I noticed that she saw the pain and regret form more and more in his eyes. When I spoke, I felt broken and regretful.

The pain in my eyes were something that broke her more. Even though I was already broken... I felt horrible breaking her more.

"Allan." She spoke softly to me. She spoke in a kind, sweet, caring voice. "You're not a monster. You are my boyfriend. And I love you more than you could imagine. I don't wanna lose you." A sad smile formed on her lips as she said the last sentence. "I'm afraid of losing you..." Tears fell down her cheeks once again.

I saw her face just look sadder than ever. It just made me feel more horrible. She looked even more broken, and I felt broken. But I trying to hide mine.

I nodded slowly, "I'm afraid of losing you too... That's why you need someone better. So I can't lose you in a worse way. So you don't have to break completely because of me. I just want you safe away from me. I don't want you to get hurt anymore. I don't want to be the one who destroys your beautiful soul anymore."

"I want your light to continue to shine and not dim out. I want you to have an amazing happy life. You won't be able to find it with me. I'll only hurt you, and I don't want to hurt you..."