Flashback

Sara walked into the small kitchen of her parents RV to find Harry sitting there with his parents drinking again. He laughed at something her dad said and looked at Sara. Inside he was annoyed that he was leading her on, but he couldn't come up with a way to let her down easy. She smiled at him and he decided in his drunk state, he was going to break this off.

"Well I have to go, I gotta go sleep, I have shit to do tomorrow." Her parents nodded waving goodbye.

"I'll walk you out." The blonde girl who had just turned nineteen said to him. He walked out and put his jacket on, stumbled a bit but shook it off. "Hey Tarzan, I'm leaving tomorrow." She told him as she walked him to his bike. "Are you going to miss me?"

"Yeah babe, I'll miss you." He looked around confused to where he was. "Help me to my bike, yeah?" She nodded holding his arm as they walked. He had now forgotten what he was supposed to say.

She talked about school and how she still wasn't sure what she wanted to do yet. College was important to her, it was her life here that she wanted to keep the same. But she was leaving. "I mean I should study something smart."

"You should just cook or bake, you make good cookies." He slurred finding his bike. "Oh good, my tent wasn't stolen," he cheered. "You want a drink?" He asked her. She nodded following him inside the tent. They sat there while Harry opened his book of pictures she really liked.

"You should visit me in Boston when you come back from L.A." He nodded. "Harry, do you care about me?" He looked at her taking a swig of Jack. If you looked at him, he seemed fine, but on the inside, he was cold, empty, and wasted. He was good at composing himself, but god forbid he ever got on that bike in his state of mind.

"Sure." He laid back. She sat up and took off her shirt. Harry seemed confused. "What are you doing?"

"I love you, Harry, I want you to be my first before I go off to college." Harry felt bad, horrible because he could feel himself blacking out, things became difficult to understand.

"I love you too?" He blinked feeling his heart get colder. He didn't love her, he didn't want to do this, but she was kissing him. She was the only person that cared for him. She was touching him, and then, everything went black.

When Harry woke up the next morning he was confused. What had happened last night. He looked around and found a paper.

Harry-

Last night meant a lot, I'll be back in November, call me.

-Sara.

Harry crumbled the note and stood to put on his clothes. "I have to get the fuck out of here," he said to himself. Nothing was going to tie him down, nothing and no one.

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Harry

"Baby, can you fix my stupid tie?" I called Jane. She walked into our room from the closet in her pink dress and I whistled. "Wow, you look stunning." She blushed walking up to fix my tie.

Today was her parent's vow renewal and we were getting ready earlier so we could make it to the photos. She finished my tie and looked at my hair.

"Put a little gel or something, you're hair looks messy." I gasped. "Please, we don't have time for you to be offended, just do it for me." I saluted her walking to the bathroom. She called out for Daisy while I did my hair quickly. I closed the bathroom door and grabbed my suit jacket and Jane's shoes.

"Baby, you need help putting these on?" I asked her as she walked out with Daisy. I smiled proudly as my little girl was wearing her dress. "Toots, you look like a million bucks." She smiled.

"I'm a princess!" She jumped up and down. "Mickey!" She called the dog out. He ran over and I almost lost it, he was wearing a tuxedo.

"Why is the dog wearing a suit?" I asked.

Jane put on her earrings and sat down to put her leg up so I could strap on her shoes. "He's family, these photos will be our family photo for the year. Daisy wants him in our photo." I looked at my Daisy and laughed. She was just so adorable.

After we were ready we drove towards the park where we were supposed to meet and saw Jane's family. We parked and saw that everyone was getting individual shots from the photographer.

I held Daisy's hand in one hand and the dog's leash in the other. Jane held her other hand as we walked towards the family. "Oh Jane, you look gorgeous honey!" Jane's mom said. "Charles look at their dog."

"That's funny, he looks better than I do." We took photos and I smiled in all of them, knowing have would be upset if I didn't.

Later we went to the banquet room for the renewal. It was sweet and quick. Little words were exchanged, but a feeling of love was in the air. I sat at our table with Louis looking around at Jane's family members who all were talking and eating amongst themselves.

Something was off with Louis, I hadn't seen him all week, he claimed he had personal stuff. We had been arguing a lot at work, but he said it wasn't that. "You alright man?" He looked up and nodded. "You want to go outside?" He nodded. I walked out with him and he sat on the bench outside. "What's wrong man, no bullshit."

He looked down. "Olivia was pregnant." He said sadly. "She miscarried last week." I sat beside him and put an arm on his shoulder. I can't be of help so all I did was share the silence.

"I'm sorry bro, I really am." He shrugged.

