Hello, can you open your eyes for me?

You are finally in my life. I am so very blessed.

I'm Brian and this is my colleague Anna, we're Paramedics.

Breathe beautiful breathe.

Can you hear me, tell me your name?

Toast to Beautiful you. Green fingers.

No?  That's ok, just try to remain calm.

It's all about you and only you.

Here's my hand, can you squeeze it?  That's great, well done.

I just want you Beautiful, all of you.

I'm going to gently place pressure points down your body, now if you can squeeze my hand where it hurts.  Ok, that's good.

My god what are you doing to me.

Please can you grab the board and neck collar Anna.

Come here.  Open your eyes.

We're doing all we can.

Let's just go to bed I need to be wrapped around you.

Stay with me sweetheart.  I know it's difficult but try to remain calm.

Come with me my beautiful gorgeous wonderful Lily.

We're going to get you out.

This is the best way to wake up. My girlfriend is stunningly beautiful and exceptionally intelligent.

Tree is ready to be lifted now. The car may move, try to remain calm.

I feel it. I want to kiss you, touch you. I'm crazy for you. I want to stand very still and tell you how I feel.

Grab the bag Anna, there on the front seat, try and ascertain some ID.

Ommmmmmm. You'd better be able to run fast! It's just too easy Beautiful. What am I going to do with you? Namaste.

Umm, here we go bank card ID says her name is Liliana Jefferson, Brian.

My God, Lily that was......Jesus.

You will feel a sharp scratch.  This will help to ease some of the pain.

'You know I'll be, your life, your voice, your reason to be, my love, my heart is breathing for this, moment in time. I'll find the words to say, before you leave me today.'

Ok Liliana, I'm going to put this collar on to protect your neck.

'So any time you think that your heart is gonna sink, you know it won't, I want to build you a boat.'

No, don't try and speak.

We have a stowaway! Hello boy!

Breathe slowly, that's it.

'Breathe out, so I can breathe you in, hold you in.'

Ok Liliana, the Fire Service is going to start to take the roof off the car so we can get you out easier.  Try and remain as still as you can.

It's your song. 'We're running round like love is what we found, like nothing else could matter in our life.'

I'm just going to pop these ear plugs in to block out the noise.

'To think I might not see those eyes, makes it so hard not to cry.'

Hold my hand sweetheart.  I know you feel scared right now. We're nearly there.

We don't ask you to do much Lily; really I am very disappointed in you.

You are doing really well Liliana.

Hey, it's ok, family first remember.

I know it's hard but try to remain calm.

That was amazing, thank you so much.

Liliana stay with me.

Remember your overnight bag!

That's it, it's done now.  You were really brave, well done.

Night Beautiful, I--, thanks for a great time.

Heart rate is spiking Brian.  We need to up the medication and move fast.

Ok, another sharp scratch coming Liliana.

Right she's out.  On my count, 3,2,1 lift and let's go.

Ok, we have a 20-year-old female.  RTA fallen tree onto vehicle.  Trapped for 45 minutes.  Head, facial and possible chest and abdominal injuries.  Pulse 130, tubed, ventilated and right sided chest drain, GCS 7, sats 93%, 2 litres of saline given. ETA 15 minutes. 

-*-

'Beep beep beep beep beep beep'

Morning Lily.

Where am I?

You'll feel a little sting and perhaps coldness.  

Why can't I open my eyes?

It's just the medication going in.

Liliana, my wonderful girl.

What has happened?

We love you so very much; we're here Lily, with you. 

Why can't I speak?

Hi Sis,

Why can't I move?

Sorry I made you mad. I didn't mean to I swear, please forgive me.

Why is everyone sad?

Sam is sorry that we messed up the house and made you cross.

I need you Sis, please open you eyes.

It's ok Sam, I want to come back to you.

Afternoon Lily

I just need to take some blood. 

Why can't they hear me?

This tourniquet will feel a little tight on your arm.

Why do I feel nothing?

All done.

What has happened to you?

Cold hands, female voice, she's crying.    

I am sorry my text was so awful.  I am a horrible.  A horrible selfish person.  

Olivia or Nathalie? 

I think I'm pregnant, I need you please

Please don't cry.  I am here. 

Oh my God.  I haven't been good to you.

Why so many tears for me?

I am so sorry.

Nathalie or Olivia?

Please don't die; you have to come back to us.

I'll change, I'll be better, we can do girly stuff and hang out, please don't leave me, please, I need you. 

Evening Lily

I don't recognise all the voices, so many voices, so many different voices, too many.

Just going to take your blood pressure.

Nurse? 

This will feel a little tight around your arm.

I'm too tired for so many voices.  It hurts my head.    

I'll check on you later.

Where is he?  I need him.  I need to hear Mick. 

Hi Beautiful.  Bootiful Bun Top here. 

He's here!

You've got to come back to me

He's crying, no don't cry. I'm here Harry.

Packers, kisses, smoothies.

I love you.

You don't get to leave me

He can't hear me.

Come back to me

I said I love you Mick!

'And I feel that when I'm with you, it's alright'

'I know it's right.'

'To you, I'll give you the world'

Harry!

'And I wish you all the love in the world.'

'But most of all, I wish if from myself.'

Who the Hell are you?

Dad?

Harry Sir.

Robert, you need to calm.

