9-18-16
I'm hanging my clothes
That drip in all the things they've seen-
Washing them is difficult
(Last time I wore this hoodie, I was home)-
And I don't put them in the dryer,
That's a luxury I didn't have Before.
I'm so fucking hung up in how these days blend together,
The noise washes me out with the tide on the beach-
The one we walked when you snuck me out,
But things here feel outlined,
Fill me in,
What have I been missing?
I've been missing you,
I know that much,
But critique your day,
I want to live through your energy,
Even when you feel so drained of it.

Shitty three dollar CD's glitch too often
For me to catch my breath,
But I caught you like a cold.
Secrets and codes-
That's how we speak.

These bones are only knife deep
and these bones
Are running on no sleep,
Can you see?

Kiss me like the pavement is between your teeth,
Like speed limits are made for comfort zones
and baby, thats just not us.

I've got so good at faking it,
sometimes I wonder if I'm so far gone,
I should call myself by your name,
But oh god, I know Im not there yet.
You destroy people,
and maybe I do, too,
But I can't seem to figure out
Why I can't destroy you,
It should be so easy to do,
Fuck, look at what you've put me through,
You think these scars have lessened,
They're only down to a few
Right?
And I've been asleep the whole night,
And when there's not a problem to begin with,
You tape my mouth shut
To swallow your lies,
I used to fear that look in your eyes,
But deep beneath it,
You want to run and hide.
I'm starting over,
(So I've been told)
But you?
You'll never change,
At least that part stays the same.
- (m.m)

For my city, "I'm following the map that leads to you" I'll be home soon x