"Olivia cried for a whole day, non-stop. She said it was her fault, but it wasn't you know. It's just sad." He stood up rubbing his face. "I need to get out of here." He began to walk but I grabbed his shoulder. Jane had this rule that you never leave, and especially never drive, angry or upset.

"No you don't, relax." I pulled him back.

"Fuck off Harry, I need to go for a drive, listen to hardcore metal or something." I laughed getting in front of him. "Move or I'll deck you." I laughed again but was interrupted by his fist connecting to my jaw. I pulled back and stared at him. "Told you."

I punched him back in the arm and he groaned shoving me hard. "Are you fucking serious right now!" I pushed him.

"Told you not to fuck with me, I have built up emotions!" He shoved me. This time I hit him back in the face. He yelled tackling me to the ground. Louis was small but strong. "Fucking asshole, all I do for you!" He punched my face.

"Do for me!? I was just trying to help!" He got me in a headlock when suddenly Jane walked out and screamed.

"What the fuck! Louis let go of him!" She screamed smacking him. He let go and he turned to Jane.

"Fucking bitch that hurt!" He cursed grabbing his face. I suddenly lost it and tackled him to the ground. "Fuck you, Harry!" He told me hitting me back. He got me right in the eye and I could hear Jane call for help.

"Don't ever call my wife a bitch!" Suddenly I was grabbed by someone and had my hands above my head in a full nelson. Holden held onto Louis in the same way and I could hear Olivia scream.

"What the hell is going on?!" Jane's dad asked. I told him and Olivia walked over to Louis.

"Car. Now." She told him. He sighed being let go by Holden and followed her to the car. Charles let me go and I looked around at Jane and her sister's.

"I'm sorry," I said dusting myself off. Jane looked furious so I looked at Charles. "I'm sorry sir." He looked at me and told me to go clean up. I nodded walking past everyone.

I went into the bathroom and looked at myself in the mirror sighing. Louis had cut my lip and my eye was turning purple. I dusted my jacket and fixed my suit. I washed my face when I heard someone come in.

"What the hell was that?!" Jane said standing there with her arms crossed.

"He hit me first, he was going to leave angry because he's having a bad week. Olivia miscarried and he's pissed. I told him to stay and he punched me. I'm sorry." She walked over and touched my lip.

"Are you okay?" I nodded. "I have some makeup to cover that eye and your chin." I pulled away. "Either you let me cover it or I will lose my shit." I sighed.

"Fine." She took out her makeup and slightly dusted around my eye. I looked better, but she was clearly still angry. "I'm sorry, I didn't plan to fight him."

"I know, it's just, I don't like you fighting. He's your best friend, apologize to him he was really excited about the baby." I nodded. "Be the bigger man in this situation."

"Okay." She kissed my forehead and thanked me walking out of the bathroom. As we walked out, standing there with her parent's wedding cake, was Sara. She looked the same, a bit more mature I'm sure.

"Oh, hi Jane, Harry." She smiled kindly.

"Sara, nice to see you again." She nodded turning back to push the cake into the banquet room. She didn't say anything else so I shrugged it off. Jane looked down and I knew, in her mind, she needed to know the truth. I walked her to her seat and told her I was going to get ice for my mouth. I ran out and looked around and saw Sara walking towards the kitchen. "Sara?" She turned and took a deep breath.

"Hey, how are you?" She gulped.

"I'm alright, you?" She smiled looking around.

"I'm a pastry chef." I nodded. "You're kinda the reason." I raised an eyebrow. "Before I left for college you told me I should bake, I took your advice and I actually enjoy my job." I nodded.

"I don't remember that, but I'm glad it worked out." She looked down. "Listen, last time we spoke, you said I told you that I loved you." She nodded. "When did I say that?" She sighed.

"The night before I left, we were in the tent-"

"See I remember that, but I don't know what happened. We were talking and I blacked out." She looked down.

"I told you I loved you, you said you loved me too. I told you I wanted you to be my first and you made- we had sex. Before you fell asleep you told me to wait for you. And I did, for a long time because I thought I meant something to you. And I didn't, did I?" I didn't know how to respond.

"You meant a lot to me, at the time. Sara, I had a lot of issues that I had not dealt with yet. I was a drunk, I had been in jail, I had done drugs, I was fucked up. I didn't love you, and if I was capable of it, I wouldn't have had sex with you." She looked heartbroken. "I'm a prick, I'm sorry."

"A part of me needed to hear that." A single tear fell down her cheek. "You were my first love." I sighed.

"Well my first love is sitting in the next room, and you're wearing a wedding ring, so I'm guessing you love someone more now." She nodded. "I have to go, goodbye."

