12-23-16
It's been awhile since words rang through my head,
And pain turned to gasoline.
It's been awhile since I've heard of you.

I wonder if the sewer drains still catch all of the life,
Or if maybe some of it still manages to slip by,
Because these lonely pipes don't see too much light,
But we're glowing off the music, just trying to live high,
And I watch the rays bounce between your eyes,
God made up a dreamer when he took you from the night,
And the city's all you got, so you memorize that light,
Spit fire and salt water over all your reasons why
It should all just be over tonight.
I look at you running wild,
Telling me not to focus on the miles,
And you throw me that smile,
That's been effortless for awhile.
I drift through the bricks and window panes,
Searching for a bigger way,
These feelings don't quite fit
Inside my skeletal frame.
Used to scribble out the names,
Never worried bout the dates,
That was before memorization was the game.
All the words we play,
Cut like a knife and you could save
All of the hurt up in a bottle,
But it'll feel worse by the day.
Positions make power,
And my feelings make me crazed,
But I'm in love with the pain,
In love with the path
That only I'll take,
And I'm fucked up, it's true,
But I don't want another way,
Maybe all this bullshit
Cracks up to be fate.
I've seen heaven and hell,
But this is the only place
I'll stay when I die,
I really don't mean to lie,
But the battles I fight
And everything I hide,
Trust is an issue,
But I'm real when I write.
I been waiting on the edge of the counters to fly,
Swing my feet in the sky,
And taste the clouds like I'm high,
But my mouth isn't dry,
It's full of words when I rhyme,
And I'm looking down the prison cells inside my mind,
But I don't own any locks,
So all the ghosts start to talk,
And I hear you clinking on the bars of my thoughts,
Ringing through the corridors,
With all the noise you brought.
When all the streets are empty,
There's nowhere to walk,
But I'm trying not to get caught
On all the glass edges
But all of that pain
Earns me independence
And a thousand voices screaming,
Me and my emotions til we die,
There's no way I'm leaving,
So I'll cross the sewer drains
And get caught at the gates,
Because this love is patient,
And I'm ready to wait,
We'll go down together
And fall in love with insane,
After all, life for us is nothing but a game
Three strikes you're out,
But we're still fucking playing.
I've missed you too much,
That's really all I'm saying.
⁃ (m.m)