Third Time Lucky for Harry & Kendall? – People – Sunday, 3 July 2016

It appears that Harry Styles is attempting to re-Kendall his on/off romance with the Supermodel. The two were spotted enjoying a cozy dinner together at the exclusive Ysabel Restaurant in LA last night.

Harry, who has not been seen for three months, reappeared last week when he flew into LA to an army of waiting press and fans. He certainly didn't waste anytime wining and dining Kendall who only returned to LA on Friday from New York where she has been shooting new ads for Estee Lauder and Calvin Klein.

Rumour has it Harry is back in sunny California for an extended period to record new material and with no sign of his bandmates, it is assumed the launch of his solo career is imminent. After dumping Modest Management, the company that made him a global superstar, Styles signed a contract earlier this year with LA based Full Stop Management that is owned by his good friend Jeffrey Azoff, who previously worked at CAA and is son of music industry veteran, Irving Azoff.

Harry, Liam Payne, Louis Tomlinson and Niall Horan commenced their hiatus in December 2015 and while they've assured fans it's temporary, not everyone is convinced. With Harry seemingly planning a solo venture, spending time writing music for other artists and possibly branching out into acting, we aren't sure he'll have time to return to 1D.

So, is it once, twice, three times a Kendall for Harry? No representatives for either party were available for comment but you'll hear it here as soon as we have it!

I had a rough night of sleep and slept in quite late by hospital standards. I was unsure why but my insides were already bubbling with apprehension about leaving to go home. Olive was never far from my thoughts. She had finally told her parents about her pregnancy. Their initial reaction wasn't really a surprise. They went through the different stages of shock, anger, and disappointment but then finally pledged her their unconditional love and support, as I knew they would. Still, I could not help but worry about her.

I was concerned about my family situation, as although it had improved relations still seemed strained, particularly with my sister. Despite our regular contact, at the forefront of my thoughts was that I missed Harry and was upset that through non-fault of his own his return was delayed. My anxiety had spiked to a level where everything felt out of my control and to protect myself I had begun to shut down my emotions so I didn't feel anything.

I spoke to him just before I went to sleep on Saturday night. He had seen the doctor and been given the green light to fly home the following Wednesday. Relieved, we had both agreed there may not be much of an opportunity for us to speak on Sunday as it was going to be a really busy day for me with last minute tests and preparations for my leaving hospital early on Monday. Also, he was flying down to La Quinta to play golf and have lunch with friends.  Therefore, I was startled at 10am on Sunday morning when my phone lit up with Harry's ringtone, 'Satisfaction' by The Rolling Stones.

"Hi, Handsome, this is a lovely surprise. I wasn't expecting to hear from you today."

"Lily." He rarely called me that, it was usually Beautiful. His tone appeared precarious and immediately my tired mind perked-up.

"Nice dinner with Jeff?"

"The evening was-." He hesitated uncertainly.

"Are you ok, not drunk too much again have you?  You seem, I don't know, a bit distracted." I attempted to lighten the mood but to no avail. "Harry?"

"I-, Lily, I need to talk to you." He sounded deadpan.

My heartbeat increased ever so slightly in my chest so that I could hear its echo through my ears. "Okay what's up?"

"Look, it isn't what it seems."

"What isn't what it seems?"

"There's nothing in it, nothing happened."

He was so tentative trying to get his words out that they made no sense at all. "You are talking in riddles, I don't understand what you mean."

"Have you been online since you woke-up?"

"No, I hadn't even picked my phone up until you called. Harry what's going on?" My calm demeanour was crumbling fast at his worrying words.

He stalled at the other end and I could literally sense his anxiety.

"Harry?"

Then he blurted it out. "I had dinner with Kendall tonight."

His statement wasn't what I expected and he caught me off guard. "Oh, I thought you were dining with Jeff?"  It was not an accusation from me; it was just a straightforward question.

"I was. I did." He stumbled again and it was as though the words were there but he couldn't get them out.

"Harry, just start from the beginning." I coaxed him to elaborate further and he sucked in a really deep breath then explained.

