Hey guys... so this topic you see on the title is pretty personal... but over the years, I had messages from people asking me, "why do you always write about Naruto?" "Why do you like Naruto so much?" "It's so obvious you like him! I can tell by reading your story! Nia's feelings are too real"

And the truth is... yeah, you are right. I do like him. I've liked him since I was 16 and I'm turning 26 this month. It's almost been ten years. Now, you guys must be thinking, "how do you like an anime character for ten years? Don't you know they're not real? They can never hug you or kiss you or make love with you. I feel bad for you"

First off, I'm gonna say, I don't need you feeling bad for me. I don't need your pity or sympathy. I choose everyday to like this character for a reason and before you judge me, how about listening to how and why this all started.

To start off, I've ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS had crushes on fictional characters since I was THREE. From the moment I could remember, fictional characters were always attractive to me. My first fictional crush EVER was Link from Legend of Zelda. Now I don't know crap about that series now but back then, I just thought he was cute. Little did I know, I would keep on having these fictional characters, eventually having crushes on characters like Goku, Inuyasha, and Gohan when I was a little kid. I've had numerous crushes on fictional characters MY WHOLE LIFE.

The only time I'd give these crushes a break was when I had feelings for a real person, then my fictional crushes would go away... until I no longer had a real life crush, then they'd crash back into my heart.

My crush before Naruto... was Gohan. I had a big crush on him when I was 9-16 years old. However, I only really liked him cause I thought he was hot. I didn't really care for his personality. In fact, I think he's bland ashl. The only version of Gohan I like where I actually like his personality is Future Gohan, which is why I started that story of him. Got lots of respect for his character. But I didn't realize my crush on the other Gohan was shallow until... my crush on Naruto.

So how did I even end up having a crush on Naruto? Well to start off, let's talk about my school life when I was a teenager.

I'll be honest with you guys, I was like Nia. I got bullied pretty bad. And you obviously know why if you read my story. Because of my looks. Mainly, my FACE. People were always mean to me and saying that I was ugly af, ugly ashl, fugly, and all these horrible things. Now what made them think I'm ugly?

One: I have real bad acne scars
Two: My eyebrows are oddly shaped. I, like Nia, have a very noticeable curl at the center of one of my eyebrows
Three: my nose is wider
Four: my eyes are small. When I smile or laugh, they basically disappear and it makes me look horrible
Five: my natural hair is just really unattractive looking and short

I'll show you how bad I looked and you'll immediately see why they bullied me.

This is me when I was in high school. As you can see, my eyebrow is out of control, I have acne scarring, even though you can't see it that clearly since this photo is from over ten years ago. My hair looks ok in this, but trust me, I can never wear it out bc of how terrible it is. My nose is big. And the glasses is helping my eyes look a little bigger, but trust me, when I take them off, they're very small and ugly.

Back then, I actually used to have a pretty attractive body but NONE of that ever helped me out. Guys still thought I was fugly or a butter face (everything looks good but-her-face) and didn't wanna touch me even with a ten foot stick. I'll show you what my body used to look like.

See? You would agree my body was attractive, yes? Well, didn't matter. Face was still ugly asf to everyone. And if you think I look ok in these photos, it's literally just bc I either put a filter and heavily edited the photo or bc I have a face full of foundation to try and hide the amount of acne I had. Even with makeup, everyone thought I was hideous. It didn't matter what I did. I tried wearing weaves, makeup, keeping in decent shape, and everything but all of it was useless.

I tried so many years to clear my acne with numerous products, grow my hair out, and everything but nothing would work. I tried to workout when I could to be "thicc" but it all didn't matter. At some point, I just stopped trying altogether and pretty much let myself go once I got of high school bc it didn't matter how hard I tried, no one was attracted to me bc of my face so I just thought, "why should I keep working out? My body is pretty hot but no one cares bc im ugly. And it's not like anyone cares for my personality either so I have even less reason to stay in shape."

Obviously, I should've just stayed in shape just so I can be healthy, but I was just a kid who wanted boys to like me and when I saw no results of that happening from me trying to be thicc, I gave up and said F it, I'm eating whatever I want. It's hopeless. Two, part of my weight gain is bc of some medication I take that made me gain a lot of weight too but still... ended up fat regardless.

