1-13-17
Barrel of a gun,
Sweet perspectives,
Talk back for once,
Would you?

You're the only one to face these thoughts
Quite literally
And not run,
Although I'm hoping you'll go off on me anyways.

I've confided in you three times this week,
That's three nights without sleep.
You don't need to recharge
Before you die.
Look who's standing, though.

Mere pieces of love are what we've been given,
This city is desperate for another victim,
Let's go out in style tonight,
What do you say?
Me and you, in a place only we know,
Where nobody makes a call,
And we rot like its our purpose?
Something tells me we know what we're doing.

Maybe it'll rain tonight,
So the water can make the decision.
I'd sure miss that if I were dead.
It's Thursday-
I've got you in a hidden place,
And you've got me
Tempted, lonely, and addicted.
We're content right here.

Blood and massacres,
Television screens and anxiety,
I'm sorry I feel the need to escape,
I'm sorry you don't know
What lies ahead.
Years on end, full of lost anger
And destroyed dreams,
Won't you talk back for once?
I never for a second gave up on the thought of you.

Mechanical and without empathy,
I pray to you
Because God doesn't want to see this.
It's been too many weeks,
Too many nights,
I'm so over it.
You've been here all along,
I cannot accept love,
So I make it up to you
While you find your way in this world,
We've fulfilled our purposes.
Together and alone.
⁃ (m.m)

1-13-17
Sitting on numbers that look a lot like luck,
We've come way too far lately.
Talking low,
Loving on the high,
Keep it down,
But tell em right.
Can you see it all,
Do you feel how crazy it is?
In my head,
That arena is right there,
Those breaths I take
Fill rooms of people
Who I know my music saves,
And to them,
It's a goddamn miracle
I never got my head outta the clouds.
In my head,
The bass is shaking the thoughts down,
The demons run on controllers,
My life pushed start.
Love is raining raining raining,
Ice cold to green
In two weeks,
The cycles don't matter,
The seasons don't matter,
All we have is right now.

Remind me how electric July third could be,
Backyards with summer wind,
Trees, and a view of the mountains.
Fireworks at the river,
Speeding speeding speeding,
Drunk backroads
And pure magic,
Every line elevated
To the fact that the heights are here.

Big names in small cities,
Innocence lost to a bottle of alcohol,
And families of infidelity.
Glass secrets scare you,
But remember how breakable they are.
Don't kill the dreams in those brown eyes.
Don't kill the love
Over what's lost now.

Moved up in the world,
We don't know where we've wandered,
But the taste resembles darker days
And rediscovery.
I've found myself,
And only at my worst,
Perhaps you can understand what that really means to me,
Because there's nothing in the galaxies
I'd drop for this.

Days like this I'd die on the track,
Blood loss and exhaustion
Couldn't lure me to the end.
Messy thoughts start to tangle
With the numbers on the clock,
I haven't slept right
I haven't slept right
Call me like we're still dreaming,
The circles got me spinning,
Rounds on the hour,
I haven't slept right.

Pure electricity,
I know I'm dark,
I know this isn't easy,
And I know I'm sick to my stomach on the shit,
But I float through time
To pretend reality won't catch up.
Tunnel vision saves me once
After it kills me twice.
Nothing else matters.

Eyes on the future
Eyes on the future
Take that track,
Make it a suture,
Breathe through the outlets,
Buzzing with something new,
Secrets unfold
And bleed through you,
Watch me bleed for you,
Like you're not seeing it all,
Eyes feel far away on a few,
The world doesn't give us a curfew,
Limitless is what we are,
Limitless is what we've been,
Life's looking hazy,
No one sees the end,
But it's glowing,
As our minds bend,
Trip on the nostalgics,
Take a left,
Steering wheel hearts,
All blinking red,
Stereo dreams,
Ringing through our heads
This city is ours
This city is ours.

Dip me in the waters
Of what I've been missing,
Highs of uncontrollable strength,
I don't remember how I got to the
Glowing Pools,
But they're whispering in progressive love.
I've been meaning to come back,
And I'm sorry for the distance,
My feet dance on the rock,
It's all green again.
Do you feel the heat
Of everything ahead?

These months have felt so hazy,
Play the parts as it all fades from view,
Back window reflections-
It's changing too fucking fast,
But nothing's stopping it,
Life's feeling right.
Saviors look like mirrors,
Do you believe the words I spit,
Because there's meaning behind
Every
Syllable.
I couldn't lie to you if I tried.

I realized what runs this city,
The music and I,
Cruising through the streets,
We're the gods here,
I run strictly on this
Like oxygen isn't shit,
Only a stupid placebo.
Do you understand strength in numbers
When you can't measure these things?
- (m.m)