"Bye Harry." She waved going into the kitchen. I stood there a second and turned back to the party.

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Jane

Later that night I woke up to use the restroom. When I returned to the bed I noticed Harry was awake. "You okay baby?" I laid back beside him. "Have you slept?"

"Yeah, a little while." His tone was off. I scooted closer and put an arm around him. "I'm not really in the cuddling mood Jane." I pulled my arm back and watched him in the dim room.

"Oh." I turned my back to him and moved away from him. Maybe he was upset, he had been acting funny since the wedding. I yawned closing my eyes to go back to bed, but I could hear him sniffle. A small whine came out like when he cries. I sat up and looked at him again. "Are you crying?"

"I feel sad." I turned on the light to find him hugging a pillow and crying.

"Hey, what happened, what's wrong?" I got closer to him and all he did was cry. "Harry, you're scaring me." He turned and hugged me.

"I did tell Sara that I loved her, and we did have sex." I flinched and looked down at him. "The night she left to college I had sex with her, told her I loved her, and to wait for me." He seemed almost afraid to tell me. I wouldn't be mad because it was so long ago, he was an entirely different version of himself, someone he didn't like. "You're mad." He stated.

"Harry, why would I be mad. Did you love her?" I didn't want to know, but it was too late to take back my question.

"No, I didn't, I just wanted someone to care about me-" he looked down. "She cared about me, but I didn't love her."

"Don't be defensive about it baby, it's in the past. If you did or didn't love her is fine, it's in the past-"

"But I lied to you-"

"No you didn't, you just didn't remember, I will never punish you for your past again. Especially something you can't remember, were you afraid to tell me?" He nodded. "Love, you shouldn't be afraid to tell me stuff, it's not like you still love her or whatever." He nodded. I scratched his head and rubbed his back trying to calm him. "Give me a kiss?" He leaned up and kissed my lips. "Another kiss." He chuckled kissing me again.

"I feel better." I held him close to my chest and he snuggled into me. Sometimes Harry needed to be held, he was never held right as a kid. Anne says he hated being held since he was a baby. Always getting into trouble, fighting and doing dangerous stuff. Now that he was older and realized how awesome cuddling was, he liked it a lot. "Thank you baby." It was quiet for a little while.

I began to fall asleep when he touched my butt. "Harry," I warned him.

"I'm just touching, no squeezing." I giggled. Suddenly he spanked it making me pull away from his embrace. "Spanking isn't squeezing Jane." I shook my head.

"Who understands you, crying one minute and then touching me the next." I poked his nose making him chuckle. He looked at me for a while and smiled. He lifted up the blanket, pulling me into his arms to cuddle. He pulled my leg over him, kissing my forehead. "Sweet dreams." He smiled.

"When I dream of you they're sweet." He mumbled falling asleep.

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Monday morning we had breakfast as a family in the kitchen. I made all of us waffles and fresh-squeezed orange juice. "So Daisy, we're going to have a wedding," Jane told Daisy who rolled her eyes.

"Another wedding mommy, who's getting married?" She said slightly grumpy, I laughed because I felt the same way about everyone else.

"Me and daddy are getting married." Her face got bright and she gasped. "We're going to have a big wedding." She squealed and I laughed at her reaction.

"Did daddy ask you to marry him?" Jane nodded. "When?"

"A long time ago, that's when he gave me my pretty ring." She showed Daisy the ring, but she just shook her head.

"I wasn't there?" She asked.

"Well, technically you were." I pointed out making Jane giggle. Daisy was in her belly when I asked Jane at the beach. I smiled standing up. "Daisy, should I ask mommy to marry me again?" She nodded quickly making Jane blush. I walked around the table and held Jane's hand. She stood and I looked at her hand. "I need a ring." She took off the ring and handed it to me.

"Daddy, get down on your knee like in the movie," Daisy whispered. I laughed and bent down. Jane watched me, gently touching my cheek.

"My love, you are my best friend and the only woman I will ever love. You are my whole world and make me the happiest man alive, will you marry me?" Jane nodded quickly.

"Yes, I will." I put the ring on her finger, a tan line of how much she wears it already visible on her finger. I stood up and put my arms around her kissing the top of her head.

"Awww!" Daisy clapped her hands. "Kiss her you fool." We both began laughing at her words. I held Jane's face and looked in her eyes for a moment.

"Kiss me." She whispered. "Like you mean it." I leaned down to press my lips to her for a sweet gentle kiss. We pulled away and I could hear Daisy beside us.

"Toots are you crying?" She nodded.

"I'm so happy!" She cried.

