I've wanted to give up so much,
But looking at you, I know it'll break my heart
My heart still skips a beat
Whenever our eyes meet
I wish I'll never have to see you again
Just two more months, then I'll be free from this chain~
The pain that tortures me days by days.

Just don't give me faith
Just don't send me signals
Just don't build up my hope
Just don't break my vulnerable heart
You're my first,
But not my last.

I just don't get it
What do all these dreams mean?
Of confessing, of having a candled dinner in Paris,
In a Farris Wheel Cabin
Looking down at the city's streets
Of playing truth or dare,
Of holding hands, of whispering secrets
I just can't get it
What do all these dreams mean?
Can you tell me please?

Well, I guess I'm just a dreamer
After all these bruises that have occurred
After all these dreams that have blurred me like a fool,
I still blindly think you have the same feelings as I do.

Now it's the time for me to stop,
And it's the time I let it go,
Because if you've ever liked me so,
You must have said it before I go.

Lastly, I just want to let you know
That it's my first time my heart and mind can't be controlled
That I won't ever forget these first moments
That you're the first person who gives me these emotions
That it's my first time I care about my appearance,
My pace, my voice, my hair, my fragrance...

~May 19, 2016~