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rebel @rebelalvarez
oh, well.

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↪ iyak @eupornia
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I SEE A BEAUTY, I CRIED.

↪ hehehe @h3h3h3
Replying to @rebelalvarez
ito ba 'yung pinalit ni thrasher kay jordyne? 😵

↪ iyak @eupornia
Replying to @rebelalvarez and @h3h3h3
GAGO. ANO GINAGAWA MO DITO?

↪ thrasher @thrshr
Replying to @rebelalvarez
trash chic? more like my chic. 😶💜

↪ iyak @eupornia
Replying to @rebelalvarez and @thrshr
grabe. i don't feel betrayed. hindi talaga. sobrang okay lang ako na ginaganyan mo siya sa likod ko, thrasher.

↪ rebel @rebelalvarez
Replying to @thrshr
dude, u ain't smooth.

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"Twist, nakita mo ba si Thrasher?" tanong ko kay Twist habang mahigpit na nakahawak sa strap ng backpack purse ko.

Kanina ko pa siya kinocontact. I called him but it said he was unavailable. I texted him but he wasn't replying either. Kahit mga kaibigan hindi alam nasaan siya.

I'm starting to get worried for him. He told me he would take me home today because today is Friday and Friday means Placard Doré won't be practicing.

Kung umalis siya, sana nagsabi man lang siya para hindi ako nag-alala. Wala naman akong pake kung hindi niya ako mahatid pauwi. I just want him to be safe.

"Hindi. Baka nasa labas? Sa parking?"

Sinunod ko ang sinabi ni Twist. Baka nga naman nandoon siya at doon niya ako hinihintay.

I stopped right in front of main entrance. Iginala ko ang tingin ko para hanapin ang kotse ni Thrasher. I smiled when I found him.

But he was not alone.

He was there, standing in front of Jordyne.

I instantly frowned. Akala ko hindi na sila nag-uusap dahil sabi niya sa'kin hindi niya siya kakausapin at wala naman siyang balak.

Instead of walking to his direction, I exited the school while making sure the both of them won't notice me. Uuwi na lang ako mag-isa.

I felt somehow betrayed?

Kanina ko pa siya hinahanap at kanina pa ako napapabalik-balik sa loob ng campus para hanapin siya.

Bakit niya kasama si Jordyne? Bakit sila nag-uusap na parang gusto siyang halikan ni Jordyne? Bakit nagkakaganito ako?

Napasabunot ako sa sarili ko habang nakasakay sa Uber. Ano ba naman 'tong iniisip ko? Ano ba 'tong nangyayari sa'kin?

I decided to check my phone for any messages, pero wala naman palang nagmemessage sa'kin. I sighed and shut it off. Tutal ay nasa 3% na lang ang phone ko. Pauwi na rin naman ako kaya hindi ko na gagamitin.

Pagkapasok ko ng bahay, nandoon na si Mommy tsaka si Misty. Mommy walked out of the kitchen and stared at me.

"Dear, are you fine? You look all worn out."

I'm really not in the mood to talk. Pinilit kong ngumiti at mabilis na umakyat patungo sa kwarto ko. I locked the door and put my phone on the sidetable.

Nakahiga lang ako habang nakatingin sa ceiling. I have so much in mind today. Sobrang gulo.

Hindi naman siguro ako hinahanap ni Thrasher. Since he's so busy with someone else.

Tinulog ko ang pagod ko. All I can think of now is to rest and to rest and to rest. Wala akong gustong gawin kundi humiga na lang buong gabi!

Nagising ako dahil sa isang katok sa aking pintuan. Napaunat-unat ako bago buksan ang pintuan.

Akala ko kapag nagising ako mawawala na 'yung problema ko.

Nakangiti si Mommy sa harapan ko. Hindi ko siya tinanong kung bakit ganyan kalaki 'yung ngiti niya kasi siya rin sumagot ng katanungan sa isip ko.

