REBEL CELESTINE

"Sawang-sawa na ako, Thrasher! Sobrang sawa na ako na ganito na lang palagi!" pagod kong sigaw habang naglalakad paatras, palayo sa kanya.

Distressed tears were rolling down my face. I'm tired of this. Pagod na akong sabihin kay Thrasher na okay lang sa'kin kahit 'yung totoo, pinapatay na 'yung bawat parte ko.

"Jordyne, Thrasher. Nawawala ka, hinahanap kita. Pero nasaan ka? Na kay Jordyne ka na naman?" suminghap ako at hinarap siya.

Nakatayo lang siya sa harap ko, looking defeated. Guilty as charged just like he should be. Ako, wala na naman akong magawa. Iiyak lang, sisigaw lang.

"Babe..." tawag niya sa'kin habang pilit akong nilalapitan pero lumayo ako. Hindi ko kaya. Pakiramdam ko kasi kapag hinawakan niya ako, bibigay lang din naman ako.

"Am I lacking? Am I not enough? Kaya ka nagpunta kay Jordyne? To fulfill whatever needs you have inside you?"

Then again, I felt all my insecurities hugging me knowing I can't make Thrasher sensually content the way Jordyne did. Doon pa lang, talo na ako.

"Babe, I've told you a million times, you're enough for me and I don't need anybody else but you."

"'Edi bakit? 'Diba wala na? 'Diba tapos na? Bakit bumabalik ka pa rin sa kanya kung ako lang naman pala 'yung kailangan mo?" halos pumiyok na ako sa pagtapos ng huling tanong.

"Tapos na nga. Just... Babe, please understand." He was struggling to find words to say as he was frustratingly scratching the back of his head.

"Stop talking about understanding, Thrasher."

I forced a smile, just like I used to. Hinawi ko siya sa dadaanan ko at umupo sa hagdan sa labas ng pintuan namin. Wala na akong masabi. Ang tanging nagagawa ko na lang ay umiyak.

Is it that hard to let her go? 'Yun lang naman ang gusto ko. I tried to tell myself it's okay because he will choose me, but no. He chooses me but he won't choose me over her.

"Do you want to break up?"

I stopped crying and lifted my face. Hindi ako makapaniwala. Tinatanong ba niya talaga ako niyan? I managed to speak up for myself even though I was hurting inside. I can feel the weight of ny heart pulling me down, shattering me to pieces.

"N-No..." I wiped up the tears off my face before asking the most painful words I have to say. "Do you want u-us to?"

His eyes widened and his face softened while he quickly rushed to me. Pumantay siya sa lebel ko at pinunasan ang mga luha na lumalabas sa mga mata ko. "No, babe. Why would you even ask me that? I won't ever wish for that to happen."

"I-I thought you a-asked me that because that's what you wanted." I slowly murmured before covering my face to cry again.

Narinig ko ang yapak ng kanyang mga paa at ang pag-upo niya sa'king tabi. Somehow, that made me feel the comfort. It made me feel at peace.

"I only asked because I feel you're tired of me and you want to give me up."

Alam kong malapit lang siya sa'kin kaya mas nadalian ako sa pagsapak sa kanya. Just like the crybaby I am, I cried after punching him.

"T-Tanga ka na pala kung ganun! Pagod lang ako pero hindi kita susukuan." He languidly smiled and pulled me into a hug. He was being unsure at first but when he felt how calm I was in his arms, he hugged me tighter.

"Are we fine now?" he whispered into my ear while making soft and shallow kisses on my neck. Mahirap labanan ang tukso, sabi nga nila.

"N-No." He said nothing but a small nod before snuggling into my neck. "I respect that."

"We're never going to be fine until Jordyne is out of the picture because Jordyne has no place in this relationship. Only Rebel and Thrasher exist inside this picture."

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ｊ： hindi talaga ako pang-angst, kahit gusto ko i-try hehe. but i think kailangan ko pa lumangoy sa utak at puso ko para makuha 'yung angst kasi i can't write the pain, i can only think of it. :>

highkey wanna make tapos the story kaso hindi pa tayo nangangalahati sa story hehe. baka hanggang 30 chapters na lang 'to, if ever. hope you enjoyed this update and may you find luck in everything you encounter in life. tsaka thank you for 1k+ reads, ebribadi. i appreciate your being so you must appreciate yours, too. love u all.