i was tagged by speakjimin (right? i actually couldn't tell but i did it anyways whoops. i spent like 2 hours writing this and my hand hurts smhhhhh)

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have you met your soulmate?
- i thought i did; a best friend that i met here on wattpad back in nov of 15 (but haven't heard from since this past october), maggie. we swore that we were platonic soulmates because of how alike we were. i miss her.

favorite color when you were younger, and now?
- when i was younger it went from pink to purple, but now its like a mix between pastel/baby pink and peach.

do you wear eyeshadow, and what color?
- sometimes (when i try to put it on myself i look uglier if possible lmao, i also have really cheap palettes that don't even show up on skin 99% of the time) and i only really have the neutral, nude tones so those i guess

are you in love right now?
- ehhhh ??

in your opinion, is love at first sight real?
- ive never experienced or heard of anyone who experienced anything like it so nah.

are you an optimist, a realist, an opportunist or a pessimist?
- ?? im not really sure, i guess it depends. if i had to say, i tend to be on the more pessimistic side.

first kiss details? (if you haven't been kissed, how and if you would like to be)
- ive never kissed anyone, and i honestly don't expect to for a long time despite the fact that im literally about to be 18 but oh well

do you own stickers; a stationery?
- ??? i own washi tape ?? 😂

what's your aesthetic?
- it depends, i guess. sometimes its stars or something cutesy or something both sad and happy that i can relate to, or something vhs style. like these :

(ill stop here lol)

do you wear dresses and skirts?
- lmao fun fact !! i used to be obsessed with wearing princess dresses when i was little and i like wearing dresses and skirts but i wasn't really allowed to often without wearing shorts or leggings underneath so now i only own like 1-3 dresses maybe, and like 1 skort (the stupid skirts with shorts built in or whatever smh

what's your hair like?
- soft and fluffy ig but really ugly after my mom cut it and it grew out weird and uneven bc she didn't do it right so i want it fixed ): but its brown/black (it was dyed a long while ago and the black still lingers somewhat) right now, but i really want to dye it blonde, its just really hard without it turning red.

does time go by fast or slow to you?
- it depends, if im really looking forward to/dreading something it goes really slow smh, but most of the time it just goes by.

what time do you go to bed, what time do you wake up?
- it depends on how tired i am, but im used to going to bed around 6-6:30am, sometimes earlier or later, and getting up around 3pm on average, but again, sometimes earlier or later. as of last few days, its been sleeping around 3am and waking up about 11am-12pm.

favorite sweet food?
- ice cream, especially strawberry flavored (i actually just bought some lmao).

tea, coffee, or hot cocoa?
- i like all three but there some things i don't like about them. if i had to choose, maybe (iced) tea (especially green tea with lots of sugar) or (iced) coffee (like frappes and what not).

space, ocean, city or forest?
- they're all nice, maybe forest.

favorite game as a child?
- i had a lot that i liked (playing super mario world, board/card games like monopoly and life and uno, barbies with my younger sister, computer games like marble blast gold, sims, etc).

comfort book?
- i actually don't know if i necessarily have one, i rarely read things more than once or twice.

princess, fairy, mermaid or unicorn?
- princess !

do you fall in love easily?
- not really, no. i don't develop crushes very easily either.

favorite word?
- i have a few i guess ?? currently i like: color, blush, soft, twilight and ephemeral.

3 word description of your life?
- very very boring ?? lmao
but for real, i don't have any.

do you slow dance?
- i don't dance period. i tried. i failed.

do you wear fake nails, or paint your nails?
- no fake nails, mine are already hella long and everyone seems to really like them or really hate them. idk. and as for painting, only sometimes because it doesn't look very good with how long my nails are (surprisingly) and the polish gets annoying.

has anyone ever confessed to you?
- i guess, maybe two or three times but idk why.

do you lie?
- i try not to, and when i do it's usually either small white lies or it's because im afraid or something.

what makes you smile?
- cats, lee and victoria, and my other friends, youtubers/vines, bts, my family.

have you ever cried over a book or a movie?
- yes, i cried over book 9 of cirque Eu freak when they killed off mr crepsley and i cried at the end of book 12 when darren died. i cried over several movies, including a dog's purpose, cried over shows and animes (im looking at you, orange).

when and who was your first crush?
- ugggghhhhh i hate to say it but i guess it was this kid matthew that lived next door to me from the time i was 7 (when i moved there) until i moved away when i was almost 10. i used to play yugioh with him and go over to his house to wake him up for church (when i used to go) and talk to him over the fence. I made him a valentine once (or a picture or something, idk if it was even valentines day ?? I THINK IT WAS HALLOWEEN??) but i don't think i ever gave it to him and he tried to kiss me once but i slapped him ?? then his brother started dating my sister and i quit talking to him i think but i saw him again a few times, even after i moved.

marriage or kids?
- i always say no but sometimes i dream about it, but my answer is no, probably not ever lol

are you superstitious?
- no, not really

who is your 3am thought?
- ...?

do you like candy? what's your favorite?
- yes, i like all kinds. non-chocolate favorites would probably be dots (or spice drops) or certain kinds of lollipops (i looooove bubblegum/blue raspberry/cotton candy/butterscotch dumdums and chocolate/cherry/raspberry tootsie pops) or something, im not sure. i like too many chocolate kinds to pick a favorite.

favorite holiday?
- either christmas (i love the lights and the dumb movies and the sweaters and the hot cocoa and shit) or halloween (bc who doesnt like halloween??) !!

favorite season?
- autumn (and spring) !!

cat or dog person?
- kitties )':

quiet or loud?
- quiet around people, loud when im home alone or with my sister lol

favorite time period?
- i mean, i kinda like this one lmao (but i also really like the 90's ?? and the 70's/80's with the drive in movies and diners and shit

favorite fashion fad that went away?
- i don't even know of one lmao

best/worst nightmare you've ever had?
- idk, i had some really fucked up ones. probably whichever one had me waking up crying like, last year ?? i think ??

worst fear as a kid?
- i deleted my original answer bc it was too dark.

do you flirt?
- not really bc i tried one time and it was an epic fail, like they didn't even know i was flirting lmaoooooo

what's your style?
- what's that??? style??? never heard of it

do you blush?
- unfortunately so

do you feel everything, nothing or don't know what to feel?
- im too tired for this question lmao

are you a crier, do you smile?
- both, but my smile is ugly so i don't do it in pictures often

first love?
- eh

last love?
- ehhhhh

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