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I was in my office working on some paperwork when I got a call. "Hello, this is Harry?" I answered.

"Mr. Styles this is Daisy's teacher." I looked at the time and it was still early for me to pick her up.

"Oh, how can I help you, is everything alright?" I said saving my work.

"Well no, you see Daisy was in a bit of a fight." I flinched back. My baby in a fight I don't think so. "She was sharing some good news about you and your wife when another student commented something rude, and she just... snapped."

"What exactly does that mean?" I stood up grabbing my keys. Louis was out for lunch so I needed to have someone watch the place.

"Well she was talking about how you and your wife were getting married, the other student said that you two should already be married, and used an inappropriate word. Daisy then proceeded to hit the other student, we need you to come down here, we already have Mrs. Styles on the phone." I sighed letting her know I would be down in a bit.

When I made it I was waiting in the office where the other parents were talking to the principal. The teacher walked out with the kid and my eyes landed on the little boy with a bruise on his cheek, it was Ashton's son Mike.

"Harry?" I turned and Jane was walking in with Daisy. It was her lunchtime right now.

"Hi, baby." I kissed her cheek and she looked down at Daisy. "Daisy what did you do?"

Daisy looked down and crossed her arms. "Mike called me a bastard when I asked the teacher what that was, she said it was a bad word so I hit him." I looked over at the boy and down at my daughter. Maybe it was because he looked like his slimy disgusting father, but a rage went over me.

"Good," I said.

"Harry!" Jane put Daisy in the chair and grabbed my hand to walk to the side. "Are you insane? She just hit someone and all you can say is good?"

"You don't think he learned that word from his piece of shit dad?" Jane looked down and groaned quietly.

"That's not the point, this is my work. She can't be fighting kids, this is the second time she has a spat with someone." I crossed my arms and looked over at my sweet angel looking at her shoes.

The principal walked out and both Emma and Ashton walked out grabbing their son. "Michael, we talked about this before, bad words are not nice," Emma told him.

The principal called us in and the teacher stayed with Daisy. "Please sit, we just need to have a chat." I sat beside Jane and suddenly felt very self-conscious about my appearance. Jane wore her very clean work outfits like the principal, while I wore a loose black shirt and jeans, my hair slightly messy, and my tattoos on display. "Michael's parents want to have the kids apologize to each other, and move on from this little situation. They don't think Daisy should get in trouble-"

"He should get in trouble, what kind of kid calls a little girl a bastard?" Jane sighed pinching the bridge of her nose.

"Mr. Styles, Michael's parents want him to apologize, but Daisy should learn violence is not the answer." I looked at Jane who nodded.

"Whatever, I don't want to see his dad or I'll kick-"

"Harry." Jane stopped me. "I'm sorry, he's under a lot of stress." I scoffed and she gave me a look to shut up.

"I understand, well we just need you to just sign this contract-"

"For what?" I grabbed the paper on the desk and huffed. "A discipline contract, for what, she's four?"

"This is Daisy's second time getting into trouble of hitting other children. It is just so you are aware of what her consequences are if this happens again." I looked down at the paper and Jane quickly signed it.

"Sign it." She told me. I signed it and sat back in my chair. "We'll talk to her, I can assure you that." The principal stood and nodded shaking hands with us. I walked out and Ashton sat beside Emma and his punk ass kid.

"Jane, I'm so sorry about all of this," Emma told her.

Jane gulped. "Well, so are we right Daisy?" Daisy looked down and nodded.

"Yes, I'm sorry for hitting you, Mike." She looked at him.

"Michael says sorry for what you said," Emma told him.

"I'm sorry Daisy, you're my best friend and I'm sorry if I hurt your feelings. Can we still be friends?" Daisy nodded and hugged him. I looked up and Ashton was looking at Jane. He looked over at me and I gave him a dirty look. He gulped and looked down.

"Alright, well I have to get back, bye hon." He kissed Emma's cheek and waved to us walking out of the office. The teacher came back and took the kids to get their stuff since it was the end of the day for them. Emma walked beside us and waved walking out of the front office to go around to pick up her son. Jane looked at the time and then at me.

"I need to talk to you outside."

"I have to pick up-" I began but she huffed.

"Harry, outside now." I followed her outside and she paced for a second. "Do not ever undermine the situation like you just tried to. Your daughter is in so much trouble when I get home. No tv, no toys, and even the dog has to be outside for a while." I crossed my arms.

"Anything else?" I sarcastically remarked.

She looked up at me and shook her head in disbelief. "Yeah, don't be such a smartass like you're being right now." With that, she turned and went back into the office.

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-K