The older I get the less I care about what people think of me therefore the older I get the more I enjoy life
                                                                                                                         -Allyssa/Lyssa

(I never care what people think about me this quote is right A/N )

Badass kyra^^

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Recap

"What the hell why do you keep getting into trouble at school"my mom angrily yelled
While she was fuming and a new story begins

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Kyras p.o.v

"I'm not answering that"I said while ignoring her question I just sat back and acted like she didn't exist

"Just please tell me"she begged why should I tell her this is my business not hers nobody else's why do they keep bothering me

"Bye"I said ignoring her remark while getting my leather jacket on I'm going to get my hair done and colour my nails black

"Kyra don't walk away from me"she sternly said while trying to search me and see if I'm hiding stuff from her like bad things

"What the fuck don't touch me"I spat angrily I gave her a dirty look while walking out she begged me not to leave but me being me I ignored her

"Please don't leave kyra"she begged like literally she got on her knees and begged she almost cried I just shook my head and walked out the door getting into my car

I just drove to the nails shop maybe I should go to the mall Alyssa's nails yeah and that's when a memory came back to me

Memory

"Kyra do you think I should buy new clothes my clothes look ugly"she wined yeah she's sort of a drama queen

"Jeez you look good stop being such a drama queen"I told her which made her look at me like I was the one being a drama queen

"Don't call me that, but please help me I hate looking ugly"she wined see she's so dramatic about everything

"Okay but please promise your not gonna wine in the stores"I pleaded she looked unsure but promised anyway

"I promise"she said with a face saying "i don't think I can do it" which made her sigh

"See I'm still wining"she wined again this girl gives me a big headache but trust me once you get to know her she can get emotional

"Oh hush you winer"I said winer is that even a word man I'm. Bad at this

"I don't think that's even a word"she protested trying to defend her self I gotta admit it looks cute cause she had a little pout

"Okay whatever"I said blankly clearly annoyed with this conversation but that didn't stop her from talking

"Admit it"she told me she shaked me till I finally admitted it which made her smile

"Okay I admit it"I told her trying not to defend my self cause I'm tired of this talk where having if you where me you would probably understand

"Good now let's go I want ice cream"she wined but it sounded more like a scream mixed with a wine weird am I right

End of memory

That was the best day ever I miss them but fuck them right who needs them cause I sure don't and I never will need her again and him

As I got to Alyssa's nails I thought about going to Alyssa's hair after this I mean they are good at their job

I was at the front of the nails salon
"How would u like your nails"the same lady said she was still nice memory's are starting to come back

"All black"I said simply while she directed me to were she was going to do my nails I'll look even more of a badass after this

I waited as she did my nails then a fucking memory came well when me and Carmella came here all the time

Memory

Yes yes can't wait come on Kyra"Carmella squealed with a lot of excitement in her eyes I could tell it was important to her so it was important to me also

"Okay yeah I see your in a good mood"I said to her with a normal straight face she turned to me

"Yes but I'm happier than that I can't wait"she yelled out in excitement I looked her in the eyes I smiled at the site she was happy over a pair of pants

But snapped back to reality I put my hands on her shoulders and my smile grew bigger
But it was just a pants so I put my brave face and was trying to be cautious with her
Cause even though she was all giggity and shit she is kinda sensitive

"There just pants"I said but she didn't waste anytime before grabbing me and shaking me few

"There not just pants"she yelled making my eyes go wide eyed okay wow I didn't no she overreacts this much

"Okay okay let's go buy your dumb pants"I said with a grin which made her scowl at me I put my hands up in surrender

She smiled and grabbed my hand and literally dragged me to forever 21 I love it here
After she got her dumb pants she dragged me to Arden's I got a few shirts with pants
And than it was my turn to pick the store I dragged her to stitches and got new clothes I love there and than dragged her to the last place I wanted to go to Alyssa's nails to get my nails done

As we walked to Alyssa's nails we saw our group from school the:populars

"Should we meet with them"she asked clearly she wanted to go to our group because she liked a boy there Austin

"You can I'm gonna go to Alyssa's nails"I told her I put my arm over her shoulder
And smirked a cheeky smirk

"Your not coming does it have to do with "Austin" Hmm"I asked her she turned a nice shade of red pink rosy cheeks while I emphasized Austin's name

She looked down and look back up to me with pleading eyes meaning she didn't want
Me to tease her about it

"Fine go but I'll be seeing you later babe"I told I sent her a wink she blushed and turned around

