Close my eyes and breathe

hoping and praying

for release

from the pressure

my fear

of thoughts

anxiety

panic

loneliness

inhabit my inner being

I try to express myself

to tell others

but I get turned away

not in the mood

don't have time for you

so I withdraw

into myself

I don't talk to people anymore

I slip below everyones radar

until finally someone says

hey remember her?

Where is she?

What if I can't do it?

Become a success?

I can't hide forever

No one can help me

but me

But what if I

don't have the strength?

My fear of thoughts

are hindering my progress

Are people repulsed by me?

Is that why I'm still alone?

Why am I being ignored?

Why the insecurities?

I wish I could fly away

Just soar into the clouds

Go wherever I want

Be with whoever I want

Making friends used to be easy

Now even talking is hard

What if I can't tell someone I care?

What if I say the wrong thing?

Who will care for me than?

Fear of thoughts

how can I break away?

No more pain

please no more pain

Set me free