SO much i want my REAL family back i wish tien wasn't here i wish i was dead.... My friend thinks i hate her jaqui if you are reading this NO I DONT HATE YOU YOUR A GOOD FRIEND  my life is miserable because of TIEN ... well i gtg i love you all STAY CRANKY!