⚠️SAPPY AND CHEESY AF WARNING!!⚠️

It is 12:52AM right now as I'm writing this sentence. Valentines Day which by the way Happy Single Pringles Awareness Day :,)

Anyways as you read the title of this chapter. I'm uh, I'm indirectly confessing to my crush today. So on Thursday last week it was the first day selling candy grams and crush (soda) grams. I bought 5 crush (not knowing what they were XD) and 5 candies. 2 of my friends grabbed a crush gram and fucking wrote it to my crush for me. I love and thank them ^~^ But I was FREAKING... THE FUCK... OUT!... I'm like, REALLY worried that he might not like me as much anymore and I'll end up heartbroken again (the last 2 weren't from crushes, a "family" member, and a friend/old crush so actually it's half a crush "^~^). Like, what if he's still obsessed with the most popular girl in school?! Although who could blame him? She's perfect, tall, blonde, kinda petite, long hair, perfect skin tone of apricot, comes from a good home and family, she's fucking perfect and fucking gorgeous and here I am: Medium hair, darker hair (that'll get lighter soon), smol, potato, my fucking thighs do the thing when I sit (I know some of you know damn well what I'm talking about and it sucks :,) )MANY health and mental issues, bad childhood, rockin' a damn double chin (that's finally going away a bit. More on that later) the skin tone under my nose makes it look like k have a bit of a mustache WHICH I DON'T. I'm just, not attractive tbh. Kawaii, ye, sorta, but I'm nothing compared to her. The only thing I'm better at is singing, rapping, art, and comprehending shit people don't usually know. Otherwise she's literally the girl every guy would want >~< Plus she's in almost all of his classes and I see them talk quite a bit. They almost seem cute together too, it's a lot of people's OTP and here I am. Tbh I can't afford a heartbreak right now. I can't loose him. Not now, not ever. If he says no I'll do what I always do, fake a smile and act like I'm fine. If he miraculously says yes, that could be a step to getting rid of most of my depression. Hopefully. I have too much faith in things "^~^. There's something about him that makes me forget about my worries, that's the main reason I want to be with him but he's also out of my league. *sigh* I guess all I can do is pray and let God do the rest hah. I just don't wanna be upset anymore than I am, I don't wanna be insecure anymore, I don't want anymore negativity, and I feel he's the key to that. It seems he's the only one who am make me not as depressed, not as insecure, not as negative. But, if he says no it'll continue. I know some of you heard me say to wait to find someone since you never know there may be someone better it just takes a while. But you know what, if you feel you're ready follow your heart and take a huge-ass leap! XD if you fall then brush yourself off. It's ok to cry a bit, it's a thing people (and others who at this point don't even know their damn species I.E. me XD) do. Just let it out and keep going to try to find someone who'll actually love you and be there for you...

Well this came off a little sappy and cheesy. I think Imma add a warning at the beginning of that lol. Well anyways. May your chocolates be good and crushes like you back ^~^❤️❤️👌🏼 And may you not have your period unlike me :,)