"May bisita ka sa baba. Nasa labas lang siya ng bahay. Sinubukan kong papasukin pero ayaw niya."

Nagdasal ako na sana hindi si Thrasher. Pero bakit naman magiging si Thrasher 'yun? He probably doesn't care about me right now since he was so busy with Jordyne.

Padabog ako bumaba ng hagdan habang nakakunot ang noo. Bakit ba galit na galit ako?

I opened our front door only to see a mad Thrasher staring right at me. Oh, bakit siya pa galit? Ako ba ang may kasamang ex? Ako ba ang nagsisinungaling?

"Bakit ka umuwi mag-isa? Sabi ko sasabay ka sa'kin, 'diba?" naiinis niyang sabi sa'kin pero inirapan ko lang siya. He ignored my reaction so I answered him.

"Nawala sa loob ko." I lied.

"Why aren't you answering my goddamn calls then? Kanina pa kita tinatawagan tapos hindi ka mareach." iritado niyang sabi sa'kin. Ang mga kamay nito'y nakalagay sa baywang niya.

Come to think of it, hindi ko rin pala nabuksan at nagcharge ang cellphone ko. I didn't cross my mind that he would contact me.

"Na-lowbatt ako!" depensa ko sa aking sarili. "Anong ginagawa mo dito? Tapos ka na ba sa usapan niyo ni Jordyne?"

Kung kanina ay galit ang mukha niya, bigla naman siyang nanlambot ngayon.

"You saw?" gulat niyang tanong sa'kin. Sinubukan niyang hawakan ako pero umiwas ako. "I was going to tell you that and confront you about leaving, that's why I drove here."

"Were you going to tell me if I didn't?" sarkastiko kong sagot habang nakatingin lang sa aking gilid. Ayaw ko siya tignan ngayon.

"Yes! Why would I keep secrets from you? Girlfriend kita." mahina nitong sabi habang nakatingin pa rin sa'kin. Sumulyap ako sa kanya saglit but his eyes were so full of assurance kaya napaiwas ako ulit.

"Anong pinag-usapan niyo?" I asked while walking down the stairs and taking a seat on it. I hugged my knees and stared at my foot.

He followed and sat beside me. Tumikhim muna siya bago ako sagutin. "She was asking me to take her back."

I stayed at my position. Walang gumagalaw ni isang parte ng katawan ko. Thrasher is sitting right beside me, carefully inspecting my every move and reaction.

He faced forth and scoffed. He's probably confused right now. Maybe because he still wants Jordyne for himself but he's afraid she might do it again to him.

We could break-up, Thrasher, for your convenience.

"I told her I wouldn't take her back, even if I had the chance to. Nagalit siya sa'kin. Sabi niya hindi raw ako nagsasabi ng totoo at sinasabi ko lang daw 'yun sa harapan niya dahil sa pride ko. I don't care about my pride, Belle."

I kept a straight face, but I failed. A frown showed while he was telling me everything.

"She got madder when I told her I wouldn't do anything to hurt you. Well, that's Jordyne for you. Basta para sa'kin, I have my girlfriend with me and that's just enough."

Palalim ng palalim ang mga hininga ko. Bakit ganito siya? Hindi ko macontain nang maigi lahat ng nararamdaman ko ngayon.

He stood up and squatted in front of me. Inangat ko nang kaunti ang mukha ko para hulihin ang kanyang nakakalunod na titig. Tinanggal niya ang pagkakayakap ko sa aking binti at hinawakan ang mga kamay ko.

"Were you jealous that's why you ran away without even telling me?"

Was I?

"Yes," I admitted, almost like a whisper.

Did I just admit something I shouldn't have admitted?

He rubbed my hands using his thumbs. Nakakagat siya sa kanyang ibabang labi bago tumingin sa'kin. He slowly raised my left hand and planted a soft kiss on it.

"It won't happen ever again."