Why is it

That what we fear most

Comes out at night

Everything

The anxiety

The helplessness

The what if's

Even if you are

Excited about something

A chance

An opportunity

That may not come again

Darkness falls

Night fears appear

What if I can't handle it?

What if I get homesick?

What if I get lost?

What if something bad happens?

In the daytime

Everything is rationalized

Understood

Taken care of

This is a part

Of growing up

And it is only 3 weeks

Time flies

And it's not just

This trip

This Luxembourg/London trip

Anything giving me

Cause to panic

Keeps me up at night

Mind over matter

Or so they say

But the mind doesn't

Always listen

It sputters

Creates the very

Night fears

I hate so much

Deep down in my gut

I know I can do this

That I will have an amazing

Experience and time

As a world traveler

This is right up my alley

But how do I get

Rid of the night fears

I know why they haunt me

Like silent

Invisible ghosts

Never in my life

Have I been

Away from home

2 weeks the longest

Not college

Nor apartment

Always with my mom

I am so dependent

Yet independent

At the same time

No I have to

Reconcile the two

Preparing the little birdie

To take a step

Out of the nest

Spread my wings

Attempt to fly

Alone

Without falling

Have to quench

The nightmarish

Scenarios in my head

But how?

By doing just that

Forcing myself to

Go through this experience

Knowing

Full well

How glad I'll be

Once I come home

With having done it

Try not to think

Of past failed trips

Where many tears

Were involved

And the extreme ache

For home

I hope that with

Reassurance

Experience of journey

And supportive friends

These night fears

Will vanish

Or be

Vanquished forever!