"Later I love you"she yelled everybody looked at her and than looked to me

"What you can love your best friend"I yelled as I tried to glare at everybody which made everybody go back to what they where doing remember in a mall

End of memory

Why the fuck do I keep having memories I don't want to have these I fucking hate this I can't think about this fucking assholes

"Almost done miss"the same nice lady replied she's very nice so it's hard to be mean to some who's very nice

After a few minutes she finally finished I got up and smiled at them know for my hair to be done I'm going to look good

I left the shop I ran into Trent with another girl just going to ignore this and go to Alyssa's nails well we didn't see each other well he didn't I just avoided him

I walked up to the lady she was kinda asshole but two can play at this game
"What do you want"she asked me rudely I just chuckled

"Don't be a fucking bitch"I spat that made her be a little nicer you that's me the new rebel fuck that bitch

"Okay I would like tips of pink at the end of my hair"I said nicely she nodded she had a scared expression I sat down and got my hair done

I thought about another memory this time with zayden

Memory

I was about to turn around but bumped into someone which made the person drop everything the person had which instantly made me feel bad so I started picking their stuff up and repeated "sorry"over and over again

"Hey sweetheart don't worry"said the voice which made my breathing go weird cause oh my fucking God it was Zayden the bad boy act cool act cool where my thoughts cause the freaking bad boy was right in front of me and called me sweetheart

"Umm...ahhh...uhh"I sputtered jeez you idiot way to go for being and idiot my brain told me "shut up" I told my brain

"I can make you nervous"he sang he also had his head cocked to the side and a smirk
Forming on his lips making him look even cuter I just wanna kiss him snap out of it you idiot my brain told me I snapped out of my trance

"Hmm you wanna know something"I asked him which made him smirk even wider
This is gonna be good

"What is it sweetheart"he asked still had that smirk and what even made it worse he sang it again

Know it's my turn to smirk "the only thing making me nervous"I paused and put my two fingers on his chest and made them crawl up his chest in a sexy way "is that I can't wait for"Than I paused again and my fingers where making there way to his manhood
Than he froze "you to leave cause your making me nervous"I said with some lust which I was obviously faking "nah that's not true it's the other way around"I whispered into his ear with a smirk playing on my lips when I saw his nervous reaction when I was teasing him in away hint:sexy

I looked down and noticed he had a boner and which made me smirked at him

"Hmm your good,so why you out alone in the rain sunshine"he asked while trying to cover that face he was making well let me be specific:nervous reaction

"I'm here with my friend me and her where going to the mall but we didn't have a car and it started raining we where looking for someone to help us"I told him he already had a smirk

"Well I can help you cutie just say it"he said with a bit of glint in his eyes but this time he was grinning curious of my answer

"Fine"I said in defeat which followed with a long sigh he walked away but not before throwing a glance at me over his shoulder

"I'll be waiting sweetheart"he told me with a smirk why does he aways smirk I mean he looks cute wait what am I thinking I wanna slap it off of his stupid face

Memory over

She didn't finish my hair yet but it was almost done so I thought about another memory
This time it was with Spencer

Memory

Once in line i was almost finished till a boy my age came up to me he was handsome and everything
But not as zayden

"Excuse me miss you dropped this"said the kind boy maybe he comes to our school

"Thanks"i said giving him my kindest smile he gave me my phone god i was lucky he didnt take it

"So need help"he asked politely i geuss he could see i was struggling with theses

"Yes please and thank you"i replied i mean hes nice why should i be mean when hes really kind

"So you live in the nabiourhood"he asked me while walking me home

"Yeah my house is not far from here"i told him making him smile at me

"Really im new here and i might be your nabiour"he told me with the cutest smile ever or wait zaydens is cuter

"Oh well welcome"i told him putting my hand out for him to shake

"Thanks"he said looking into my eyes like he was trying to find something while i was doing the same

"Well my stop is almost here"i said stopping to see if he was okay with coming with me to take these inside

"I can help you if you want"he said with that charming smile here it is again i just love it

"Sure thank you"i said with my polite voice im trying give me some credit

Once we made it to my door step he helped me Carry them inside
Hes very nice and good looking

"Would you like to come in"i asked him he gave me nod while slowly coming in

"So may i know your name"he asked me making me smile of course he can

"My names kyra what about yours"i asked him he smiled also
Making my heart flutter

"Spencer"he said hes cute cute name and everything strong and im not forgetting sexy

"Well nice to meet you spencer"i said cheerfully saying is name i love it

"Nice to meet you to kyra"he said gentely grabbing my hand and kissing it charming

