I just can't believe
I hate it,
When everything has to be this way
That I've changed
That I became
A completely different person.

I don't want to give up
But I don't want to hold on
I'm afraid,
That my hope will one day be gone
I'm afraid,
That I'll hurt myself more than once
And beyond.

But...
Why am I still longing
For our ending?
Will I ever receive anything?

No...
It's ok to be like this
After all,
I choose to be this way
This way,
My way,
MY way.

Yes...
Nothing more but MY WAY,
Of living...
... in those dreams.

~May 25, 2016~