Anyway, what does this have to do with Naruto?
Well, bc of the amount of bullying I was going through, I became EXTREMELY depressed. I hated myself and thought I was the ugliest, most disgusting woman in the world. I even thought of doing the unthinkable multiple times. I was ready to give up on my life altogether.

During this time, my brother would keep talking about Naruto Shippuden and how amazing it was. I had watched the original Naruto when I was 14, up until Sasuke left the village after the fight with Naruto, but for some reason I never really paid attention to the show or Naruto himself cause I was obsessed with dbz and Gohan. And two, i never actually realized how similar I was to Naruto in regards to how it felt to be bullied.

However, when my brother kept talking about the show and then the character himself and how he was growing up, I was no lie, shocked. I was like, "wdym he's more mature and actually not obnoxious anymore" lol tbh, I had nothing against the original Naruto, but he just didn't catch my eye, or maybe he did but I was blinded by Gohan at the time. And then too, when I was 14, I had a crush on this amazingly awful guy so unfortunately, I wasn't crushing or looking at anime characters atm. If it weren't for that, I would've had a crush on original Naruto back then bc I would've been able to actually pay attention to his character.

Well, at sixteen, I didn't have a crush on anyone and so I was like, "ok let me see why my brother is sooo into Shippuden."

My first thought when I saw Naruto older? "Woah, he grew. What beautiful eyes he has and he's taller and looks my age now 😳"

And this was back when I didn't even like blonds with blue eyes. I was into dark hair and eyes. But ya, his eyes were the first thing that caught my attention. Idk how to explain but I was like, "something tells me he's gonna be just the biggest sweetheart I'd ever thought any anime guy to be. It just looks so kind and sincere"

Little did I know 😳😭

Anyway, so I started watching and honestly this was back when I actually liked NaruHina, so I was watching the show for itself and to see what happens between him and Hinata in Shippuden — basically nothing 🤣

Anyway, once I realized him and Hinata had absolutely no screen time tg, Naruto didn't even like her, and that they were indeed pretty awful, I paid more attention to just Naruto himself and oml... that man was 😩

All I can say is... Kind. That man is the definition of KIND. He was sooooooooooo empathetic and accepting of everyone. His words were so touching and the way he never stopped chasing after his dreams and completely believed in himself and was so positive and confident... UGH, my HEART! He was the biggest sweetheart I've ever got to witness in anime in regards to male characters.

Can he get feisty sometimes? Yes. But it's not that. Other characters can be ig nicer than him, but Naruto truly has a SPECIAL kind of kindness in him that drew me to him. It was the fact that he was so understanding of people. How he always tried to cheer them up or be there for them. It was the way he stands up for people who are bullied, mistreated, or hated by others. It really touched my heart bc it made me imagine... would he protect me like that if he were real? Would he show me the same kindness he shows these broken people like Gaara and stuff?

His loyalty to those he cares about... you don't see that often with real men. A lot of them stay betraying those they claim to "love" especially their girlfriends and wives, but Naruto was just... different. He's just a whole other breed. Truly pure of heart. He isn't a F boy, he isn't some druggie or smoker, or like he ain't a terrible person like a whole lot of real men are. He's amazing.

And Ik it's not fair to compare real men with a anime character but it's just like I'm sorry, these real dudes are SUCH A MESS. I've tried online dating and have tried to find a relationship on there and talked to sooooooooo many men ranging from attractive to unattractive, hoping they'd want some kind of relationship but I'm not joking when I say this but literally 99.9% of them are F boys, smokers, druggies, or just complete red flags. I've been on these apps since I was NINETEEN and haven't gone on ONE date bc of how terrible these men are on there. I have NO idea why I still have these apps.

And I'm not trying to crap on them but it's TRUE. I wish I was lying. I very much so wish I was. And real life guys are just as bad. They are SO shallow and EXTREMELY mean. I am absolutely SO sick of them. I find myself constantly going off on them on social media and getting angry bc of how horrible they are. They are literally such terrible people where I am. I cannot STAND THEM.