"You want hang here for a bit"i asked him he nodded while following me into the kitchen

"My parents arent home so you should be good"i told him he smiled but why

"Can we watch tv"he asked politly man hes so polite making me want to kiss him wait what i thought only zayden can do that

"Sure ill make popcorn"i told him while he picked a movie this is going to be good

Once i was done i came back while he was still picking

"Find anything yet"i asked him
He nodded no while he was still looking so i fegured ill help him

"No wait how about the-"before he could finish i dropped my braceltt my mom gave me i was about to pick it up but before i could spencers hand went there so that made us thouch hands slightly

We both looked up at eachother
"Sorry"we both said at the same time while blushing

He cleared his throut before speaking "so as i was saying why dont we watch Halloween"he suggseted blushing still

"Sure"i told him while he put it in i went to sit on The couch he came to sit by me once the movie started

"You comfortable"he asked while putting his arm around me i let him

"Very"i said snuggling into his chest while he put his head on mine

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After a while of the movie we talked for a bit i still have that date with zayden

"Whats your favorite color"i asked spencer we where talking about a lot i found out that his dad works at a club and his mom is famous and he has and ex girlfriend and one more thing he works at the club somtimes not just that hes going to my school

"Some kind of blue i forget what is called"he said shrugging his shoulders i might know what hes talking about

"I love that color its called Turquoise"i told him my eyes all wide cause we have the same favorite color

"Yeah thats it okay...so you have a favorite number"he asked while cocking his head to the side

"Yeah 27"i told him making him smile maybe we like the same number i dont know

"I like that number to it just gives me this kind of vibe"he told me with a grin

"Okay what is your worstest fear"i asked him making him chuckle

"Thats easy i dont know why but i've always been scared of dogs"he said with an ebarrased face

"No worries im scared of my sister she can be bossy"i told him making him laugh

"Same my brother scares me"he told me with a huge smile forming on his lips making me smile also

"Thats funny not...so what you wanna be when you grow up"he asked me before i could ask him
But lets not forget how cute he was when he smiled

"A writer what about you"i said with a huge smile i love talking about my self but of course zayden already knew these things about me

"I wanted to be a person who helps people with bi polar issues"he told me making me smile thats cute

"Thats cute i like it"i tolf him truthfully while he chuckled i was kinda confused

"I like you your very nice like you didnt laugh when i told you i like that about you"he told me with a smile

"Thanks you to"i told him truthfully but know it was an akaward silence

"So do you love singing"he asked making me remember a memorie when i was younger
Me and my dad always sang but know hes not the same person i looked up to back than cause of his problem on cheating on mom

"I love singing"i told him still in my little memorie ahh memories am i right

"I can go get my guitar"he said while getting up which made me get up to

"Sure i bet you have a great voice"I told him he gave me a smile before going home to get his guitar

While I was waiting for Spencer to get back he's very nice I can't wait for him to come to school with us

After waiting for 5 minutes I got bored so to pass time I called cara to see when's she coming

Kyra

So how's everything

Carmella

Good what about you

Kyra

I made a new friend his names Spencer

Carmella

Him

Kyra

Yeah he's coming back soon he's my nabiour he went to get his guitar and will be back soon

Carmella

Good luck

That's when the door bell rang why did he rung the bell he didn't have to

I walked up to the door and opened it only to see Zayden I thought it was Spencer

"Hey Kyra"he said barging in with his hands in his pockets like he owned the place

"Zayden what you doing here"I breathed out I'm kind worried cause Spencer could come soon

"I just missed you"he told me While hugging me making me smile wait back to the problem Spencer will be here soon

"I missed you to Zayden but my sister will be here soon"I told him trying to not blow my cover

"See you tomorrow"he asked as he gave me a kiss on side of my forehead

"See you Zayden"I said while closing the door before another knock came

"Yes"I said as I opened the door only to see Spencer there he rang the bell while Zayden was giving Spencer death glares

"Im back"Spencer said coming in
making Zayden give me a confused look

"I'll see you at school k Zayden"I told him giving him a little hug he gave me a little smile before leaving

"So you ready to sing"he asked me as we sat down beside eachother on the couch

"Why don't you sing first"I asked him still kinda scared I guess he could sence it

"I never really sang in front of other people before just my best friend Carmella and Charlie"I said I wonder how Charlie's doing

"Oh well you can try In front of me"he said trying to help me get over my fear or something

"S-sure"I said trying to be brave
That's if I can do that come on Kyra toughen up

