I...

Well, i.. Dont really know how to say this if im honest....

I dont know if this is true or if im just being over emotional-

I think-
I think my parents might be abusive...

But i love my parents. I love them so so much but...

Sometimes....

They just make me so unhappy-
I have to go and cry in the bathroom-
They say....

They say that i shouldn't be crying, that im acting stupid and immature-

And maybe i am but still...

I.... I dont know if this is right....

My parents give me anxiety.
I love them, but they give me major anxiety.

They take my phone away, something that they know my whole life is on. When they do it i hate them for it.
I hate my parents sometimes.
I love them
But i hate them.

Whenever i get in trouble my dad....he yells.... Alot.
Over nothing much at all.
Like, I'll forget to put my plate in the dishwasher one time and he'll go on that i never do, and i should learn how to pick up after myself-
And...

And...

I hate it.
I hate being yelled at.
I hate being around my parents.

My mother takes away my phone, and my books.

The two things i need in my life the most right now.

And sometimes i...

I...

I hate her for it.

And to top it all of, they treat my little brother like a king, and he never gets in trouble.

He hurts me too.
He hits me.
And i know he's only 8 but i dont think its fair that just because he hits me and i hit back, only i get in trouble-

I hate him.

I hate my family.
But i love my family.
Am i being over emotional?
I dont know-

I dont know....

I need help
I need support.
I. Need. Attention
I know its narcissistic but its true.
I need attention.
From them. But im not getting any from them...

I dont know what to do....