Wedding Day

This is so..... suffocating. The tie, the vest and coat.... Everything is over stimulating.

"Stop fidgeting" my mother says as we, the groom and his family, are lining up at the entrance to the wedding hall to greet guests as part of Korean wedding tradition "Is the fabric not your liking?" She adds

"No. It's okay" I say. My mother has been talking to me since I return home for preparation but my father has not laid his eyes on me or care my existence.

The air itself here is so..... *sigh* stuffed. And so many guests as I expected. Relatives stress me out more than other guests. Treating me like some kind of disease... or mental disable person, telling me to get better soon. It is you monkeys that need to get better with those brains of yours. *sigh* I wanna go home. I wanna see Ahjussi. Hug him and kiss him.

"Is this the second born?" A woman asks my mother.

Another monkey relative. I don't even know if she is from the mother side or the father side of the family. What's the point of bringing me out to public after hiding for years?

"Yes. How are you? I have been saying, we should all do brunch and golf soon" my mother says

"Yes yes. How about you? When is your wedding? Do you already have special someone?" She asks me

I just give her the service smile and my mother interrupts "the ceremony almost starts. Go have a sit"

"Haha. Both sons are so handsome. Talk to you later, Soohyun. " the lady says and heads into the hall.

"Are you seeing someone?" My mother asks me.

"I don't think you are that curious."

"Introduce her to me if you have one. As a mother I want to m....."

"You can put that act away. It is weird. All this mother act"

"Byun Baekhyun...."

"Mom, dad, Baekhyun ah. I think you all can head in now. It's about time to start" my brother says. And my parents heads in first because I want to go to restroom before heading in.

"Baekhyun ah, thank you for being here" my brother says as we two are the only one left.

"No big deal. And congratulations again." The old me would be crying throwing up from heartbreak but I guess it was like a history. I am more than fine.

"I need a small cheer up. I am nervous" hyung says

"Nervous? I thought you are used to big crowds like you always give speech and presentations."

"This is different" he says and hugs me. "And this is what I need."

"Hyung.... You should go in r....." he tightens the hug

"Finally... I feel at ease"

I can't even complain because this is his day. And this is all I can do for him.

"Better? Now go in"

"Promise me you will hang out with me when I come back from honeymoon"

"Yeah yeah..."

"And...."

"..........."

"I love you Baekhyun ah. I love you the most"

"............."

"I am the one who will always love you. Don't you ever forget that"

"Stop being emotional and go in" I push him into the hall.

"See you" he says and finally takes his place as standby. For me? I couldn't go and sit at my spot behind my parents. So i just stand at the back.. from one corner, I watch Hyung's Bride walk down the aisle with her father. Well, no less from Hyung's choice of woman, I think she is somewhat also a Chaebol  (A:N; a South Korean conglomerate, usually owned by a single family) looking at this crowd and scale of this venue.

"My job is done here right?" I mumble as I watch them putting rings on each other. I am so tired. I probably go and surprise Ahjussi at cafe. Hehehe. I left the wedding hall and "Byun Baekhyun" someone calls me.

It is one of my friends... when I used to hang out with Kim Minjoon (Baekhyun's so called ex-lover)

"Aw.... You are here too?" I ask

"You don't look happy to see me"

"Not quite"

"My family was invited so I had to come" he says "You look okay"

"Why wouldn't I be?"

"Hmmm... because he just got married and chose someone and not you?"

"......."

"You used to cry out his name whenever we do it."

"I am perfectly okay."

"I see. You stopped contacting us. Why is that? And I heard you don't even visit Minjoon at hospital. He is really in bad shape until now"

"Well, he just never came cross my kind to care"

"That's really mean. When I know how much you like our touch and care. We missed you, you know. Even Minjoon can't be with us, we will treat you the same pleasure or even better. Who knows. Join us at CloudNine, we are there every Saturday. As usual"

"Don't you think you are at the age to grow out of that?"

"Out what? Care to explain, our Baekhyun ah" he says as he steps closer to me. "We tried other whiney bitches but, no one does his job like you do. We do miss it. I know you do too" he says and gropes my ass

"Manners, will you?" I push him away

"Feisty as ever huh. Well, that's what makes you sexy"

"Anyway. I stopped doing such things so you should stop coming up to me for that"

"So the rumours are true. That you had your own boytoy. And that little shit did Minjoon so bad that he is hospitalised and in coma. Is that true?"

"Again, manners. I just happen to find a humane lover who is gentle and treats me nice."

"Lover... haha.... Well, you don't last long without a little spice during sex anyway" (a:n: referring to drugs and aphrodisiac)

"Well, you should go clean for a few weeks so that you can prove your word wrong. Or else, what if you can't get yours up without the drugs.. oooo... would be scary.. haha"

"What the f...."

"I don't mind you bothering me but, if you touch my lover, you and your family will go down the drain. Not prettily of course. So, i hope we don't run into each other. And watch your back in alleyway if you don't wanna end up like Kim Minjoon"

"Lover? Don't joke me. Who is going to love a whore who has been used by so many people and enjoy brazen sex life. Do you think they will stay with you long? No. They gonna leave soon. Because you will never be loved... just like your own family do not love you"

"🖕🏻" and I leave the hotel

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I quickly head back to cafe to see Ahjussi. And I can't wait for our trip to be honest. It is just around the corner.
With all my happy thoughts, I arrived at the cafe only to see a girl asking for Ahjussi's number. It is so painful to have such handsome and dazzling man as a boyfriend. Look at her all blushing... when all he see is me.

But why is he looking at her with that kind eyes? Making me all jealous. Was Ahjussi straight? Or at least bi-sexual? He said he had sex before? I don't seem to recall... i should ask him again. Is he interested in women?

'Who is going to love a whore who has been used by so many people and enjoy brazen sex life. Do you think they will stay with you long? No. They gonna leave soon. Because you will never be loved... just like your own family do not love you'

I swear to god I am trying my best not to let those words get me...

"Ahjussi"

"Kiddo" his face brightens up when he sees me. U guess, he likes me .... Only. Right?
What if...... what if he gets tired of me one day? And marry to a woman just like Hyung.... And I will be all alo......

"Kiddo?" Ahjussi grabs my hand "Are you okay?"

If this man leaves me, I don't think I can survive by myself anymore. I am madly in love with him.

"I love you" I say

I guess I let out my thoughts from my mouth as I hear everyone in the cafe gasp.

"I love you too" Ahjussi answers back without whispering or brushing it off and I hear people gasp again.

"Aigoooooo!!! Go and talk in private you romance -drama princes" the boss lady says and pushes us into the staff room.

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