"Here what are you going to sing"he asked cheerfully I geuss he's trying to be help me

"Thanks"I said while playing the guitar as I watched him and he did the same

"Wait how about we do it together we will sound good better yet great"he told me making me smile

"Okay"I replied happily cause maybe this will make me less scared and more braver

Song and playing guitar just imagine

Oh, maybe I came on too strong
Maybe I waited to long maybe I played my cards wrong oh,just a
Little bit wrong baby I apologize for it I cloud fall, or I could fly here in your aeroplane and I could live, I could die hanging on the words you say and i've been known to give me all and jumping in harder than ten thousand rocks on the lake we sang till we where cut off by someone coming in cara

"Hey sis who's this"she asked while she was standing at the door

"Spencer this is my sister cara this is Spencer"I told her while getting up

"Okay and what's he doing here"she asked me I have her a
Be polite look

"He's visiting"I said simply why should she care who's here and stuff like that's she doesn't live here anymore

"Oh well welcome oh and Kyra can you do the dishes I'm going to get Sally"she said a shooing me off to do them

"Fine"I said crossing my arms
She always gets her way and she's so bossy ugh

While Spencer sat down and waited for me to be done this is going to be a long week

End of memory

She finally finished my hair I was so tired of thinking about them but that's done with no more thinking about them I don't need them and they don't need me I got up and looked in the mirror I was so bad ass all I need is to some how get smokes and stuff
But how I was about to some how get money from a boy but not before I ran into Trent

"New make over"he said as he was behind me I turned around and put my best mean expression I ever had

"Yes"I said while walking to the store when we dated he was older that's why we're not in the same school he doesn't got to school he finished he's 18 and I'm 16 Well was now I'm 17 and he 19 so makes it illegal

"Well need anything else to complete the bad ass reputation"he asked me it's like he can read my mind or something

"Yes smokes and weed"I told him tryin to suck up to him and it worked he responded
Instantly

"Follow me I'll help you"he said while grabbing my hand but I pulled it away and he sighed but lead me to the store

Why is he being so nice is my question it's very weird but anyway just keeping my brain busy so no memories come back at all

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Once we got some stuff he left and I thanked him but did I really no why would I he hurt me and now I'm just fucked up well even Noel so I've giving up

After all this stuff getting ready and everything it was done with I go back to school even badder than before here I come people the new bad bitch is coming to school

Once I left i drove home and got ready to party cause I got some beer he was nice enough to get three bottles and know I'm getting drunk I went inside my mom and dad and sister were staring at me but I ignored them and got out my beer and drank I just did it I'm a sad fucking low like now we'll as I said before people call us that but e just live our life while they don't

I partied and danced and everything till my mom and dad came up man they were angry "what's happening"my dad asked I ignored him and finished my bottle throwing it on the ground that's were I belong

"Just listening to sad music and drinking being emotional"I slurred tears in my eyes dancing with my empty bottle I need more

"Baby girl stop it your destroying yourself"my dad said trying to take the bottle away from me but what do I care

I pushed his hand away anyway and danced trying not to be sad but in then end it he the day it's hard I can't take it any longer save me from this world god save me

"Kyra put the bottle down"my mom cried out I just ignored them my life is just a screw up I'm worthless shitty slut asshole bad girl  what else is there bitch

I wanted to be happy again why does this keep happening I was starting to lose my temper I smashed the bottle on the wall and cried putting my hand his my head
I hated my life I can't go on any longer

They left finally cause they fuck my life up to not just my old friends but my old boyfriend it's hard to deal with this shit not only that but  my baby brother

Then I thought about another memories that happened for when me charlie Carmella met

Memory

I was at school no one to play with it was lonely till I met carmella and Charlie
I was walking around looking for friends to play with then this girl came up to me she was very pretty can you guess who

"Hi my names carmella what's your name"the little girl asked making me smile

"Kyra"I said while smiling she was nice and pretty we became fast friends also

"Wanna play"she asked me I smiled and nodded that's the day I came up with her nickname

"Carmel"I said she looked at me and smiled that was till Charlie came she loved the nickname she allowed me to call her that

"Hey carmella who's this"the little boy asked her he was cute but not once have I ever thought about going out with him

"Charlie meet kyra kyra meet Charlie"she introduced us it was cute the best day ever

End of memory

This is the memory that lives on in my heart forever I'll never forget it I kept it in my keep safe box I'll always remember that wait what snap out of it kyra they are not your friends anymore