"I went to dinner with Jeff. We arrived at Ysabel at 8.30pm. Around 8.45pm Kendall appeared with her friend and she headed straight for our table. Of course I was pleasant, she's a friend of both of us but then Jeff asked her to join us for dinner. Next minute, I notice there is someone snapping photos of us and lo and behold the headlines have already hit online and no doubt will be worse in the morning."

I physically breathed out a sigh of relief. "Well, I appreciate the call Handsome but I know to ignore the headlines and you two are friends so why so solemn?

"I'm annoyed at Jeff because I think he set it up. By the way she came into the restaurant, it was like she knew I was going to be there." I could tell he was pacing around at his end by the frustration evident in his voice.

"I understand you being annoyed but you must remember that Jeff doesn't know about me does he?"

"No but-."

"So you can hardly blame the guy. He knows you both really well and he thinks you are both single.  He is just trying to encourage you back together. Me aside, have you told him how you feel about her?"

"No, not directly but honestly, she's been back in LA for five fucking minutes, what was he thinking? Quiet dinner I said and next minute she's there. Coincidence, I think fucking not. There is nothing going on I swear to you." He sounded desperately unhappy.

"I know."

But he started again without listening to me. "It's always me that gets my private life splashed across the front pages and they make up assumptions and point the finger. Seriously, if only they knew the half of it. This is why I've gone to such great lengths to protect you from everyone. I am pissed at Jeff for setting me up without telling me. He has made assumptions just like everybody else does. Actually do you know what, I am not pissed at him I am fucking furious."

"Harry."

"I am so angry Lily."

"HARRY!" I raised my voice this time. "Listen to me, you had dinner with friends, that's it. We are all good."

"How can it be that simple for you? I thought you would be mad, furious even."

"Why would I be mad? I only need to hear the truth from you. We have that trust don't we?   I was becoming increasingly confused by what had initially appeared to be quite cut and dry.

"We do have trust, absolutely."

"Then it is ok isn't it?  There are going to be many occasions like this but as long as we are honest, as you have been now, we will be fine."

"But I'm mad."

"Then tell Jeff about us and he won't do it again. He thought he was doing the right thing. Why are you so het up about this? Is there something you are not telling me?"

"No, why do you think that?"

"Never mind. There is no issue is there, all is well with us?" That was half statement, half question.

"This is an issue though because headlines keep happening with her. I am buggered if I am going to let them ruin our relationship."

"They haven't ruined anything. You've explained it, I don't need you to explain anything else to me."

"You don't understand, I want to. Misunderstanding has played a part in the downfall of my past relationships, that and my inability to communicate my real feelings."

"You aren't like that with me though."

"I know and that what's makes us different but I need to tell you." Before I could say anything he launched into his story.

"Me and K have history. I had met her a few times at functions but towards the end of 2013 we went on a few dates and spent some time together. We were too young though, particularly her and she was a fan. It didn't feel right so I put a stop to it. I was too busy anyway with the band and she was launching her career, plus I didn't want to be tied down. It was amicable and we remained friends albeit from a distance. We hung out occasionally because her mother is a great friend of Jeff's mum and their two families know each other so naturally we spent some time in each other's company."

"I was actually seeing someone else at the end of the last tour but I spent some time in LA and Ken and I became close again. In the New Year, I holidayed in St Barts with Mum, Robin, Jeff, his family and she and her mum joined us. Spending that time together we became even closer. She was different, more mature, more sure of herself and I was going on hiatus, we got on well. It was fun and we decided we wanted to pursue something together. Pictures of us on that yacht flew around the world and suddenly all eyes were on us again. I'd wanted to keep it private, to see where it could go, but it turned into a publicity nightmare that I didn't' find amusing. I was due to fly back to LA after that holiday but much to her annoyance I flew home to London instead. That's when I decided I needed to get away from everything and put the wheels in motion to rent Summer Haze."

"So part of the getting away was from her?" My over imagination is now on a roll.

"No, not really. Ultimately, we are good friends. She understands me because she knows what I go through because she goes through the same. We have a connection. I've helped her through some bad times and she has done the same for me. We talk it through, she gets it, you know?"