I don't bother to talk to any of them anymore. They are such devils. It's a never ending cycle. And trust me, I would LOVE to meet a kind, loyal man who puts my feelings for Naruto forever to bed, but lord have mercy, these dudes in my area need to be dumped with holy water and completely purified by the lord himself. And I'm not saying I'm this little Angel, cause I'm not, but I am not as terrible as these dudes in my area are.

All they care about is looks and sex. That's literally it. They don't care bout nothing else. Trash.

I want to move so badly, but I can't afford it atm otherwise, I would've BEEN LEFT. These people are Satan himself. I'm not even joking. They bullied me for my looks when I did NOTHING to them then wants to act like they're the victims when I stand up for myself. Awful. Gaslighters. Narcissists.

They are so evil, it's disgusting. I have to try not to throw up hearing them talk or just looking at them. I could NEVER date ANY of them here. Y'all gotta pray for me to get the money to move. I've had enough. They are so obsessed with the way I look and everything I do. They never leave me alone.

I'm sure if they read this, they're just gonna turn up the heat or try to say they feel bad for me but idc, if they wanna fight, we can fight. I'm tired of being their doormat and letting them treat me like shi for so many years to the point of me wanting to end it as a teenager.

If it weren't for Naruto, I would've been gave up on my life, I would've never been able to keep my head held high, and I would've never attempted to go on a journey to love and accept myself. Naruto will always be my hero and I will always have such a special place in my heart for him till the day I die. I will NEVER apologize for liking him or for feeling the way I did toward him growing up. I have the WORLD to thank for his character and Masashi Kishimoto. That man saved my life with his show and character as he did many others.

So ya, that's how I ended up liking Naruto and why I like him. I could go on and on about that character but I let my stories do the talking. I'm sorry if this was really unnecessary or obnoxious but people have been asking me this for years so I finally decided to address it.

And if these sorry dudes in my area read this and laugh or try to act like they pity me, they can shove a pole so far up their asses cause idgaf anymore. I'm NOT apologizing for who I am and the way god made me. If you think I'm crazy for liking Naruto, idgaf, how about I shove this foot down your throat and you can choke on that?

Like I said, if I meet my future husband, obviously my feelings for Naruto will be put to bed, but if not, I'll stay appreciating that character with every fiber in my being and not apologize or feel ashamed of what I feel 😤 yes, Ik he's not real but the way he has inspired and changed my life IS REAL.

That's about all I wanted to say y'all. Also, that I wanted to make another NaruNia story. Backstory... there was this one Gohan fanfic I read when I was 12 about this girl irl meeting a real life version of Gohan who was trying to hide his identity by trying to be one of us normal real life people in the real world separate from that of the DBZ world.

It was actually SO GOOD! It was my very FIRST FANFIC I READ EVER! And it was even the story that made me wanna WRITE FANFIC. God, it was so good but I can't remember what it was called. It was on quizilla before they deleted the site and the oc name was Story. Damn, I wish I could read it all over again.

Anyway, why am I mentioning this? Because, I wanna write a NaruNia story EXACTLY with that premise, where Nia is in our world and Naruto comes to her high school as a supposedly transfer student and with a different name but he's actually trying to hide the fact that he's Naruto. Trust me guys, that Gohan story with that idea was so damn good and that's why I decided to make my own fanfic as a teen. I wanna let out ALL my daydreams of Naruto being real in this story so maybe then I can finally get over him since I'll be writing a "what if" story if he were here with me.

I'll probably cry my AHH off writing this but I think I REALLY need this story. To let all my love and daydreams for Naruto out in a single story and then let it all go possibly. Again, I KNOW he's not real, but that doesn't mean my feelings will just drop like that bc of that fact. I gotta write my FINAL love letter to him to possibly FINALLY get over him and I'm gonna try to do that with this new NaruNia story. It's only right to do so.

Okay well that's all! I really wanna know what you guys think about this whole situation. Please comment if you have any thoughts. Anything will cheer me up at this point.

And what do you think of that story idea? Isn't it pretty good lol

Anyway, love you guys! Please remember to leave some comments, vote, and have a great rest of your day!