Mum?

We do it for Lily.

I'm sorry for any upset I've caused.

Mick?

I met your parents.

I am tired now Harry, I need to sleep.

-*-

'I am nothing special; just a common man with common thoughts, and I've led a common life. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten. But in one respect I have succeeded as gloriously as anyone who's ever lived: I've loved another with all my heart and soul; and to me, this has always been enough.'

He's here again.  What are all those sweet but jumbled words?  

'Summer romances begin for all kinds of reasons, but when all is said and done, they have one thing in common. They're shooting stars, a spectacular moment of light in the heavens, fleeting glimpse of eternity, and in a flash they're gone.'

He's still here, still reading random words.  His rasp wraps around them...

'She was my dream. She made me who I am, and holding her in my arms was more natural to me than my own heartbeat. I think about her all the time. Even now, when I'm sitting here, I think about her. There could never have been another.'

.....Like love around me.

'She would tell him what she wanted in her life--her hopes and dreams for the future--and he would listen intently and then promise to make it all come true. And the way he said it made her believe him, and she knew how much he meant to her.'

Sorry to disturb you, I just need to check the monitors but please carry on it sounds lovely.  What is that?

It's the Notebook by Nicholas Sparks.

Aww that's beautiful, well hopefully Lily can hear you.

Yes it is beautiful.  Thank you, so do I.  

'For silence is pure. Silence is holy. It draws people together because only those who are comfortable with each other can sit without speaking. This is the great paradox.'

He's still reading.  I can still hear words.

'She wanted something else, something different, something more. Passion and romance, perhaps, or maybe quiet conversations in candlelit rooms, or perhaps something as simple as not being second.'

I can feel you.

'"I'm not usually like this, I'm sorry."

"Oh yes you are."

"I could be fun, if you want. I could be pensive, uhh... smart, superstitious, brave? And I, uhh, I can be light on my feet. I could be whatever you want. You just tell me what you want, and I'm gonna be that for you."

"You're dumb."

"I could be that."

Don't stop reading, don't stop talking to me.

'An ordinary beginning, something that would have been forgotten had it been anyone but her. But as he shook her hand and met those striking emerald eyes, he knew before he'd taken his next breath that she was the one he could spend the rest of his life looking for but never find again. She seemed that good, that perfect, while a summer wind blew through the trees.'

It's time for me to go today because mum is here.  I'll see you tomorrow. Love you.

Love me?  Mick must have gone, it must be Dad reading to me.  Harry doesn't love me.  

-*-

Afternoon sweetie.

How are you feeling?

The weather outside is glorious today.

I don't want to talk about the weather, I need more reading.

-*-

Evening my gorgeous Girl.

Dad?

If you can hear me I am so sorry, I didn't mean any of what I said, please Lily come back to us.

Dad don't cry please. 

We need you, we love you. You are going to get well and come back to us I know it.

-*-

Morning Beautiful.

He's here, again.

More of The Notebook story or some poetry?  Ok, I'll decide, poetry it is today Beautiful.

Anything Handsome, anything just read to me.  

This is the book I was reading the other day, 'You Get So Alone At Times That It Just Makes Sense.'  I like this one.

'I paid, got up, walked to the door, opened it. I heard the man say, "that guy's nuts." Out on the street I walked north feeling curiously honoured.'

Bukowski!  Ha, it's very me, makes me laugh.  Ah this one's a good one too.

'I feel no grief for being called something which I am not; in fact, it's enthralling, somehow, like a good back rub.'

And this one, in fact I would read them all but I won't.

I need you to keep reading to bring me back.  

'The area dividing the brain and the soul is affected in many ways by experience - some lose all mind and become soul: insane. Some lose all soul and become mind: intellectual. Some lose both and become: accepted.'

It makes me feel safe when you read to me. 

This is a passage from his book Women.

'That's the problem with drinking, I thought, as I poured myself a drink. If something bad happens you drink in an attempt to forget; if something good happens you drink in order to celebrate; and if nothing happens you drink to make something happen."

It's a riotous and raunchy book Beautiful, I probably shouldn't admit to you I've even read it.

'We split up at least once a week – 'Forever' – but always managed to make up, somehow. She had finished sculpting my head and had given it to me. When we'd split I'd put the head in my car next to me on the front seat, drive it over to her place and leave it outside her door on the porch. Then I'd go to a phone booth, ring her up and say, 'Your goddamned head is outside the door!' That head went back and forth....'

Now some romantic Rumi for you.

He sounds tired and sad, his hand is so comforting in mine. 

'I will soothe you and heal you, I will bring you roses, I too have been covered with thorns.'

I can't bring you flowers Beautiful.  They're not allowed in here but as soon as you are out of here I will buy you all the flowers you have ever wanted.

I don't want flowers, I just want you and to be out of this hell?

'The minute I heard my first love story, I started looking for you, not knowing how blind that was. Lovers don't finally meet somewhere, they're in each other all along.'

Perhaps we were in each other all along Beautiful, food for thought eh?

'I wait with silent passion for one gesture, one glance from you.'

"Please take you time to heal and when you have only then come back to me, not before. I need you but I need you to be well.  We've got our whole lives ahead of us, there's no rush.

There is a rush, if I don't get out soon I feel like I'll be trapped here forever.  Help me someone, please help me.