I love you

Very much

But I

Can't do this anymore

I can't fight

Your battles

For you

I've been the referee

To your marriage

Since I was a kid

I can't do this anymore

It's not my war

You can't complain

That I'm a traitor

Or on his side

Because I don't say anything

You have a victim attitude

But each choice you

Made was your own

To marry him

I didn't make that choice

You're concern about

My health

But how

Can it ever get better

If I have to do that

All the time

You get angry at him

But take it out on me

When he did something

And I tried to explain it

You told me "fuck you"!!!

That is not ok

I don't care how stressed you are

That's crossing the line

I refuse to be spoken to that way

I deserve a hell of a lot more from you!

You claim I'm cold and distant

How can I not be?

You are constantly pushing me away

You get angry and frustrated at him

But to me you say

"I'm so sick of this family"

Or

"I need to get away from this family"

How would you feel if

I said that to you?

When you have a bad day at work

I ask how your day is:

"I don't want to talk about it"

Ok

Later that evening you say to me:

"You don't care about how my day goes,

You don't care about me."

Really? Seriously?

You blame grandpa for being negative

You do the same

Yes, you had a bad life

But a lot of what made it bad

Were your own choices.

When he isn't home

You claim it's amazing

Peace and quiet

But you still aren't positive

You dwell on the bad!

I can't walk on

Eggshells with every conversation

You want me to be warm, loving, and positive

When all I have to see is

The anger, the negativity

Most of it directed

At me because I'm the

Worthless punching bag

Did saying "fuck you" to me

Make you feel better?

Stronger?

How did that make you

Different from each bully

Whoever tormented me

I need to make my own life

With or without your approval

I want to be close to you again

Without you controlling my life

But each time I open up

You change the conversation

To yourself and slam me back down

Can I ever just talk about myself?

Then you claim, I don't talk to you

Wonder why

I want you back

But you aren't willing to help yourself

You expect me to help you to do your fighting

But I can't do this anymore....

Please stop

I won't be able to do it

Can you stop blowing up at me for nothing

When you get mad at him?

Telling me to go to hell

Because I asked you not to shut the door

In my face?

What the hell is wrong with you?

How much more of this verbal abuse

Do you think

I'm going to take

Before I lose all respect for you?

Am I that expandable?

Do you want me to go away and never return?

Would that make it all better for you?

I'm not your enemy

I'm not bad

I'm not wrong

I'm not a punching bag to your anger

I AM YOUR DAUGHTER

I AM a person

I AM extremely hurt

And

I can't take this anymore!