I suddenly felt increasingly numb at his words. 'She gets it' like I don't because how could I having no experience of their lifestyles. I was tired and my healing brain was clouding my judgement but I didn't see it. I was stunned and my reply was immediate with no thought around it, instantly spewing with no filter what was on my mind.

"It seems you are blaming everyone else here but you are the only one to blame." There was no anger in my tone, just fact.

He was immediately taken aback by my response. "How do you reach that conclusion?"

"It seems Kendall has feelings for you Harry, she's holding some sort of torch for you. Have you been honest with her since the New Year and told her how you feel?"

"No I haven't. She says we would be good together, the ultimate couple, we could work and we should give it a go. I knew after that holiday, when everything had calmed down, that I just don't feel strongly enough about her. I have had two clear opportunities to commit to her and I haven't. I don't think that is ever going to change. She's a friend, a good friend but that's it."

"Well, she has a point, you would be good together. The Supermodel and the Pop Star. She knows it and it seems Jeff as your best friend and manager knows it too."

"I don't understand what you are saying."

"Why haven't you told her how you feel? You aren't being very fair to her Harry. It is like you are stringing her along; like she's your go to person when you need company?"

"How can you say that?"

"Well to be honest I understand your friendship with her but I am confused about your relationship with her."

"You have no need to be. I've called you immediately to explain; it's nearly 2am here."

"I ask myself if you have called me because you feel guilty."

"What? No, absolutely not!"

"It seems to me she knows what she wants but it is you who is the confused one. You've been shut away for a few months then as soon as you go back to LA and see her you are questioning everything in your mind. I think you still have some feelings for her, whatever those feelings are, but you won't admit it."

"No, no I do not."

"You say she gets you and you are good together."

"No, I said she said we are good together. I don't have feelings for her, well not in a romantic or sexual way. She's a friend that's all."

"But she has been much more than a friend in the past so why haven't you made your feelings towards her clear. Why just run away and hide."

"I just haven't."

"Well I actually feel sorry for her. She gets a tip off from Jeff and turns up at the restaurant at the drop of a hat. She's hoping for something based on the time you spent together in the New Year but you maintain you 'think' you can't give her that. Why not just tell her?"

"Whose side are you on?"

"It's not about sides. If I were in her shoes, however hard it is, I would want to know where I stand. The fact that you consistently haven't come clean suggests you are keeping your options open perhaps in the hope that if you change your mind and the opportunity presented itself in the future something might happen between the two of you."

"You are way, way off the mark here." There was anger in his voice.

"Am I?"

Then he softened. "Beautiful, don't do this. This is not what this phone call was meant to end up being."

"But it has ended up being. On the one hand you say at New Year you both agreed to give it a try and be together but now you say she is just a friend but you haven't told her that is how you see her.  Especially now we are supposed to be together."

"We are together, very much so.  Lily, please let me explain."

"Harry, I think you need to really think about what you want.  Something you could have put a stop to a long time ago keeps rearing up. Why not just quash any doubt instead of prolonging it? Is it because perhaps you are not ready to let her go?  Having seen her again you regret not trying to make it work with her."

"No, you've got this so wrong, so wrong, that isn't how it is at all.  It's you and me, that's it."

"Look, you are due to fly back on Wednesday. I think you should spend the remainder of the time thinking about what you want."

"I don't need to do that, I know what I want. I want you and only you. How can you say all this after everything?"

"I'm not questioning your feelings for me Harry. But I think you do need to think about how you feel about her. I mean really feel about her. I won't get into a competition with anyone else over you."

"A competition? My God, there is no comparison. I don't need time to think about this."

"Well I think you do and if you decide not to come back then call me, okay?"

"WHAT? No Lily, no. Don't hang up, don't you dare hang up."

"My physio is here now I've got to go. Get some sleep and we can talk again."

"Beautiful, please, I don't want us to leave the call like this."

"We will speak soon."

"Are you okay, tell me you are or I won't sleep."

"It doesn't matter Harry."

"Lily, it -."

I ended the call.