"All done miss"the lady said I paid and left I was pooped I spent my whole day here know I wanna go home and sleep and be lazy watch tv all day so I did I went home

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I was at home these fucking memories wouldn't stop coming I'm fucking done with this shit soon I can't take it anymore I'm just going to leave this place for a week soon but I just need to have a break I'll leave on the weekend I need time to think

But first it's time to relax I turned on the tv and watched Sam & cat I couldn't stop laughing they are so funny then another fucking memory came back I hate it it was with Spencer

Memory

After the ferries wheel we decided to eat and rest before we went on the himallaia that ride played music it goes front words and back words

"So before we go on the ride I have one more surprise for you"spencer said while he had something behind his back know I'm going to have to get him three things

"Spencer stop spoiling me I love you"I said putting my hands on his broad shoulders
And smelling him he smelled like cinnamon

"Okay baby I'll give my present you when your done sniffing me"he said while chuckling lightly

I took one more big whiff of his smell he smelled so good I did this for a few good minutes

"Ready"I said once I finished sniffing him he chuckled lightly while taking whatever was in his hands and showed me a baby bird

"He's for you baby you get to keep him"spencer said handing me the baby bird but not only that there was a note he had it in his beak I gently took it and the note read

To: my sweet girlfriend whom I love and call baby

If I were in Hell and you were in Heaven, I'd always look up and be proud of you. But, if I were in Heaven and you were in Hell, I'd ask God to send me down, because Heaven isn't Heaven without you.

From: your boyfriend who want to love you as best he can

I looked up at him tears in my eyes again why am I so emotional today is it because he makes me happy

"It's true baby"he said bringing me into a hug I cried onto his shoulder and know he had his shirt wet a bit

"I love you spencer I love you"I said over and over I looked at the corner of my eye and saw all my friend I guess they saw that they where shocked but zayden had a guilty look on his face

"And I love you"he said while rubbing my back and kissing my head every know and than

"Wanna go onto that ride"he asked caressing my hand and kissing my forehead and he lead us to that ride we where talking about

"Yes I would love to"I squealed while we both ran to the ride to get on first once we got there we where the first

After waiting in line we got on but we had to wait till the seats where filled up before we can go

"Everybody ready"the worker here asked happily everybody cheered me and Spencer also did

"Go"the worker said while pressing the button and everybody was screaming I was looking only to see everybody like my friend looking at me like they where happy for me

The started everybody screamed while the instructor put on the music the song played by Well i Don't know but the song was let me think I don't know that either

"Everybody put your hands in the air and scream"the instructor screamed while everybody put their hands in the air and did what he said even me and spencer

"Okay who's ready to go backwards"he asked us well more like screamed everybody cheered while the ride started going backwards

"Hands in the air"the instructor screamed everybody out their hands in the airs and screamed their heads off

Once it was over he asked everybody if they wanted to do it again and we did it was the best the played a new song

"That was so fun"I screamed happily while jumping up and down hugging spencer while I grabbed his hand and ran to our friends

Memory over

I don't want to have theses memory's I screamed so loud my parents heard
"I hate my life I just wanna be happy"I screamed I was pulling at my hair I was curled into a little ball crying and screaming my head off and pulling my hair

"Help me I can't take it anymore I don't want to have these stupid memories anymore"I screamed while getting up and punching the wall suddenly I was held back into someone's arms I kept trying to get out but they wouldn't let me

I looked up it was my dad I tried I didn't want him to hold me like he use to he's hurting my mom I haven't even Did anything about it I hate him

"Noo leave me alone"I screamed getting up and out of his arms I'm not going to love my dad all he does is hurt us now he deserves to be hurt

"But baby girl I've changed I'm cheating anymore"he told me truthfully I smiled evilly I'm going to fucking blackmail the fucking ass hole

"Oh yeah tell that to mom when I show her what you said"I told him showing my phone and smirking evilly I'm doing this for my mom

"And how you going to do that"he asked me he just had straight face he was trying to hide his hurt well not anymore

"The phone you idiot"I said while showing it more just in case he couldn't see that I was holding it up

"Wait wait can't we come to some agreement"he begged and if your not forgetting this is my dad wow he only cares about him self

"Yes you get me whatever I want for a whole week even if it's expensive"I said smirking I'm going to win and I'll get what I want

"Deal"he said shaking my hand and walking away he thinks he's going to get away with this I'm going to get stuff i want then I'm going to tell anyways

Your not going to win daddy you will lose the idiot ass is going down

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